âDo you want to talk about it?â I ask, entering the room that Greyâs using as an office.
âNothing to talk about.â He keeps his gaze firmly on the screen in front of him.
âDonât do that, Grey. Weâve been a team for over twenty yearsâthat doesnât stop now.â
Shutting the door behind me, I cross the room and sit in the small chair set up in front of his desk as though heâd actually have meetings in here. But I know two things to be true about Greysonâheâs as loyal as they come, and he loves his routine.
âDid we fuck him up?â he blurts without looking at me.
The truth is, Iâve been asking myself the same question. Not because he dresses differently, or even because he sometimes wears eyeliner as a mask. But because weâve always treated him as an equal.
âWe were twelve when she died, Grey.â He throws his pen across the room. âWhen he killed her.â
âWhen he killed her,â I agree. Once Violet began to show during her pregnancy, their father kept her locked in her room so no one would find out. Image above all else was his motto.
We used to sit outside her door and talk to her. My grandfather tried to get her removed from the home multiple times, but no one would believe usâeven with all the wealth and connections my grandfather had, Mr. Wells had more.
Thatâs when we learned that money canât buy everything.
We later found out that she had something called preeclampsia and went into labor early while we were at school. When we got home, we couldnât get the door down in time. Grey and I delivered Sage with the help of 911 while the ambulance was on the way, but Violet passed away en route to the hospital, and she would never tell us who the father was.
She was seventeenâthe same age as Sage.
âWe were kids playing house, Grey. Sure, we had nannies and Ace who supervised sometimes, but we were very clear from the beginning that Sage was our responsibilityâwe owed it to Vi. We did the best we could, and weâve loved him every day of his life. We gave him the best of us at every step.â
âHeâs seventeen.â He coughs to hide his emotion.
âHe is, and we all handled that birthday differently, but weâre here, and heâs been taking college classes for three years. Heâs going to be eighteen soon.â
âHe really wants this.â Grey finally looks at me, and all the pain heâs carrying shows in his expression. The guilt, the misplaced shame, the fear.
âI think so. Heâs never really asked us for anything, so that right there is telling.â
âI know, but he spent all of eight hours with them. And heâs not conditioned. Heâs never even played a contact sport with guys that size.â
âGreyson. You know kickers donât get tackled that often.â
âBut they do sometimes.â
âThey doâ¦sometimes, and we can work with him. All those boys who showed up for dinner, they promised to work with him too.â
After Coach B. pulled us out from the bleachers, which has circulated town more than once, two things became abundantly clear: they want Sage on the team, and Sage is ready to go to college.
âWhat happens when we leave, though? Whatâs he going to do? Stay here with Pops?â
âHeâs at that age where most kids are going off to college anyway, and there are worse people he could count on while heâs away.â
I knew Grey would have a hard time letting go, but I didnât realize it would be this bad, so I donât tell him that this place feels like home for me too. The last thing I ever want my best friend to think or feel is that weâre moving on without him.
He is and always will be my family.
âIs the way theyâre getting him enrolled partway through a semester even legal? What happens if we let him go and then he ends up getting removed from the school and the team?â Heâs grasping at straws, and by the deepening of his frown, he knows it.
âI have someone in Mr. Coopâs firm looking into it.â
âWhy is this so hard?â
âBecause letting him go, even when itâs the right thing to do, is a reminder of who weâve lost.â
âFuck me.â He points an angry finger my way. âYou need to get the fuck away from Pops. Youâre sounding too much like him.â
âHe did say happiness is found here.â
âFucking happiness.â He reclines in his office chair and stretches his arms over his head. âLife is changing, Brax.â
âI know thatâs hard for you, but not all change is bad.â
After Violetâs death, he did everything in his power to keep things regulated, easy, safe. Sometimes I think thatâs why he gravitated toward football tooâit was the only time he let his emotions loose.
