Iâm sitting at the table, surrounded by my family, basking in the glow of victory. My parents look happier and more proud than Iâve ever seen them before. My sisters are in good spirits, laughing and joking about some guy whoâs been chasing after Nessa.
Itâs a scene Iâve been working toward for months.
And yet, I find myself tuning out of the conversation because I want to look at Aida instead.
I canât believe she stayed at Zajacâs warehouse, looking for me.
She could have been killed, or at the very least, recaptured and held hostage until her brothers returned the money they stole.
She could have just run the moment she escaped the office. But she didnât. Because she knew I was somewhere in the building, probably being tortured, possibly being killed.
That would have been an easy way for her to get out of our marriage contract.
But I donât think she wants to get out of it anymore.
Or at least, not as much as before.
I know I donât want to lose her.
Iâve come to respect Aida, and like her, too. I like the effect she has on me. She makes me more reckless, but also more focused. Before I met her, I was going through the motions. Doing what I was supposed to without really caring.
Now I want to achieve all the same things, but I want it so much more. Because I want to do it with Aida by my side, bringing life to the whole enterprise.
I take Aidaâs hand and hold it, gently running my thumb over hers. She looks up, surprised, but not annoyed. She smiles up at me, squeezing my hand in return.
Then her phone buzzes and she sneaks it out of her bag to read the message. Sheâs looking at it under the table, so I canât see the screen. But I notice the immediate change in her expressionâhow she sucks in a little breath of excitement, her cheeks flushing with color.
âWhat is it?â I ask her.
âOh, nothing,â she says. âJust a text from my brother.â
She quickly stows the phone away. But I can tell sheâs lit up with excitement, barely able to sit still now.
I take my hand back and drink my wine, trying not to let my irritation show.
What would it take to make Aida be completely honest with me? When will she open up to me and stop treating me like an annoying overseer?
Sheâs too happy to notice the change in my mood.
âWe should order dessert!â she says. âWhatâs your favorite?â
âI donât eat sweets,â I say sulkily.
âThey have a grapefruit gelato,â she teases. âThatâs pretty much health food.â
âMaybe Iâll have a bit of yours,â I say, relenting.
âIâm not eating that,â Aida laughs. âIâm getting chocolate soufflé.â
The next afternoon, Iâm supposed to go see my new office at City Hall. I swing by the house to see if Aida wants to come along with me. To my surprise, sheâs already dressed and getting into Nessaâs Jeep.
âWhere are you going?â I ask her.
âIâve got some errands to run,â she says vaguely.
âWhat kind of errands?â
âAll kinds,â she says, climbing into the car and closing the door.
Sheâs wearing a little crop top and cut-off shorts, with her hair pulled up in a ponytail and heart-shaped sunglasses on top of her head. By Aidaâs standards, this is fairly dressed up. My curiosity is inflamed.
I lean against the windowsill, annoyed that sheâs not coming with me. I wanted to show her all of City Hall, and maybe go for a late lunch together.
âCanât it wait?â I ask her.
âNo,â she says regretfully. âActually, Iâve got to get going . . .â
I step back, letting her start the engine.
âWhatâs the hurry?â I say.
âNo hurry. See you tonight!â she calls, putting the car in reverse.
Aida is fucking maddening when she wonât answer my questions.
I canât help thinking that she looks way too cute just to be running to the post office or whatever the fuck. And what kind of errands could she possibly have that are time-sensitive?
And who messaged her last night?
Could it be Oliver Castle?
Could she be going to meet with him right now?
Iâm burning with jealousy.
I know I should just talk to her when she comes home tonight, but I donât want to wait until then.
I wish Iâd remembered to steal her phone. I figured out her passcode by watching over her shoulder while she entered itâitâs 1799, not hard to remember. But in the craziness of our encounter with Zajac and the election right after, I forgot to look through it.
I should have done it last night while she was sleeping.
Now itâs fucking eating me alive.
I grab my own phone out of my pocket and call Jack. He picks up immediately.
âWhatâs up, boss?â he says.
âWhere are you right now?â
âRavenswood.â
âIs there a GPS tracker on Nessaâs Jeep?â
âYeah. Your dadâs got them on all the vehicles.â
I let out a sigh of relief.
âGood. I want you to follow it. Aidaâs running errandsâI want you to see what sheâs doing, where she goes.â
âYou got it,â Jack says.
He doesnât ask why, but Iâm sure he can guess.
âKeep me posted. Tell me everything she does. And donât lose track of her.â
âUnderstood.â
I hang up the phone.
I donât feel great about siccing Jack on Aidaâespecially knowing how she feels about him. But I have to know what sheâs doing. I have to know, once and for all, if Aidaâs heart belongs to someone else, or if it might be available. Maybe even for me.
