I wasnât sure how Iâd gotten here. Waiting in the airport to board an airplane for the very first time.
The farthest Iâd ever traveled was from Houston to Dallas on that fateful Greyhound trip, and nowâ¦here I wasâ¦about to fly across the country to Boston.
Growing up, Iâd dreamed about what it would be like to travel the world, to have an adventure.
And here I was.
Just another way Lincoln was blowing through all my defenses and making my dreams come true.
Now that I was here, I wasnât sure why Iâd been so against coming in the first place. Oh, rightâit was because I used to have a job to worry about.
I pushed the thought away. It had just happened that morning, but Lincoln had bought a ticket for me a few days agoâ¦just in case, heâd said.
I was ecstatic about it now.
I pulled up my ticket again in the app, checking it for the fiftieth time. Lincoln had to explain the whole process for me, because my anxiety had been through the roof thinking about traveling like this alone. Lincoln had to go on the team plane, and I felt like Iâd lost my safety blanket.
I also felt like an idiot for how much I didnât know aboutâ¦everything. Compared to Lincoln, Iâd done nothing. And he didnât seem to mind at all. In factâ¦he seemed toâ¦like it. He liked being the one to teach me things. He liked taking care of me. Heâd texted me a million times from the team plane so far, making sure I was okay. Heâd even ordered my Starbucks for me and had it waiting at pick up because Iâd been nervous about stopping and possibly missing the flight because of a long line.
Lincoln seemed to revel in the fact that Iâd started to depend on him for everything. It was like he was as addicted to the feeling of being needed as I was to having someone to need.
And I couldnât deny that there was a certain thrill to it all.
But it also made me feel vulnerable. Like I was at his mercy.
I should be cautious, my brain whisperedâ¦but my heart didnât seem to know better.
I glanced down at the ticket again, and I realized for the first time that heâd put me in first class.
I immediately texted him.
They called for first class then, and I immediately jumped from my seat, not because I was trying to beat people on the plane, but because, for some reason, I was afraid it was going to leave without me if I didnât get on as soon as I was asked.
As I waited in line on the boarding bridge, my heart thudded against my ribcage like a trapped bird. Was the plane going to feel too smallâ¦too confining?
Suddenly, the thought of being so high in the air was making my palms sweat. I took a deep breath, trying to steady myself before I had a panic attack without even getting on the plane.
I was greeted with a warm smile from the flight attendant, and then I was walking to my seat through the first-class cabin.
My eyes widened as I took in the luxurious surroundings. Okay, this was nice. The seats were wider and more comfortable than Iâd thought they would be, with plush pillows and blankets waiting for me.
As I settled into my seat, I took in the personal TV screen, noise-canceling headphones, and the cozy pair of slippers and an eye maskâ¦just in case I wanted to make use of the fact that the seats actually laid all the way down.
I was feeling very spoiled. And significantly calmer. Especially as the flight attendant came by with freaking champagne.
I sipped at it and texted Lincoln.
I snorted and shook my head, smiling to myself as the flight attendants made an announcement that it was a completely booked flight and cargo space would be limited.
Iâd expected someone to sit in the seat next to me after the five other announcements the crew made about how full the plane wasâ¦
But as they shut the doors, it was still emptyâ¦along with the row across from me. Glancing around, it seemed like all the other seats in the plane were full.
A ridiculous thought came to my head. But surelyâ¦noâ¦
It was a full five minutes before he answered, even though the three little dots had been going the entire time.
Iâm swooning. But itâs also a little crazy, right?
I settled back in my seat and turned on Fixer Upper.
Wondering why crazy felt so good.
When we landed, it only got more surreal. I was picked up by a sleek limousine and driven through the winding streets of Boston. The streets were filled with an electric energy, and the city was alive with the hustle and bustle of people going about their day. The buildings towered above us, their brick and stone facades creating a stark contrast against the blue sky. The eclectic mix of old and new made me desperate to explore every corner of the city.
The car wound its way through the streets, taking us on a scenic tour of the city before finally pulling up in front of the hotel. The driver opened the door for me and I stepped out, immediately feelingâ¦overwhelmed. This world that Lincoln had brought me into, it was such a far cry from the nothing Iâd always known.
I wondered if it was possible to get used to this. To stop worrying about where your next meal would come from. Or whether youâd be able to keep a roof over your head.
I made my way through the hotel lobby, struck by the opulence and grandeur of the place. The marble floors of the lobby gleamed underfoot, and the large, modern lights overhead sparkled like diamonds, grand and opulent in every way. I was greeted by the hotel staff and treated like I was some kind of queen as they took me to the freaking suite Lincoln had decided to book for me.
Wandering around the rooms was a dizzying experience. The suite was massive, with three bedrooms, each containing a king-sized bed draped in soft, white linens, a plush couch, and a breathtaking view of the city skyline from the floor-to-ceiling windows.
I was staring out the window at the dazzling city below when the door clicked open behind me.
I didnât turn around. I just watched him come straight to me in the reflection of the glass.
His arms wrapped around me and he buried his face in my neck, like weâd been apart for weeks instead of a few hours.
I felt the same relief.
