Living with the Griffins is strange, to say the least.
The only person who seems happy to have me there is Nessa. We werenât exactly friends at school, but we were cordial enough, from a distance. We know some of the same people, so now we can talk about all the weird shit they got up to since graduation.
I think Nessa likes having me there because Iâm the only person who doesnât behave like an Ambition Bot. Iâm willing to actually talk at breakfast, not just work and eat in silence. Plus, weâre both taking classes at Loyola, so we can ride to school together in Nessaâs Jeep.
Nessa is a genuinely kind person, something you donât see a lot of in the world. Plenty of people act nice, but itâs just manners. Nessa gives away all her pocket money to homeless people, every single day. She never talks shit about anybody, even people who totally deserve it, like her siblings and her most vapid friends. She listens when people talkâI mean, really listens. Sheâs more interested in you than in herself.
I donât know how a bunch of sociopaths managed to raise a girl like that. Actually, itâs kind of tragic, because the Griffins look at her kindness as a failing, like some mild disability. They joke about how soft she is, how innocent.
I know Callum cares about her, but sheâs like a pet to him, not an equal.
Nessa welcomes me with open arms, glad to have another sister. Especially one thatâs slightly less of an asshole than Riona.
I donât know shit about having a sister. All I know is what I see in movies: braiding each otherâs hair, stealing each otherâs clothes, sometimes hating each other, sometimes crying on each otherâs shoulders. I donât know if I could do any of those things without feeling idiotic.
But Iâm glad to have Nessa as a friend. Thereâs a peacefulness to her personality that helps smooth down some of my rough edges.
Actually, I spend more time with her than I do with my new husband. Callum is working insanely long hours in the lead up to the election, and Iâm usually already asleep in our shared bed by the time he comes in.
Maybe itâs on purpose. We havenât hooked up again since our official âconsummationâ of the wedding.
That took me by surprise. I barged into the shower because I was cold and tired of waiting, and I wanted to show him that he couldnât intimidate me, not by half-drowning me, and certainly not with a little nudity.
I didnât expect him to kiss me. And I definitely didnât expect him to touch me that way . . .
Hereâs the problem. I like sex. A lot. And Iâm used to getting it pretty frequently.
So, unless Iâm going to start cheating on my brand-new husband, which is a really bad idea for a variety of reasons, then thereâs only one place to get my fix.
And itâs not exactly like I have to grin and bear it. Callum is hot. Heâs cold, and arrogant, and a total control freakâheâs already chewed me out five times this week for leaving clothes on the floor and spattering the mirror while Iâm brushing my teeth, and not making the bed when I get up an hour after him. But none of those things change the fact that the man is genetically blessed. His face, his body, and that cock . . . none of it is hard to look at.
And heâs got some skills, too. He doesnât fuck like a robot. He can be gentle, he can be rough, and above all, heâs extremely perceptive. He reads me like a book.
So I wouldnât mind exploring this whole married sex thing a little further. But heâs been too busyâor avoiding me.
Of course, when he does finally need my help, he asks in the most obnoxious way possible, which is not asking at all.
He corners me in the kitchen, where Iâm trying to toast a bagel. The Griffinsâ toaster keeps popping it back up again, because it probably hasnât been used in ten years since Iâm the only one in this house familiar with the concept of carbs.
âI have a fundraiser tonight,â Callum says. âBe ready at seven.â
âSorry,â I say, jamming down the lever on the toaster and holding it in place, âIâve already got plans.â
âDoing what?â
âLord of the Rings marathon. All three movies, extended version. I wonât be finished until tomorrow around noon.â
The toaster makes an angry clicking sound, but I hold the lever in place, determined to brown my bagel even if it makes the machine explode.
âVery funny,â Callum says, narrowing his pale blue eyes at me. âSeven oâclock, and make sure youâre not late. I expect proper hair and makeup. Iâve already laid a dress out on the bed.â
I let the bagel pop up, nicely browned at last. I start spreading a nice thick layer of cream cheese, glomming on even more when I see Callumâs expression of disgust.
âDo you have my lines ready for me, too?â I ask him. âMaybe you should just hang a placard around my neck, with whatever you expect me to say.â
I take a huge bite of my bagel, enjoying it all the more because I know Callum probably hasnât let himself eat one in years.
âIf you could refrain from cursing every third word, that would be a start,â he says, his fingers twitching involuntarily. Iâm pretty sure heâs dying to snatch the bagel out of my mouth. Heâs holding back because he doesnât want to antagonize me before the fundraiser.