He leans forward and places his forearms on his desk. âYou really like Madi, donât you? Iâve never seen you this way before.â
âI do, and Iâve never felt this way. Please, just give them a chance. Let them in, and let them see the person who held my head up and out of the toilet when I had Covid and was vomiting for days. The kid who kicked Larry Johnsonâs ass for pantsing me in PE class. The man whoâs stood by my side when I didnât know who to lean on.â
âWho the fuck am I going to be if Iâm not Sageâs uncle?â
âYouâre a moron.â I chuckle. âWeâll always be his uncles, heâll always need his guardians, he just wonât always need us holding his hand and protecting him. Jesus, Grey. The kid is nearing six foot four.â
Finally, he laughs, and something unclenches in my stomach. My friend has been hiding behind spreadsheets and to-do lists for so long Iâm afraid he wonât be able to find his way out.
âBut heâs a scrawny thing. Heâll break something if he gets tackled. He gets that from you,â Grey deadpans.
âNot a chance. Iâm one solid rock of muscle, my friendâwhat the kids call a snack.â
He picks up a pad of paper and tosses it at my head.
âNobody is saying we have to go home, Grey. If Sage is happy hereâ ââ
âAnd youâre happy here,â he interrupts.
âAnd if Iâm happy here, donât you think itâs worth a shot to see if we all could be happy here?â
âI am happy,â he snarls, and I pointedly lift my brows. âIâll try. I have missed football.â
âI know,â I say sadly. âI wish you hadnât given that up for me.â
Every scout in the country had picked Grey as the number one draft pick, but he skipped the draft that year to stand by my side at Omni-Reyes. Weâd just received Aceâs MS diagnosis, and my father started burning down innocent peopleâs lives, so we walked away from football, college, everything, and we did it together, but I know it was harder for him than it was for me.
âIt wasnât for you,â he mutters. âWell, not only you. Whatever, it wasnât a choice. Family always comes first.â
âWhich is why I already turned in Sageâs health forms.â
âAsshole. You were that confident you could talk me into this?â
âNo, I was that confident that you loved Sage enough to let him try.â
He nods and wakes up his screen by aggressively shoving his mouse around. âI have work to do. Have fun on your date.â
I stand to go. âYou know, Madison has a lot of friends.â
The sound that Grey emits is part disgust and part horror. âIâve met her friends. Iâll pass.â
âCare to tell me whatâs going on between you and Savvy?â
âWho?â
âYou know who. The tall brunette. What did she do to piss you off so badly?â
âNothing. She made assumptions she shouldnât have. I donât care if sheâs pissed or angry. I really have no feelings toward her at all.â
âI want Madison to be my girlfriend.â My voice cracks as though Iâm fifteen again.
Slowly, he lifts his head. âYouâve never had a girlfriend.â He digs in his pocket and produces a coin.
âNeither have you,â I throw back.
âAt least Iâve gone on actual dates.â He leans back in his chair and really studies me. âAre you asking for permission or for advice?â
âIâ I donât know. Itâs just, itâs a big step.â
âAnother change,â he says, rolling the coin through his fingers. âYou want a girlfriend, and Sage wants to join a football team.â
Itâs almost as though saying it out loud makes him process it in a different way because his face relaxes as he mutters it again, this time to himself.
âMaybe change is what we need, Grey.â
The line forms between his brows, but he doesnât disagree with me. âMaybe. Send Sage up on your way out, please. Maybe Iâll take him out to dinner.â
âWhat do you think about me and Madison?â
âI think it doesnât matter what anyone else thinks, Brax. This is something you have to do on your own. But if you want my opinion, I think she makes you happy. Now go before youâre late. And send Sage up. Iâm starving.â
âDonât forget Pops.â
âOh, I would never,â he says sarcastically.
I chuckle and enter the hallway as Madison exits her room. She stops short when she finds me.
I stalk her slowly, even though heat rolls through my veins faster than a Bugatti.
