There were people I liked and people I didnât like. People I loved and people I hated.
But there was only one person I loved to hate.
âWhy are you doing this?â I heard a whiny female voice ask as I rounded the hall to sophomore P.E.
I immediately halted, locking eyes on a red-faced Tatum Brandt as she faced off with my douchebag stepbrother, Madoc Caruthers, and his friend Jared Trent. They stood in the hallway next to the lockers with flat expressions, looking bored, while she clutched her backpack straps for security.
âYou barked at me yesterday,â she continued, pinching her eyebrows together at Jared as Madoc smirked from behind him. âAnd then all of your friends followed along. Itâs been forever, Jared. When are you going to stop? Why are you doing this?â
I sucked in a long breath and completed my usual awesome combination of eye-roll-head-shake.
I really hated turning corners. I hated closed doors. I hated not seeing the path ahead.
Corner #1:
Corner #2:
Corner #3:
Corner #952:
Okay, my mom never really said that, but Iâm damn good at interpreting shit. And corners sucked.
I hung back and stuck my hands into the pockets of my skinny jeans, waiting to see what this girl would do. Would she finally grow some balls, or at least take the little ones these idiots had? I kept hoping she would step up to the challenge, and she always disappointed me.
Tatum Brandt was a wimp.
I didnât know much about her. Only that everyone called her Tate, except Madoc and Jared; she was a rocker on the outside, but played it safe on the inside; and she was pretty. Like cheerleader pretty.
Long blond hair? Totally.
Big blue eyes? Absolutely.
Long legs, full lips, and big boobs? Even at sixteen.
She was the perfect package, and if I were my stepbrother, I wouldnât have any problem sticking my tongue into her mouth. Hell, I might do it anyway.
I chewed the corner of my lip, thinking about it. Yeah, I could be a lesbian. Maybe. If I wanted.
No, never mind.
The point is . . . why Madoc and Jared tormented her rather than tried to date her was a mystery to me.
But for some reason I was interested. From the start of freshman year, they had both bullied her. They spread rumors, harassed her, and did everything they could to make her unhappy. They pushed, and she retreated time and again. It was starting to piss me off so much that I was about to go knock their heads together to defend her.
Except I barely knew her. And Tatum didnât know me at all. I stayed so far off the radar that sonar couldnât pick me up.
âWhy?â Jared answered her question with a question and jutted into her space with a cocky swagger. âBecause you stink, Tatum.â He scrunched up his nose in mock disgust. âYou smell . . . like a dog.â
Tate straightened immediately, and the tears in her eyes finally spilled over.
Exhaling a furious breath, I pushed my glasses back up the bridge of my nose. Itâs what I did before I braced myself.
She shook her head. âYou donât even remember what today is, do you?â She folded her trembling lips between her teeth and looked down at the ground.
And without even seeing her eyes, I knew what was there. Despair. Loss. Loneliness.
Without looking at him again, she turned around and walked off.
It wouldâve been easy to hit him. To toss an insult back at him. And while I despised her weakness, I understood one thing that I hadnât before. Jared was an ass, but he was an ass who could hurt her.
She was in love with him.
Crossing my arms over my chest, I walked over to the lockers where Jared and Madoc stood staring after Tate.
Madoc spoke up behind him. âWhat did that mean? Whatâs today?â
Jared shrugged off the question. âI donât know what she was talking about.â
âItâs April fourteenth,â I piped up over Madocâs shoulder, causing him to spin around. âThat mean anything to you, Shit-for-Brains?â I directed at Jared.
Madoc raised a dark blond eyebrow at me, a hint of a smile in his eyes. Jared twisted his head only enough so that I could see the side of his face.
âApril fourteenth?â he whispered and then blinked long and hard. âShit,â he murmured.
And Madoc reared back a hair as Jared slammed the palm of his hand into the nearest locker door.
âWhat the hell?â Madoc scowled.
Jared ran his hands down his face and then shook his head. âNothing. Never mind,â he growled. âIâm going to Geometry.â Stuffing his fists into his pockets, he stalked off down the hall, leaving Madoc and me.
Between my stepbrother and his friend, I respected his friend more. They were both Grade A assholes, but at least Jared didnât care what people thought of him. He stalked around like a weird cross between a jock and a goth. Popular and foreboding. Dark but extremely coveted.
Madoc, on the other hand, cared what everyone thought. Our parents. The principal. And most of the student body. He loved being loved, and he hated his association with me.
As sophomores they were already starting to wield power that was going to be out of control by the time they reached senior year.
âWow, your friend is a loser,â I teased, sliding my hands into the back pockets of my jeans.
Madoc zeroed in on me with his playful half-smile and relaxed eyes. âSo are your frienââ he started, then stopped. âOh, thatâs right. You donât have any friends.â
âDonât need âem,â I shot back. âI travel faster on my own. Iâm going places. You know that.â
âYeah, youâre going places. Just stop at the dry cleaners on your way, Fallon. I need my shirts picked up.â He smoothed an arrogant hand over his navy Abercrombie button-down. With his medium-wash boot-cut jeans, black Paracord bracelet, and styled dark blond hair, Madoc dressed to impress. Girls flocked to him because he looked good in clothes, could talk the ears off an elephant, and loved to play. For all intents and purposes, he was a fun guy.
And he always made me feel small.
I talked a lot of shit, but truth be told, it was more for my ears than anyone elseâs. Madoc was designer. I was Target. He was Godiva. I was Snickers. And as far as he was concerned, he was entitled, and I was the freeloading daughter of the gold-digging whore who had snagged his father.
Madoc thought I was dirt under his shoe.
I gave his outfit a condescending once-over. âYour shirtsâwhich are super stylish, let me remind you. The gay community would be proud.â
âYou could get nice things, too. My dad pays your mom enough for her services, after all.â
âNice things? Like the miniskirts you date?â I challenged. Time to educate the little shit. âMost guys, Madoc, like something different. You know why you want to see me in ânice,â skimpy things? Because the more I show, the less Iâm hiding. I scare you.â
He shook his head. âNada, little sister.â
I was only two months younger than him. He said shit like that to piss me off.
âIâm not your little sister.â I took a step forward. âAnd I do have friends. And plenty of guys interested. They like how I look. I donât subscribe to you and our snotty parentsâ standââ
âWow, Iâm bored,â he cut me off with a sigh. âYour life doesnât interest me, Fallon. Holiday dinners and once in a while around the house. Those are the only times I want to run in to you.â
I tipped my chin up, trying not to give anything away. It didnât hurt. Not his words or his opinion of me. There was no ache in my throat that dropped down into my stomach and twisted the ever-present knots tighter. What he said didnât matter. I liked who I was. No one told me how to dress, how to behave, what clubs to join . . . I made my own decisions. Madoc was a puppet. A drone.
When I said nothing, he started walking backward away from me. âThe parents are out for the night. Iâm having a party. Stay out of the way. Maybe hide out in the servantsâ quarters where you belong.â
I watched him go, knowing I wouldnât listen.
I would wish that I had.