Cal interrupted me in the middle of something Iâd rather not show himânot yet, at least. But now heâs acting weird. Weâre downstairs, eating two of the meals the chef left in the fridge. Cal is chewing his meat like he canât even taste it, looking moodily out the kitchen window to the pool outside.
âWhatâs going on?â I ask him, taking a bite of braised short rib and grilled carrot. This is about as decadent as it gets in casa Griffin, so Iâm trying to enjoy my meal. But thatâs hard to do with Callum sitting stone-faced right next to me.
âNothing,â he says shortly.
âWhat are you all wound up about? Poking a stick in the hornetâs nest?â
Iâm aware that someone named âthe Butcherâ isnât the best target to antagonize. Still, Iâm excited at the prospect of hunting down Zajac. Iâve been playing the good girl for weeks now. Itâs time to get in a little trouble.
âYes,â Callum says testily. âIâm concerned about teeing up against an unhinged gangster. Especially two days before the election.â
âMaybe we should hold off, then,â I tell him. âWait until after to slap back at him.â
âIf we donât find him tonight, then thatâs what Iâll do,â Callum says. âBut Iâd rather deal with it sooner than later.â
Callumâs phone buzzes with a message. He glances at it, saying, âYour brothers are here.â
A minute later they pull up in front of the house, parking and getting out of Danteâs Escalade warily. They havenât been here since Nessaâs party. I can tell they feel awkward coming in through the kitchen door.
âNice house,â Dante says politely, as if he hasnât seen it before.
âYeah, very nice,â Nero says, stuffing his hands in his pockets and looking all around the gleaming, modern kitchen. His eye catches on the one thing out of place. He bends over for a closer look, saying, âIs that aââ
âYes,â I interrupt him. âAnd we donât need to talk about it.â
Imogen already read me the riot act about the bullet hole in her cabinet door. I think she was angrier than when I tried to poison her son. This house is her actual favorite child. It would have gotten ugly if Callum hadnât covered for me, telling her it was an accident.
She didnât look convinced.
âHow am I even going to get someone to fix it?â she demanded, eyes blazing. âHow am I going to explain to some carpenter that he needs to dig a bullet out before he can fill in the hole?â
âYou could act totally surprised,â I said helpfully.
Callum shot me a look, telling me to shut up, immediately.
âI could get the bullet out first,â he said.
âNo!â Imogen snapped, âDonât touch it. You two have done enough.â
It still hasnât been fixed, and itâs another sore subject that I donât need Nero bringing up right before weâre supposed to head out.
But then Sore Subject Number Three comes strolling into the kitchen.
âCarâs out front,â Jack says, holding up the keys.
âDonât tell me heâs coming,â I say to Callum.
âYes. He is,â Callum replies.
âWe donât needââ
He interrupts me. âWeâre not going in short-handed. Your brothers brought someone too.â
âGabrielâs in the car,â Dante confirms.
Gabriel is our cousin, and one of my brothersâ enforcers. He looks like a big gruff teddy bear, but he can be a killer when he has to be.
âFine,â I say, with only a hint of annoyance. âAnd whatâs the plan?â
âWell,â Callum says, exchanging a look with my brothers, âThere are two options. One, we try to follow this lead about the girl Zajacâs been fucking.â
âBut we donât have her address,â Nero says, obviously not a fan of this option. âAnd we donât know how often he sees her.â
âOr,â Callum continues, as if he hadnât been interrupted, âwe could hit one of his businesses. Smash his shit up, maybe take something, then wait for him to call us.â
âWeâre leaning toward his casino, because itâs remote and cash-heavy,â Dante says.
âWhy not both?â I say. âAre you talking about Francie Ross? She works at Pole, right?â
âDo you know her?â Callum asks quickly.
âNo. But I know a girl who knows her,â I say. âThatâs what I was trying to tell you, earlier.â
Callum gives me a look, half annoyed and half curious.