âIâll damn well try, sweetheart,â I say around a mouthful of bagel.
He glares at me and stalks off, leaving me alone in the kitchen. Well, not totally aloneâI still have plenty of snacks.
I make a bowl of popcorn so I can at least start The Fellowship of the Ring.
As I head toward the theater room, I see Riona coming from the opposite direction, carrying a stack of folders. She looks flustered and stressed, as per usual. I donât know why sheâs always knocking herself out trying to impress these peopleâitâs pretty clear that her parents see Callum as the star of the family, and her as a supporting character at best. Yet the more they push her to the side, the harder she fights for them to notice her. Watching it bums me out.
Not that I have much sympathy. Riona was a grade-A bitch at school. Queen of the mean girls. The only reason I didnât get more shit from her is because I was younger and therefore beneath her notice.
Thatâs pretty much how she acts having to live in the same house with me. So I canât resist poking at her now and then.
âYou wanna join me?â I ask her, holding up the popcorn bowl. âIâm about to watch Lord of the Rings. Ever seen it? Thereâre some characters I think you might really identify with.â
Specifically, the ones that eat human flesh and are born out of muddy egg sacs.
Riona gives a dramatic sigh, annoyed that Iâm even talking to her.
âNo,â she says. âI donât want to watch a movie at three oâclock in the afternoon, because Iâm not a fucking child. I have work to do.â
âRight,â I say, nodding my head. âI forgot that youâre the secretary for your whole family. Really important stuff.â
âIâm a lawyer,â Riona says with icy dignity.
âOh.â I give a fake grimace. âSorry about that. Well donât worry, I wonât tell anybody.â
Riona shifts the heavy folders against one hip, cocking her head to the side so she can look me up and down with that patented mean-girl stare.
âThatâs right,â she says softly. âEverything is a joke to you. You get traded like a baseball card and you donât care, right? You donât care that your family abandoned you. That they sold you to us.â
That puts a sick little knot in my stomach, but Iâm not going to let Riona see it. I force myself to keep smiling and even pop a piece of popcorn into my mouth. It feels as dry as cardboard against my tongue.
âAt least Iâm a Topps Mickey Mantle,â I tell her. âI doubt youâd be an â86 Jose Canseco.â
Riona stares at me, shaking her head.
âYou are so fucking weird,â she says.
Eh . . . thatâs probably true.
She shoves past me, hurrying down the hallway.
I head into the theater, settling down in my favorite seat in the middle row.
Rionaâs a bitch. Her opinion means less than nothing to me.
But it keeps bothering at me, all the same. I canât even pay attention to the dulcet tones of Sir Ian McKellen, my favorite old-man crush.
The truth is, I do feel abandoned. I miss my father. I miss my brothers. I miss my own house, which was old and shabby and stuffed with ancient furniture, but I knew every bit of it. It was safe and comfortable, with memories attached to every surface.
I eat my popcorn without tasting any of it, until I can finally lose myself in the fantasy world of elves and dwarves and good-hearted Hobbits.
Around 6:30 p.m., I figure I should start getting ready. I shut the movie off and head upstairs to see what monstrosity Callum has laid out on the bed for me.
Sure enough, when I unzip the garment bag, I see a tight, silver-beaded dress that looks stiff and dowdy and fucking awful. Right as Iâm wrinkling my nose at it, Callum comes into the room, already dressed in a spotless tux, his dark hair combed back and still damp from his shower.
âWhy arenât you dressed?â he says angrily. âWeâre supposed to be leaving in twenty-five minutes. Jesus Christ, you havenât even done your hair yet.â
âIâm not wearing this,â I tell him flatly.
âYes, you are.â He scowls at me. âPut it on. Immediately.â
âDid you steal this out of Imogenâs closet?â
âNo,â he snarls. âI bought it specifically for you.â
âGood. Then you can return it.â
âNot until after you wear it tonight.â
âNot happening,â I tell him with a toss of my head.
âGet in the shower,â he barks. âWeâre going to be late.â
I walk toward the shower, moving deliberately slowly just to annoy him. I donât need more than half an hour to get ready; Iâm not a fucking pageant queen.
Still, Iâm tempted to stand under the warm water forever just to let him stew. Iâm definitely not wearing that dressâI can wear the yellow one that I wore to the engagement party. Though Callum will probably pop a blood vessel at the idea of a person wearing the same outfit two entire times.