The same terrifying, spinning relief that you could only feel if your soul was living in another person.
It was getting harder and harder to even be away from him for a second.
Mamaâs limp body on the floor, tears streaking down her face, a needle in her arm she hadnât even bothered to removeâ¦
Stop it, I screamed. Because my brain just wouldnât quit.
âI missed you,â he murmured, an ache in his voice like heâd been suffering.
And I only nodded and thoughtâ¦
Me too.
As we got into the limo, I was instantly struck by the strong stench of perfume and the loud, high-pitched giggles of the five scantily clad women draped over Lincolnâs teammatesâpuck bunnies, Iâd learned they were called. Women that were desperate for hockey dick, no matter what it cost them.
They were all over them, stroking their arms, their shoulders, their thighs. Desperate to keep their attention.
Lincoln was unfazed by it all, not even batting an eye as the girls fawned over him and his friends. He was chatting with Ari, completely ignoring everyone else except for me. It was amazing how he could seem so involved in his conversation with Ari, and yet I knew he was aware of every movementâ¦every breath I took. He had me in his lap, one arm around my waist, the other hand softly slipping up and down my legâsending goosebumps everywhere.
The other girlsâ jealousy radiated off of them like heat from a raging fire. Lincoln and Ari were the trophies, after all; the two players they all desperately craved.
And they didnât even have a clue how hot Lincoln really wasâ¦like heâd been just an hour ago.
His mouth closed hungrily over my nipple as he fucked my core with two fingers, his thumb toying with my assâ¦my back pressed against the glassâ¦
The ride to the restaurant was relatively short, but it felt like an eternity with the inane noise of the girls giggling and actually cooing over the guys. I was honestly surprised they hadnât mounted them right in front of us.
When we finally arrived, I lifted off Lincolnâs lap, and he patted my ass as I ducked to get out of the limo. One of the bunnies was already out, a wide grin on her face, like we were long lost best friends or something.
âThis is the most expensive restaurant in the city,â she whispered in my ear, linking her arm through mine. Because of course sheâd be keeping tabs on that.
I was saved by Lincoln suddenly pulling me away. Evidently, girls were also on the list of people who werenât allowed to touch me.
So that list basically included everyone on the planet.
We were seated at a large table in a private room, Lincoln plastered against me in the bench seating.
An arm wrapped around my shoulders from the other side.
âSo, howâs my girl?â a grinning Ari asked as he pulled me towards him and rubbed his face on my head like we were wolves and he was scent marking me.
âI seriously think you want to die, Lancaster,â drawled Lincoln, yanking me back towards him and smoothing down my hair like Ari had hurt it.
âYouâre looking stunning, but youâd look even better in a jersey with my name on it.â His eyebrows rose and fell lecherouslyâreferencing his little prank from that first game. Unlike the scraps of clothes the other girls were wearing, Lincoln had insisted I wear a jersey with his name on it tonight. He seemed to be obsessed with me wearing clothes with his last name.
Lincoln sighed, grabbed his water, and then tossed the contents right in Ariâs face. My mouth dropped as Ari sputtered and the whole group roared with laughter.
Ari shook his head, wiping the water off his face, a smug grin on his lips.
âLove you too, Linc,â he grinned as the waitress came by to get our orders.
The food was the best Iâd ever had, and I had fun watching Lincoln interact with his teammates. It was clear they had a strong bond, and it was also clear they all thought he hung the moon. Lincoln was so relaxed, his walls down and the intense energy he usually had around me nowhere to be seen. The guys completely ignored their dates as they talked, but I guess the girls were at least getting a ridiculously expensive meal out of the nightâso none of them seemed to mind.
Or at least they were too busy giving me dirty looks to realize no one had said a word to them.
I was completely relaxed as we got up from the table to leaveâat least until we stepped outside the restaurant and were accosted by flashes of cameras so blinding Iâd be seeing spots for weeks.
âFuck, which one of you called them?â Ari spat, glaring at the girls who were all primping and trying to get the attention of the cameras. My eyes darted around in confusion and anxiety. Lincoln threw his arm around me, trying to shield me from the paparazzi.
âLincoln! Over here! Smile for the camera!â one of them yelled.
âIs that Monroe?â another yelled, and I froze at the limo door. Theyâd found out my name.
âGet in, baby,â Lincoln murmured, and I finally slid inside.
Ari immediately started ripping into the girls as soon as the door closed, but I was lost in my head.
It was one thing for them to know my name, but what if they dug deeper? Found out about my pastâ¦where I came from.
My mother.
âYou okay, baby?â Lincoln asked, seeming totally unfazed by what happened.
âYeah,â I whispered, staring out the window. He played with my hair for the rest of the car ride, but left me alone with my thoughts as he talked to his teammates.
It was only back in the suite that he demanded my attention.
âWhatâs going on in that pretty head, Monroe?â he asked as he followed me into the bathroom.
âCan I have a minute?â I snapped petulantly, even though I was just going to wash my face.