I still have to go to City Hall, so I take my father instead. Heâs already talking about how weâll parlay this into a mayoral campaign in a couple of years. Plus, all the ways we can use the Aldermanship to enrich ourselves in the meantime.
I can barely pay attention to any of it. My hand keeps sneaking back into my pocket, clenching my phone so I can pick it up the moment Jack calls.
After about forty minutes, he texts me to say:
Iâm strung tighter than a wire.
Whatâs in Jackson Park? Who is she meeting? I know sheâs meeting someone, I can feel it.
My father puts his hand on my shoulder, startling me.
âYou donât look pleased,â he says. âWhatâs wrong, you donât like the office?â
âNo.â I shake my head. âItâs great.â
âWhat is it, then?â
I hesitate. My relationship with my father is based off of work. All our conversations center around the family business. Problems we need to fix, deals we need to make, ways we can expand. We donât talk about personal things. Emotions. Feelings.
Still, I need advice.
âI think I might have made a mistake with Aida,â I tell him.
He peers at me through his glasses, thrown off balance. Thatâs not what he expected me to say.
âWhat do you mean?â
âI was cold and demanding. Cruel, even. Now it might be too late to start over . . .â
My father crosses his arms, leaning against the desk. He probably doesnât want to talk about this. I donât want to talk about it, either. But itâs eating me alive.
âShe didnât seem to be holding a grudge last night,â he says.
I sigh, looking out the window at the high rises opposite.
Aida always rolls with the punches. That doesnât mean she wasnât hurt. And that doesnât mean it will be easy to win her over. Sheâs a tough nut. What will it take to truly crack her open, to find that vulnerable core inside?
âWhen did you fall in love with Mom?â I ask, remembering that my parentsâ marriage wasnât exactly traditional, either.
âIâm not a sentimental person,â my father says. âI think weâre alike in that way, you and I. I donât think much about love, or what it means. But I can tell you that I came to trust your mother. She showed me that I could rely on her, no matter what. And thatâs what bonded us. Thatâs when I knew I wasnât alone anymore. Because I could count on one person, at least.â
Trust as the essence of love.
It doesnât sound romantic, not on the surface.
But it makes sense, especially in our world. Any gangster knows that your friends can put a bullet in your back just as easily as your enemiesâeven easier, in fact.
Trust is rarer than love.
Itâs putting your fate, your happiness, your life in someoneâs hands. Hoping they keep it safe.
My phone vibrates again.
âGive me a minute,â I say to my father, stepping out into the hall to take the call.
âI saw her for a second,â Jack says. âShe was at a restaurant with some guy. He gave her something, a little box. She put it in her bag.â
âWho was the guy?â I ask, mouth dry and hand clenched tight around the phone.
âI donât know,â Jack says apologetically. âI only saw the back of his head. He had dark hair.â
âWas it Castle?â
âI donât know. They were sitting on the patio. I went into the restaurantâI was going to try to get a table so I could get closer and listen in. But while I was inside, they left. And I havenât been able to find her again.â
âWhereâs her car?â I demand.
âWell, thatâs the weird thing,â I can hear Jack breathing heavy, like heâs walking and talking at the same time. âThe Jeep is still in the same parking lot. But Aidaâs gone.â
She must have left with the guy.
FUCK!
My heart is racing, and I feel sick.
Is she with him right now?
Where are they going?
âKeep looking for her,â I bark into the phone.
âI will,â Jack says. âThereâs just one other thing . . .â
âWhat?â
âI found a shoe.â
Iâm about to explode and Jack isnât making any sense.
âWhat the fuck are you talking about?â I say.
âThere was a sneaker in the parking lot, over by the Jeep. Itâs a womanâs shoe, Converse slip-on, size eight, cream-colored. The left foot.â
I wrack my brains, trying to remember what Aida was wearing when she stepped into the Jeep. A lavender-colored crop top. Jean shorts. Bare legs. And then, down on her feet . . . sneakers, as usual. The kind you can slip on without tying the laces. White or cream, Iâm almost certain.
âStay there,â I say into the phone. âStay by the Jeep. Keep the shoe.â
I hang up the phone, hurrying back into the office.
âIâve got to go,â I say to my father. âDo you mind if I take the car?â
âGo ahead,â he says. âIâll take a cab back to the house.â
I hurry down to the main level again, my mind racing.
What the fuck is going on here? Who was Aida meeting? And how did she lose a shoe?
As I drive to meet Jack, I try calling Aida again and again. Her phone rings, but she doesnât pick up.
The fourth time I call, it goes straight to voicemail without even ringing. Which means her phone is switched off.
Iâm starting to get worried.
Maybe Iâm a fool and Aida is shacked up in some hotel room right now, ripping the clothes off some other man.
But I donât think so.
I know what the evidence looks like, but I just donât believe it. I donât think sheâs cheating on me.
I think sheâs in trouble.