When I step out of the shower, I see that he picked up the clothes I left in a crumpled heap on the bathroom floor. Nice.
I wrap a big, fluffy towel around myselfâsay what you will about the Griffins, at least they have excellent taste in linensâthen I stroll into the closet to find my dress.
Instead, I see that my entire side of the closet has been completely cleared out. Empty hangers dangle at odd anglesâsome of them still swaying from the wild stripping that occurred here.
I pull open the drawersâempty too. Heâs taken every last stitch of my clothing, down to my underwear.
When I turn around, Callumâs broad shoulders are filling the doorway, arms crossed over his chest and smirk on his handsome face.
âGuess itâs the dress or nothing,â he says.
âI pick nothing, then,â I reply, dropping the towel in a puddle around my feet and folding my arms across my chest in imitation of his.
âUnderstand this,â Callum says quietly. âYouâre coming to that dinner tonight, even if I have to throw you over my shoulder and carry you like a caveman. You can be wearing the dress when I do that, or I swear to god, Aida, I will haul you there naked and make you sit in your seat in front of everyone. Donât fucking test me.â
âThatâll embarrass you more than me,â I snap, but I can feel the color rising in my cheeks. Callumâs eyes look wilder than Iâve ever seen them. I actually think heâs serious. Thatâs how determined he is to bend me to his will over this stupid dress.
The seconds tick by between us. Seconds that are making us later and later for this fundraiser, but Callum isnât budging out of the doorway. This is the hill heâs choosing to die on: that ugly beaded dress.
âFine!â I bark at last. âIâll put the stupid dress on.â
The smirk on his face makes me want to take it back immediately. Or else punch him in the eye. If I have to go to the dinner in that lame-ass dress, then he can go there with a nice fucking shiner.
Iâm so mad Iâm almost shaking. I step into the stiff, scratchy dress and stand there while Callum zips up the back. It feels like heâs lacing a corset. I have to suck in my tummy and then, once itâs zipped, I canât let it out again. Which makes me kind of regret all that popcorn I ate.
âWhere did you hide my underwear?â I demand.
I feel Callumâs fingers pause at the top of the zipper.
âYou donât need any underwear,â he says.
That fucker. Heâs getting off on this! I knew it!
Sure enough, when I turn around thereâs a hungry look on his face, like he wants to rip the dress right off me again. But he wonât do that. Heâs going to savor watching me walk around in it all night. Knowing that heâs making me do it. Knowing that Iâm not wearing any panties underneath.
Iâm so infuriated I could scream. Especially once he holds up the shoes he expects me to wear.
âHow am I even going to get those on?â I shout. âI canât sit down in this fucking straightjacket.â
Callum rolls his eyes.
Then he does something that surprises me.
He gets down on his knee in front of me, placing my hand on his shoulder for balance. He lifts my foot and slides the stiletto onto it, like heâs Prince Charming and Iâm Cinderella. His hands are surprisingly gentle as his fingers touch the arch of my foot. He buckles the strap, then puts the other shoe on my opposite foot.
When he stands up again, weâre close to each other, so much that I have to tilt my head to look up at him.
âThere,â he says gruffly. âIâll send Marta up to help you get ready.â
Marta is a catch-all personal assistant to the family, and she also happens to be good with hair and makeup, so she frequently helps Riona and Nessa get ready for events. Imogen does her paint job herself, or else goes to a salon.
âWhatever,â I say.
Callum heads downstairs to find Marta, and I start hobbling back to the bathroom on the sky-high heels.
I donât know if itâs the lack of underwear or something else, but I can feel an uncomfortable wetness between my legs. Every step I take in that tight dress is making my pussy lips rub together. Iâm warm and throbbing, and I keep thinking about that look of arousal on Callumâs face. How stern he was when he ordered me to put on the dress.
What the fuck is happening to me?
It must just be the fact that I havenât gotten laid in over a week.
Because thereâs no way that I could be turned on by Callum ordering me around. Thatâs crazy. I fucking hate being bossed around.
âAida?â a voice says behind me.
I yelp and spin around.
Itâs just Marta, holding her makeup bag. Sheâs about thirty years old, with big brown eyes, dark bangs, and a soft voice.
âCallum said you needed a little help getting ready?â
âRight. Yes,â I stammer.
âTake a seat,â she says, pulling a chair up in front of the mirror. âWeâll have you ready in no time.â