âMmh, that would be a no.â He was amused as he stared down at me, like I wasnât having an inane hissy fit because some stranger took my picture. âThose assholes freaked you out.â
I practically growled. âOf course, they freaked me out. Who wouldnât be freaked out by that? I donât know how you ever get used to it!â
He shrugged, leaning against the doorway, his gorgeous masculinity filling the entire room.
âItâs just a picture, baby. Theyâll never know anything about the real me.â He shrugged. âAnd if it gets the word out about us, then Iâm all for it.â
I bit down on my lip, and my silence caught his attention. He stalked towards me, tipping up my chin with two fingers so I was forced to stare into his golden gaze. âNow I really want to know what youâre thinking.â
I jerked my chin away from him. âI just thinkâ¦maybe we should keep things quieter. About us. We donât have to tell everyone.â
His silence was a bit terrifying. Before I could say anything else though, he suddenly scooped me into his arms and stalked out into the bedroom weâd already thoroughly used that afternoon.
âLincolnââ
âWeâre going to come to an understanding right now,â he growled as he threw me on the bed and stripped off his clothes while I stared at him wide-eyed.
And very turned on.
âIâm going to make something very clear right now, Monroe. Teach you something you wonât forgetâ¦â
âYou are mine.â
He ripped off my clothes, aggressively attacking my breasts, biting and sucking on my nipples until I was crying out, my moans filling the room.
âThese are mine. Your pussy is mine. Your lips are mine.â He made his way down my body, licking and sucking over every inch of me, eating into my core, his tongue passing lazily through my folds.
âSay it,â he ordered, sucking hard on my clit while he scissored his fingers inside me until I was about to come.
It was torture, because he knew exactly how to perfectly get me off.
And he was choosing to stop, every time, right before I fell off the edge.
His tongue slipped down until it was circling my asshole, pushing the tip of it inside while he worked my other hole with his fingers. I was thrashing and screaming on the bed.
But I also was not okay with him trying to teach me a lesson.
âIâm not yours,â I whispered, and he paused.
âYou want to say that again?â
âIâm not yours. I donât belong to anyone.â
âWeâll see about that,â he finally snarled as he withdrew his fingers and reached down for the belt heâd thrown on the floor while undressing. Before I could even blink, heâd tied my wrists to the headboard and laid himself down on me so I couldnât move even an inch.
âLet me go right now! Have you lost your mind?â I growled as he pressed down on me further, a glint of madness in his gaze.
I writhed underneath him, desperate for some friction to help me come. But he stayed there, perfectly still, his big body not letting me move at all.
It was amazing as I stared up at him, that he could still look like an angel hovering above me, his golden hair falling in his face, those starlight eyes glaring down at me.
âSay it,â he ordered.
âPlease, baby. Make me come. Fuck me with that big cock,â I pleaded.
I was trying to rile him, push him over the edge so that he had no choice but to do what I wanted.
But nothing I said seemed to reach him. He slowly slid his dick through my folds, too slowly to give me what I wanted.
âGoing to stay just like this, Monroe. Just like this, until you tell me youâre mine.â Another slow slide had tears running down my face. âWho do you belong to, dream girl? Say it.â
I bucked underneath him, trying to slide his dick into me, because I couldnât stand it.
Iâd never felt this reckless, so out of control. I needed him more than I needed to breathe.
âIf I want to tell every fucking person on this planet about you and I, and what you mean to me, Iâm going to do it. Nod your head that you understand.â
I glared up at him, but I was also a very, very desperate girl. So I nodded.
His smugness only fueled my fury. âGood girl,â he murmured, finally slipping the tip of his dick into my core. He still didnât press in though, refusing to give me his long, hard length.
âPlease,â I whimpered.
He laughed almost evilly, before his voice turned soothing and patronizing. âThen say it, Monroe. Iâll make you come harder than you ever have before. Just say it.â
âIâm yours, Lincoln,â I finally murmured, staring up into his gaze.
âAnd youâre going to let me tell everyone about us? You know that Iâll take care of you, keep you safeâ¦Right?â
I tried to close my eyes and not answer that one, but suddenly he pushed all the way to the hilt, until I felt so full I was sure he was pushing into the entrance of my womb.
I shook my head. âYes, Iâm going to trust you,â I growled through gritted teeth.
âIâm going to tell everyone,â he pressed, rearing back and slamming forward again.
âYes,â I whispered, not caring about anything anymore other than him letting me orgasm.
âSuch a good fucking girl,â he growled as he thrust into me sharply, setting off an orgasm so intense, the world blacked out for a moment.
When I came back to consciousness, he was still fucking in and out of me, his face determined, his eyes hungry and obsessed.
âI love you,â he said as he pumped into me desperately. His hand came between us and pressed on my clit, and I immediately spiraled over the edge again as he spilled into me, filling me with so much cum, it seeped down my legs.
âI love you, I love you, I love you,â he panted as he fucked me through the pleasure.
He refused to pull out when we were done, gathering me close, letting our juices drip between us. He stared into my eyes, and not for the first time, I wondered if this madness between us was okay. If it was possible for either of us to survive it. Or would it take us over and destroy us both?
I wondered these things, filled with his cock and his cum, knowing with the very marrow of my bones that I did indeed belong to him.
But I didnât tell him I loved him.