âYou look beautiful,â I whisper when Iâm close enough that her light citrusy scent creates a Pavlovian response.
She juts a hip out to the side as she leans against the wall. âYou havenât even looked at my outfit.â
Sheâs right. I fall into her cerulean-blue eyes every time she graces me with a glimpse.
âI donât need to.â Lifting my hand, I rub one of her curls between my thumb and forefinger. Itâs so damn soft. âYou always look beautiful.â
âCharmer.â Sheâs shaking her head while staring up at me through long, thick lashes.
âI want to kiss you.â The words mix with a rumble of desire in my chest.
âYes. I mean, okay.â
I love that I fluster her when Iâm this close. âBut Iâm not going to, not yet.â
âWhat?â She frowns. âWhy not?â
âBecause Iâm taking you on a proper date, and a gentleman wouldnât kiss you until youâve gotten to know him better. Are you ready to go?â
âYouâre really weird. Weâre basically living together. Oh, God. Not living together, living together. I mean youâre staying in an inn that I live in. I think Iâve gotten to know you pretty well over the last couple of months.â
Leaning in so weâre sharing breath, I grin wide and carefree, then press my cheek against hers. âYou want me to kiss you.â
Her chest hitches, and heat warms my neck when she exhales.
âThatâs a dumb question.â She shivers, and I love the feel of it against my skin.
âIt wasnât a question, sunshine. You want me to kiss you, and I will, but Iâm going to make you work for it.â
She swallows, and I feel it everywhere.
I press my lips to her cheek and hold them there a beat longer than necessary before pulling away.
Madisonâs pupils have dilated, and her chest heaves. Sheâs fucking perfect.
She stares up at me with her lips slightly parted, and I almost give in. Iâve never wanted anything as badly as I want to pin her to the wall and run my fingers and tongue over every inch of her body.
My dick agrees and twitches in my pants. Itâs my sign to back away, but even space wonât be enough to ease the ache of wanting her.
âIâll see you in a few minutes,â I say and step past her so I donât do what every molecule in my body is screaming at me to do.
âWait,â she calls after me, but Iâm already halfway down the stairs. âWhere are you going?â
âYouâll see,â I say without turning back.
Pops is sitting in his recliner in his favorite positionâfeet up, hands clasped behind his head, wearing a smile that probably matches my own.
And then he starts whistling.
Sage walks out of the kitchen with a slice of pizza thatâs bigger than his entire head.
âHey, Grey wants to talk to you about dinner, heâs upstairs.â
Sage gives me a two-finger salute, crams half the pizza in his mouth, and walks up the stairs.
Teenagers.
âYou too, Pops. Grey will be down in a bit to take you out, so you better behave.â
âPfft. I always do,â he says while rolling his feet back and forth on the footrest. âIâm looking forward to going.â
âI think Grey is too. Iâll see you in a minute.â
He nods, and I go out the front door.
Cian really came through for me today. After we finished pulling wallpaper from the third floor that looked as though it hadnât been used in a hundred years, he ran out to pick up flowers for me. They should be in my truck.
Opening the driverâs side door, I find them beautifully wrapped and resting on a giant box of extra-small condoms.
Thereâs no way Iâm carrying these into the house, but if I leave them in the truck, Madison might see them, and thatâs not going to happen.
Picking them up, I spin in a circle, but the only thing I can find is the mailbox, so I jog over to it and shove them inside.
Do not forget to get them out before Pops does. Thatâs the last thing I need.
Then, with the flowers in my hand, I walk up the front steps and ring the doorbell.
âMads, thatâs for you.â I hear Pops shout.
When I lean to the left, I find him waving at me through the window with both hands.
He is a loveable menace.
The door swings open, and Madison stands under the glow of the hallway light. I take her in as though itâs the first time seeing her, and maybe it is, because what I see tonight is my future.
She bites her bottom lip and tilts her head as if sheâs thinking.