âDoes your friend know where Francie lives?â
âMaybe,â I say. âWe should ask her.â
âWhy bother!â Nero snaps. âWho cares about finding Zajac. We need to hit him back for what he did to our job site. We donât need to look him in the eye to kick him in the balls.â
Dante looks like he could go either way. âThe casino seems like more of a sure bet,â he says.
âWell . . .â Callum glances over at me. âLetâs do both. You guys can hit the casino, while Aida and I talk to her friend.â
âYou think three people is enough?â Dante says to Nero.
âOf course,â Nero says, tossing his head.
âTake Jack, too,â Callum says.
âThen itâll just be you and Aida . . .â Dante says.
âWe donât need an army,â I say. âWeâre just talking to a waitress.â
Dante frowns, and reaches inside his jacket. He passes me a Glock, loaded.
âIs that wise?â Jack says, eyeing the gun as Dante puts it in my hand.
âDonât worry,â I say sweetly. âI wonât leave it lying around like an idiot.â
Jack looks like he wants to retort, but he drops it, since Callum is standing right there.
âEverybody else got what they need?â Dante asks.
We all nod.
âLetâs head out, then.â
Dante and Nero get back in the Escalade. I wave to Gabriel through the window. He grins and gives me a little salute. Jack climbs in the backseat next to him, introducing himself with a grunt and a curt nod.
Iâm extremely pleased not to have to spend any more time cooped up in a car with him, and even more pleased that Cal and I are running down my lead. Well, sort of his tooâbut I thought of it first.
Anyway, I like when Cal drives. It lets me sneak glances at him while his attention is fixed on the road.
Every time weâre alone together, the energy seems to shift. Thereâs a thick tension in the air, and my mind starts inevitably wandering back to what we did the last time we were alone.
Since Iâm thinking of such pleasant things, Iâm startled when Callum says, âWhy did you break up with Oliver Castle?â
It jolts me, and makes me remember, uncomfortably, how Oliver accosted me on campus earlier. How does he keep running into me like that? At first when he would find me at every party, I assumed my friends were texting him. But even laterâ
âWell?â Callum interrupts.
I sigh, annoyed to be talking about this again. And without the likelihood of kinky jealousy-fueled sex afterward.
âIt just never felt right,â I say. âIt was like putting a shoe on the wrong foot. Right away it was awkward, and the longer it went on, the worse it got.â
âSo you werenât in love with him? When we met?â Callum asks.
Thereâs the tiniest hint of vulnerability in his question.
Iâve never heard Callum be vulnerable. Not even one percent. I desperately want to look at him, but I use all my willpower to keep my eyes pointed forward. I feel like weâre actually being honest for a minute, and I donât want to ruin it.
âI never loved him,â I tell Cal, my voice steady and sure.
He exhales, and I know, I just know, thereâs relief in that sigh.
I have to smile, thinking of something poetic.
âWhat?â Callum asks.
âWell, ironically, when I broke up with Oliver, I thought I should find someone more compatible. Someone more like me.â
Cal has to laugh, too.
âInstead you got the exact opposite,â he says.
âRight,â I say.
Opposites have a kind of symmetry. Fire and ice. Stern and playful. Impulsive and restrained. In a way, they belong together.
Oliver and I were more like two objects selected at random: a pen and an owl. A cookie and a shovel.
Thatâs why there was no emotion on my side, just indifference.
You need push and pull to feel love. Or hate.
We pull up in front of Pole. Itâs a cabaret club on the west end of the city. Dark, low-ceilinged, sprawling and seedy. But also wildly popular, because itâs not your run-of-the-mill strip club. The performances are dark, kinky, and fetish-based. Some of the dancers are semi-famous in Chicago, including Francie Ross, whoâs one of the headliners. It doesnât surprise me that she caught Zajacâs eye.
âHave you been here before?â I ask Callum.
âNo,â he says carelessly. âIs it good?â
âYouâll see.â I grin.
The bouncers check our IDs and we head inside.
The thumping bass makes the air feel thick. I smell the sharp scent of alcohol, and the earthy tones of vape pens. The light is deep red, making everything else look like shades of black and gray.
