Chapter 43: Chapter 42

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I close my eyes, & still I can see you. But, all I want is you to love me like you do.

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Ishita's POV~

Right now, I am sitting beside Rajvir in the car. He is driving, & I am glancing at him occasionally, otherwise I am just staring at the window, & trying to divert my mind.

I looked outside the window. The busy roads, & the dim street lights, & the fresh air. It was relaxing & for a second it took all my nervousness away.

"Are they important to you more than me?" Rajvir asked, out of nowhere.

I snapped out of my thoughts, & looked at him. What was he talking about?

"I asked, are they important to you more than me?" Rajvir asked again, but this time a bit louder than before.

"W-who?" I cursed myself for shuttering.

Rajvir scoffed, & said under his breath, "now play the innocent game."

I ignored that, & waited him to say something, but he didn't say anything. This guy has already made me insane by making me fall for him, & now he is asking some stupid questions to which I don't even know answers of.

Deep in my thoughts, I out of nowhere, I asked him, "What are you talking about Rajvir?" His one sentence had drove me insane, & so I had to ask that question. I didn't want to ruin this night, in any way.

"Why couldn't you come on a date with me from the morning? & Why now?" He asked, which confirmed my heart's telling, that he was angry.

"Rajvir I told you, I wanted to spend time with Myra & Riddhi" I said, trying to reason, & at the same time worried that what if tonight's plan goes to waste?

"Yeah, & what about me? Yeah right, I am the one who is in love with you right? & You don't have any kind of feelings for me, so I guess it's alright. It's fucking alright" He said. His each word stabbing my heart. I stayed quiet. Silence engulfed the car, no one talked until we reached our destination. I thankfully prayed to God, that we arrived at least where I will confess my love to him, & I am sure that his anger will go away.

I got out of the car, & waited for Rajvir to come out of the car, but he sat there. Fear. Was the only thing I felt. I went towards his seat's window, & asked him,

"What are you doing? Come out." I said.

"I am not coming, call one of your friends & have fun." He said, not realising that his words were stabbing my heart.

"Rajvir please, this night is ours, please." I pleaded him. He shook his head, & drove off.

Just wow. Great. Amazing. Brilliant.

I looked around, people were walking inside the restaurant with their worlds, their love's. & Here, I was trying hard to control my tears, that were roaming down my face aimlessly.

What did I do? I was just planning how to confess my love for him!

I cried & cried. Not knowing, how much had passed. My phone kept ringing, indicating someone was calling, but I didn't care. I took all my courage, wiped my tears with my handkerchief, & walked inside the restaurant.

At least, I need to see how Karan had decorated everything, & also see that if he had done excatly what I had asked him for.

I went towards the receptionist, & told her my reservation. She then lead me to the private reservation place, where I had made my special reservation for Rajvir & I.

After we reached where I had my reservation, the receptionist smiled warmly at me & left.

I turned the lights on. It was excatly what I had asked him to do.

There were pics from our childhood, & then to our teenage, & then to our present. Even our wedding pictures where there. There were all arranged from the beginning of our childhood then to our present. I smiled at our childhood pics. Balloons were here & there. In the centre was a table, where they was a cake placed which had written on it "I love you Rajvir." A lone tear escaped from my right eye, & I didn't bother wiping it. Everything was perfect, but now it's just a mess.

I saw beer bottles there.

I sat down, & took the beer bottle & drank it in one go. I kept drinking. Knowing no one will stop me. Knowing Rajvir is angry on me. Knowing he maybe doesn't love me anymore. & Knowing it was my fault.

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Rajvir's POV~

What does she think of herself? If I love her then she thinks she can do anything she wants? Ha! As if!

I was driving for hours after I left Ishita there. My heart was feeling guilty, while my evil mind was angry. & I let my evil mind take control over me.

She must be having fun with her friends like I thought, otherwise she would have called me & asked me to come back right?

I stopped when I saw a park. I got out of my car, & sat on a nearby bench which was placed inside the park.

As I was in deep thoughts, not realising I had sat there for almost an hour, my phone started ringing. I sighed, & picked it up not checking the caller ID.

"Hello" I said over the phone.

"Hello bhaiya" Riddhi said.

"Yeah, Riddhi, you needed something?" I asked her, as her voice sounded worried & urgent.

"Yeah, Ishita bhabhi is not picking my phone. I tried calling her multiple times, even Myra said that she was not picking her call too." She said, her voice cracked in the end. Oh god she is crying!

"Riddhi, everything's alright. She is right beside me, don't cry, her phone is on silent." I lied. The last thing I want is tears in my sister's eyes.

"Oh okay! Do tell her that she has to tell me everything!" She said, all happy again. I smiled at her behaviour, but then frowned as to what does Ishita have to tell her?

"What everything?" I asked her.

"Hasn't she told you? Hmm, I guess she told you already, so I will tell you again. This everything, her love confessing plan for you, was organised by Karan bhaiya & Myra. & Do tell Ishita bhabhi that I need all the details! Alright, I won't disturb you two anymore, take care, bye." She said, & hung up.

