Chapter 75: chapter 75

GOWRII take the pillow on my side and put it on my face to hide the sunlight that is disturbing my sleep. But after a few more twists and turns, I realize my sleep is gone. I sit up on my bed with a groan. I look around the room and realize that I am in Shiva's room at my MIL's house. Last night's memories come in a flash to me and I expect the hot wave of embarrassment to hit me but it doesn't. Somehow being vulnerable with Shiva is not as humiliating as I think.Though I seriously have no idea what I told him. I was so disturbed by the dream that when I saw Shiva staring at me with tenderness in his eyes, my dignity and rational thoughts flew out of the room and I just wanted to be close to him. My cheeks burn as I realize that he probably knows that I was playing a game with him. If that is the case, I don't want him to be angry with me. I mean we have been through a lot and yet we have not been together. First, it was him, then me. Shaking my head I sprint to the bathroom. Hopefully, it won't be awkward with Savitri aunty and Nithya at home.🍀🍀🍀🍀When I exit the room, I am surprised to see the house deserted. No sign of life. I hear noises from the kitchen but other than that Nithya's room is silent. Frowning, I head to the kitchen but stop outside as I hear Shiva deep in conversation with someone on the phone.“Uncle, can't you postpone the meeting?” he asks.“Shiva, this is the first investor meeting and we cannot disappoint them.”“I will call back later,” he says and then in a loud tone calls out, “Love, Good morning.”With my cheeks on fire, I enter the room. How the hell did he know I was outside the kitchen? Does he have some superpowers?“Morning,” I say as I enter the kitchen keeping my anywhere but him. He chuckles and says, “You know it is wrong to eavesdrop on others' conversation.”“Sorry. I didn't mean to,” I say meaning it.“That is fine. You want coffee?”I nod my head. I lift my head to meet his gaze and I am surprised to find it pinned on him with a fierce intensity. When our gazes collide, Shiva's eyes only turn darker and he doesn't seem bothered about me catching him gazing like that. Call it my gut feeling. Yes, I am starting to believe my gut feeling nowadays. I feel something different about Shiva today. He doesn't look cautious like before. That makes me feel shy for no reason. Add to it the fact that I seriously have no idea what I blabbered to him yesterday night. “You okay?” he asks.“Yeah. Why do you ask?”“You look a little nervous,” he says handing me over my cup of coffee.“No...I am fine,” I say. After taking two sips, I realize the whole house is quiet. “Where are Ma and Nithya?”He gives me a malicious grin, “They have gone shopping. Will come home by afternoon, I guess.”“By afternoon?” I ask my eyebrows shooting up.“Nithya loves shopping,” he says with a shrug.My stomach drops as I as realize I am alone with Shiva. Ok, I have been alone with this man in a house for many days but why is my stomach now rolling with excitement and anticipation?Because this time it is different. I know how he feels for me. He may or may not know how I feel for him. “I think we need to talk,” I say passing the finished coffee cup to him. He puts it in the sink and turns to face me.“Hmm. Yes, an honest talk,” he replies with a serious expression.“Okay,” I say, “Where should I start?”“How about starting from how you feel for me?” he asks raising his eyebrow.“I already told you yesterday morning,” I say but my next words get caught in my throat as he crosses the distance between us. I want to move back not in fear but wanting some distance between us to keep my head sane but damn the kitchen counter. I am trapped between Shiva and the kitchen counter. All he has to do is take those two steps and our bodies would be so close nearly touching. His smile is slow and happy as he says, “But I remember you saying sometime else yesterday night in your sleep.”My cheeks flame red and I focus my gaze on the floor. But Shiva closes the distance between us and tips my chin up gently and gazes at me with such fervour that it is a wonder I haven't melted into a puddle.“Can we stop playing this game of hiding our feelings for each other,” he asks in a deep voice.I nod because with him this close and near, my speaking ability is not functioning.His fingers graze my jaw and it looks like he is trying to hold himself back, “Tell me do you have feelings for me?”I nod still not able to speak. I am not sure what is happening but my body is short-circuiting and the only thing I can do is nod and shake my head. But that is not enough for Shiva.“I want to you say how you feel for me. I don't want to have any more misunderstandings between us,” he says.“Yes, I do have feelings for you,” I manage to squeak. He moves closer invading my personal space even more if that is possible. Our bodies are touching. He places his hand on my hips. My heart picks its pace and my breathing becomes slow. Shiva holds my gaze. His eyes are heated. I could see the emotions in them. The affection he has for me paired with longing and desire so strong that it takes my breath away. That ignites something in me. I could feel my own desires and longings lifting its head. He leans in closer placing a soft kiss below my ear and a shiver runs through me. His body heat bounces to me and I feel hot all of a  sudden. I grip the kitchen counter for keeping myself from falling off balance because that is how it feels with Shiva's lips on me. “Tell me do you still want the divorce?” he murmurs placing a soft kiss on my collarbone.“No,” I say but it comes out shaky.His lips move to my jaw and he places soft featherlight kisses on me. Kissing my cheeks. Kissing my chin. Kissing my eyes. Kissing my temple. My grip tightens on the kitchen counter when he kisses the side of my mouth. God! This is sweet but torture. His movements are unhurried and sure.“Love,” he says in a soft tone. His face is near to mine and our bodies are touching. His smell is intoxicating and I feel myself leaning in closer to him. His gaze moves to my lips and my breathing gets heavy. His eyes ask a question. My eyes say yes.Shiva's grasp on me tightens and he runs his finger on my bottom lip slowly. Impulse takes over me as the rational thoughts vanish. His touch. Even a small one is enough to stimulate my desires.  My lips part and my eyelids flutter close. Shiva leans closer and I could feel his hot breath on my lips before his lips brush mine slightly. Sparks erupt through my whole body. His lips move over mine gently and I remove my hands from the kitchen counter and wrap it around his neck not able to restrain myself anymore. I press my lips more firmly to him as he pulls me even closer. The world around me fades away and the only thing my mind could remember is Shiva and his lips against mine. The gentle kiss turns into something more passionate. His hands on my hip tighten and he lifts me off the floor and places me on the kitchen counter. My legs wrap around his waist. He pulls me nearer and his hand moves up my back causing a shudder. His hand rest on my nape and he tugs me closer to him. He tilts his head and deepens the kiss. My knees go weak.  I never know kissing someone would drain your energy. My whole body is limp and weak. The kiss is more intense than the previous ones and there is no holding back now. We both kiss deeply laying out how we feel for each other barely and rawly. We pull away for breath. My breathing comes heavily and his eyes are dark and he looks drugged. My face has an expression similar to him. He puts his forehead on mine and we both just breathe staring at each other in our own world.“Love, you never cease to amaze me. That was a hell of a kiss,” he says in a soft tone. “I can never forget our first kiss,” I blurt out.His chuckle vibrates through my body as he leans in closer to my ear whispering, “You have no idea how many times my mind kept replaying that moment.”He slowly turns my face to him and places a soft lingering kiss on my lips. I could do this every day with him.“We will take things slowly,” he says pulling away. “Okay,” I say.He just looks at me like I am the most important thing to him. His fingers trace the features of my face as he asks in a serious tone, “Are you sure about your choice? Do you want to be with me? Don't you hate relationships and romance?”“Yes,” I say placing a kiss on his cheek and leaning in closer to his ear. His breathing gets heavy and I am pleased to have that reaction on him, “But, you  make the relationship easy and lovable.”🍀🍀🍀🍀