The interior feels like a gothic dollhouse. Plush booths, botanical wallpaper, ornate mirrors. The waitresses are dressed up in strappy leather harnesses, some with leather animal ears and matching fur tailsâbunnies, foxes, and cats, mostly.
I spy a table emptying out close to the stage, and I drag Callum over before someone else can snag it.
âShouldnât we be looking for your friend?â he says.
âWe might be in her section. If not, Iâll go find her.â
He looks around at the busty waitresses, and the bartenders who are wearing skin-tight pleather bodysuits, unzipped to the navel.
âSo this is what Zajacâs into, huh?â he says.
âI think everybodyâs into this, to one degree or another,â I reply, biting the edge of my lip and grinning just a little.
âOh yeah?â Callum says. Heâs looking at me, curious and more than a little distracted. âTell me more.â
I nod to the corner of our booth, where a pair of silver handcuffs dangle down from a hook.
âI could see you making good use of those,â I say.
âDepends,â Callum growls, his eyes dark. âOn how you behave yourself tonight . . .â
Before I can answer, our waitress comes to take our order. Itâs not my friend Jada. But she says Jada is working.
âCan you send her over?â I ask.
âSure,â the girl nods.
While we wait, the lights lower even further, and the DJ drops the music.
âLadies and gentlemen,â he croons. âPlease welcome to the stage the one . . . the only . . . Eduardo!â
âOh, youâre going to like this,â I whisper to Callum.
âWhoâs Eduardo?â he mutters back.
âShh!â I say.
A spotlight follows a slim young man who poses for a moment in its light, then saunters down to the stage. Heâs wearing a fedora and zoot suitâ well-tailored, with exaggerated shoulders. He has a mustache and a cigarette dangling from his mouth.
His presence is magnetic. Every eye in the room is fixed on him and on his outrageous swagger.
Right before he ascends to the stage, he pauses next to a slim, pretty blonde girl in the front row. He grabs her hand and drags her up on stage, despite her protests and obvious shyness.
Then he goes through a little comedy routine where he instructs the girl to hold a flower for him. The top of the flower immediately falls off, tumbling down the front of the girlâs blouse. Eduardo plucks it out again before she can move, making her shriek. Then he teaches her a dance routine, a very seductive tango, which he performs masterfully, whipping her around like a mannequin.
All the while heâs keeping up a patter of jokes and insults, making the audience howl with laughter. He has a low, smooth voice, with a slight accent.
Finally, he tells the girl that heâs finished, and asks for a kiss on the cheek. When she reluctantly puckers up her lips, he holds out his cheek to her, then turns his head at the last minute, kissing her square on the mouth.
Of course the crowd eats it up. Theyâre cheering and chanting, âEduardo! Eduardo!â
âThank you my friends. But before I goâone last dance!â he shouts.
As the music plays, he dances across the stage, swift and sharp. He grabs his fedora and yanks it off his head, letting down a spill of white-blonde hair. He tears off his mustache, then rips open the front of his suit to reveal two absolutely spectacular breasts, full and bare, except for a pair of red tassels covering the nipples. âEduardoâ hops and shimmies to make the tassels spin round, then blows the crowd a kiss, bows, and leaves the stage.
Callum looks like he got slapped in the face. Iâm laughing so hard that tears are running down my cheeks. Iâve seen Francieâs show three times now, and it still blows me away. Her ability to walk and dance and speak like a man, even laugh like one, is just incredible. She never breaks character for a second, not until the very end.
âThatâs Francie Ross,â I say to Callum, in case he still hasnât figured it out.
âThatâs the Butcherâs girlfriend?â he says in astonishment.
âYup. If the rumors are true.â
I get my chance to ask Jada when she brings over our drinks. She passes a whiskey on the rocks to Callum, a vodka cranberry to me.
âHey!â she says, âI havenât seen you in forever.â
âI know!â I grin up at her. âItâs been crazy.â
âSo I heard,â Jada says, casting a significant glance in Callumâs direction. Jada has dyed-black hair, a multitude of piercings, and plum-colored lips. Her father used to work for mine, until he was sent to prison for unrelated mischief. Specifically, he tried to scam the state lottery. It was going great until he accidentally won twice in a row, which kinda tipped them off.