My phone fell from my hands, & all I was feeling was guilty. Guilt of not being patient with her, guilt of being unnecessarily angry on her, & guilt of leaving her there all alone.

& The bug guilt of all was, not realising her love for me. I had won, in make her feel what love is like, but at the same time I failed. All she was doing from this morning was planning about how she will confess her love to me, & I? I was so fucking selfish to think that she had more important things to do than be with me!

I hurriedly went towards my car, not before grabbing my phone from the ground, & sat inside it.

I drove the car in full speed, not knowing that if someone comes in the front then they would die because eid me.

But right now all I care about is Ishita.

I parked the car near the parking lot, & rushed out of the car, not thinking that I had banged the car very hardly.

I looked around searching for Ishita, but she was nowhere to be seen.

Is she inside? It's cold too, maybe she is inside? I groaned. Where are you Ishita??!!?!

I mentally screamed, I guess I should see inside once.

I went towards the receptionist, more like stormed, & she quickly acknowledged my presence.

I asked her the reservation room, she looked hesitate for a second, but my one hard glare & she nodded.

She lead me to a private area, & opened the door, I didn't bother to thank her, I shut the door at on her face, & looked forward, only to find Ishita on the floor.

"Ishita.." I muttered under my breath, & went towards her. I put her head on my lap. They was a strong smell coming from her, which was none other than beer's. I looked at her, & saw her smiling lazily, God she is drunk!

I kicked, slapped, punched myself mentally for leaving her alone. It's not her fault at all, it was me who left her, what would she have done rather than coming inside here?

I looked at the dinning table, & then back at Ishita, only to turn back again my attention on the dinning table. There was a cake placed there. Which had "I love you Rajvir" on it.

I smiled at it. I stood up, not bothering the girl who was asking for more beer, Ishita, & looked around only to find our childhood pics. They was a shirtless pic of mine too, & Ishita was looking at me strangely in that pic, I chuckled at it. I stared at the pics, which bought back alot of bitter-sweet memories. There was a second last picture which was our wedding picture. The last one the recently one, which was taken just day before yesterday. On the day when we had a fight. Riddhi had forced me to click a picture, since I was getting late for the office.

I snapped out of my thoughts when I saw Ishita trying to stand up, by the help of the chair. I quickly helped her, & she gripped my arms tightly, & lazily smiled at me, I nervously smiled back at her, too.

Now what should I do? If I take her home in this condition, then mom & Riddhi will ask multiple questions. For sure, Riddhi will be the one to provoke Mom to make me spill the truth, & then 2-3 hours her 'good husband' lecture. Maybe, I guess I should stay in a hotel today with Ishita & then when she is sober in the morning, then I can take her home.

I made Ishita sit down on a couch, which was in the right corner of the room.

I sighed at the sight of her drunken girl, I didn't knew she could drink, that too 3 bottles of beer.

I took out my phone from my pocket, which had a slightly cracked screen, as it had fell off from my hand in the park. I dialled my PA's number, & told him to make a 5 star hotel room quick.

After that, I hung up my phone & sat down beside Ishita's head, who was sleeping, & softly snoring. I chuckled at her this sight. She had gone through alot today, that too because of me, & I had to make up for it, no matter what.

While scrolling through my phone I felt thirsty, & there was no water, wow what a service, I thought, & looked at Ishita. Is it okay to leave her here for a while? I thought. Since she was sleeping I thought it would be alright to leave her for awhile, while I get some water for myself. I made my way out of the VIP room area & headed to the receptionist.

"Hello, how may I help you?" She asked. I slightly glared at her, not appreciating the service of this restaurant.

"I need some water in the VIP room, now." I said, & was about to go, when she called my name again. I rolled my eyes, & looked back at her.

"I will make sure, that the water is being kept there, but I need to know which VIP room number it is." She said, hesitantly. I nodded my head, as she was just doing her job. I told her the room number, & how many people were there. She typed something in her computer, & nodded at me, indicating I can go. Not bothering to nod back, I just walked off from there towards the VIP room, where Ishita was.

I opened the door & closed it softly as Ishita was sleeping, at least that's what I thought. I looked at the couch where she was, & found it empty.

I started to get panicked. Where was she? The room was empty. I rushed outside of the door, & went back to o the receptionist.

"Where is the girl who was in the VIP room!?" I shouted at her. Everyone were looking at me, & the receptionist. I didn't care at all, all I cared at the moment was Ishita.

She flinched at my loud voice, & that made me more angry than I was already.

"I asked WHERE IS THE GIRL WHO WAS IN THE VIP ROOM!?!" I shouted at her again, this time louder than before, & each person present there would be able to hear it clearly.

"What is happening here?" A man came in a dark blue colour suit, who I assume is the manager here.

"Where is the girl?" I asked, calmly this time, yet dangerously.

"Which girl? Who are you talking about?" The manager asked with a confused face.

"The girl with who I came here on a date, damnit!" I said, & run my hands in my hair in frustration.

"Who is he talking about?" The manager asked the terrified receptionist. She just shook her head, which made me more angry.