I pull the flowers from behind my back and hand them to her.
âBlue looks stunning on you, sunshine. It is definitely your color.â Sheâs wearing a cornflower-blue form-fitting sweater dress that sheâs paired with ankle boots. Her jewelry is minimal, something so opposite of the women Iâve grown up around, and it makes me want her even more.
The small gold cross she wears highlights the slight dip in the neckline of her dress and matches the gold bracelets that jingle on her left wrist.
âI mean, you really are gorgeous.â
The dimples on each side of her cheeks deepen, and she swings the door wide so I can enter.
Pops stands to the side holding a shotgun, and I about shit my pants.
âWhat the hell, Pops? What are you doing with a gun?â
His cheeks twitch as if heâs holding back laughter. âJust what are your intentions with my granddaughter, young man?â
Young man? He didnât call me boy, or Braxton. It hits me then. Heâs playing a partâheâs giving us both something we never had, and a wall of gratitude wells up inside me, even if I wish heâd put the fucking gun away.
âHer last beau never picked her up, never held the door. That jackass even made her pay. That no-good son of a truckerâs hat with no capâ ââ
âAh, Pops.â
He peers over his shoulder at Madison.
âYouâre getting a little off-topic,â she reminds him.
âWhoa. What the hellâs this?â Grey asks from the stairs, attempting and failing to keep Sage behind him.
Pops points to me with the end of the shotgun. âIâm finding out what his intentions are with my granddaughter.â He finishes his sentence with a sharp nod of his head, as though thatâs the end of the discussion.
âOh, this is going to be good.â Sage plants his ass on the stairs to watch.
âThis is something Iâd like to see too.â Grey plops down on a stair just in front of Sage.
âPops. Donât be ridiculous.â Madi reaches for the door, but I take her hand in mine and turn toward her grandfather with her behind me.
He shrugs, pulls the trigger and a little flag shoots out that says Pop!!!
âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me.â Grey chuckles. Sage sits just behind him with his chin in both hands, howling in laughter.
âJesus, Pops.â I rub my chest as though he shot me while everyone else laughs at my expense.
Whatever. Pops wants this, and Iâm willing to play along.
âMy intentions, sir, are to treat Madison with respect, get to know her when she isnât everyoneâs right hand, and then bring her home safely because I am a perfect gentleman.â
Grey chokes and makes a rolling motion with his hand as if to continue, but his shoulders shake with laughter.
So what if perfect gentleman isnât exactly what Iâd call my encounters with other women? Madison isnât other women.
Sheâs mine.
As soon as I think it, I know itâs true. I also know that Iâll do whatever necessary to make it my reality.
âFine. Fine,â Pops says, tossing the toy gun onto the sofa. Then he makes an Iâm watching you gesture with his fingers. âIâve got eyes everywhere. Remember that.â
Then he literally doubles over laughing. With one hand on his thigh, he slaps the other on his knee. âGo, have fun,â he says in between fits of laughter.
Madison tugs on my arm and leads me back to the front door. Iâm not even sure when I started moving closer to the slightly unhinged man with a toy gun.
âBye,â she calls over her shoulder. Once Iâm on the porch, she pulls the door shut with a loud snap. âSorry.
âHe does enjoy keeping things interesting.â I laugh, and her shoulders relax. âReady?â
âYou didnât tell me where weâre going.â
Placing my palm on the small of her back, I guide her down the stairs and to my truck. âItâs a surprise.â
âThen you should know, I donât handle surprises very well.â
âIf you hate it, then weâll leave. Tonight is all about you.â
I follow her into the truck, and my chest puffs up with pride when she slides to the middle seat. I may even strut as I round the hood and get in.
My hand skims her knee, and I gently squeeze it before turning the ignition. âI like you here.â
âI like being here,â she says softly. âAre you sure you donât want to tell me where weâre going?â
âAnd ruin the surprise? Not a chance, sunshine. Not a chance.â