âDid you see the show?â Jada asks me.
âYes! Francieâs the best.â I lean a little closer, keeping my voice low so itâs covered by the music. âIs it true sheâs dating that Polish gangster?â
âI donât know, â Jada says, picking up an empty glass from the table next to ours, and setting it down on her tray. Sheâs not meeting my eyes anymore.
âCome on,â I coax her. âI know you two are tight.â
âThey might be,â she says noncommittally.
âDoes he come in here to see her?â I ask.
âNo,â Jada says. âNot that Iâve seen.â
She obviously doesnât like this line of questioning. But I donât want to drop it just yet.
Callum reaches under the table, smoothly pressing a folded bill into Jadaâs palm.
âWhere does she live?â he says.
Jada hesitates. She sneaks a glance down at her palm to see the denomination.
âThe yellow building on Cherry Street,â she says at last. âThird-floor walk-up. He goes there Tuesday nights. Thatâs when sheâs off work.â
âThere you go,â I mutter to Callum after Jada leaves. âIf he doesnât make contact after we fuck up his casino, then weâll get him on Tuesday.â
âYeah,â Callum agrees. âItâs still earlyâtext your brothers and see if they need us over at the casino.â
Iâm about to do so when Jada brings us another round of drinks.
âOn me,â she says, friendlier now that Iâve stopped grilling her. âDonât be a stranger so long next time.â
She slides a fresh vodka cranberry toward me.
I didnât really want a second, but if itâs free . . .
âThanks,â I say, raising it in a cheers motion.
âRoxy Rottenâs up next,â Jada says. âYou want to stay for that one.â
As I raise the straw to my lips, I see a strange sheen on the surface on my drink. I set it down again, looking at the cocktail. Maybe itâs just the red light on my red drink. But the surface looks a little oily. Like the glass wasnât washed well enough.
âWhat?â Callum says.
Iâm not sure I should drink it.
Iâm about to tell Callum to check his own drink, but heâs already slugged it back in a gulp.
The lights lower again, and the DJ introduces Roxy Rotten. Roxy performs her striptease in zombie makeup, under black lights that give the illusion that she loses several limbs over the course of her routine. Then, finally, her head seems to fall off. The lights go up again and Roxy stands center-stage, miraculously whole again, and displaying her lovely green-painted figure to the crowd.
âShould we go?â I say to Callum.
âDid your brothers reply?â
I check my phone. âNot yet.â
âLetâs leash, then. I mean leave.â He shakes his head. âAre you gonna finish that first?â he points to my second drink.
âUh . . . no.â I pour half of the new drink into my old glass so Jada wonât be offended. âLetâs go.â
I stand up first, slinging my bag over my arm. When Callum stands, he stumbles slightly.
âAre you okay?â I ask him.
âYeah,â he grunts. âJust a headache.â
I can see how unsteady he is on his feet. Itâs not the whiskeyâhe only had two shots, and I know from experience that Callum can drink a lot more than that without getting tipsy.
I see Jada standing next to the bar, arms crossed. She looks like a malevolent gargoyle with her leather fox ears, and her lips painted dark purple.
âLetâs get out of here,â I mutter to Callum, slinging his arm over my shoulder.
Iâm reminded horribly of the day we met, when I had to carry Sebastian down the pier like this. Callum is just as heavy, slumping over more and more with every step. Heâs trying to say something, but his eyes are rolled back, his voice mushy and incoherent.
If I can get him into the car, I can drive us someplace safe and call my brothers.
But just like on the pier, the door seems a million miles away. Iâm wading through sand, and Iâm never going to make it.
As I reach the exit at last, the bouncers surround me.
âIs there a problem, Miss?â
Iâm about to tell them I need someone to help carry Callum over to the car. But then I realize theyâre not coming to help us. Theyâre blocking the door.
I look around at the semi-circle of burly, looming men.
No time to call my brothers.
I do the only thing I can think of.
I slump down like Iâm passing out, hoping it wonât hurt too bad when I hit the floor.