Axar has remained silent and brooding since I got back in the car and we drove off. He keeps looking out the window, almost longing. Watching no doubt for Sera. I feel foolish now, knowing that I had orchestrated and created all this chaos. I have cost myself Sera for the moment. I have cost Axar his mother figure. Now I will have to take care of this damn child and scrounge for food again unless I feed from this sulking heap in the passenger's seat.
I pushed too hard. Narius was right. I should have just lied the whole time, told her what she wanted to hear. I couldn't bring myself to say it though. I couldn't tell her I cared for her, or that we were together, and now I realize it was because it was true. We technically were together. In a round about way. I had taken her in and was willing to provide for her, and I have never done that before. I used the guise of pet and master to avoid the legitimate label and to have an excuse for her living with me. It was not even her idea, I dragged her into all of this. I should never have told her she wasn't fully human. I have never had my schemes blow back this on me before.
"Nox?" He startles me out of my thoughts.
"Yes kid?" I sigh.
"I'm really hungry and I have to pee." He whines and turns away. "Do...do you think Sera is hungry too?" He draws up in guilt. It wasn't even of his own doing, I messed with his mind while he was asleep. It wasn't even his own outburst. I fucking hate myself. I spot a diner ahead and I pull off. Axar smiles a little as he sees the restaurant.
"This okay?"
"Yes. Thank you. I-I'm sorry. I don't mean to be do much trouble I-"
"It's alright. You aren't trouble. You have to eat, it's a basic need. I forgot to ask you if you were hungry earlier. Seraphine usually..." I trail off when I notice his eyes.
"I can't believe she did that. She killed that lady. But, I still miss her. I know she's a bad person and that it's not safe to have her around, but she was good to me until then. Do you think she'll come back?" I decide to set him straight, without admitting my part in this.
"It's the way our kind or hybrids of us do. We have to eat, the same as you. Sera never meant to kill her, she simply cannot control her abilities just as you can't. She felt terrible and she was so guilty knowing you were going to be upset. She fought so hard to stop. Sera is not a bad person, she's overwhelmed and scared. She was only thinking to protect you. Barima warned me before she left the room to enjoy Sera while I could, foreshadowing her intentions to kill her. Which would you have rather see die?"
"You...have you killed?" I scoff.
"Hundreds. Unlike Sera, I didn't care if they died." I shrug.
"That's terrible." He is silent for a bit before beginning again. "Will she come back?"
"I'm going to find her and bring her back. She will hate me though. So I will need you to keep her calm and try to convince her to stay."
"She's upset with me too, what if I can't?"
"Then I will keep her with us by force. Get out now, let's go eat." I urge him out and lead him into the dinner to a booth. The diner has an older feel to it, middle aged human customers dine and a few truckers sit at the bar upfront. Our waitress nearly floats to us, her arousal obvious as she eyes me while waiting for our order. Axar orders his food, and I take a steak sandwich. I'm nervous about this as I typically do not eat human food, but I'll need something for strength until I can feed again. The waitress. I grin.
A bit later the woman returns with our plates, and I brush her hand long enough to absorb her lust as I take our plates. I'm utterly disappointed when the buzz of her energy dies down in moments. The others aren't the same. I can't enjoy feeding from them now that I have feasted on Sera. I'm like an addict desperate for his drug of choice, and all others can't take me there. I inhale the sandwich, and while it tastes well, it dies nothing to ease my appetite. I am once again restless, insatiable and imbalanced.
The radio plays an oldies station. Depressing blues and classic music fills the atmosphere, adding to my mental agony. "I know. I know. I know. I know. I ought to leave the young thing along, but there ain't no sunshine when she's gone..." Solar eclipse. "...Only darkness everyday. Ain't no sunshine when she's gone and this house just ain't no home anytime she goes away." A light clicks. Sunshine. Full blood succubi are sensitive to extreme sunlight, but what are a cambion or hybrid's weakness? What I can be done to trap her inside my home? I can weaken her by using guilt to make her skip energy feeding, but what else can I do?
"It's time to go now." I flag the waitress to pay and for a to go box for Axar's leftovers. I send him to the car and I decide that I need blood. I open the car door and send Axar inside. "Stay here. I need to use the restroom." I wink as a wide grin plasters my face. However viscious and terrible he thought Sera, he would love to peek into my psyche for even a moment. He is riding with the greater evil.
I enter the gas station next to the diner. I catch eyes with a young woman at the pump. She holds my gaze to long and I lure her to the restroom. She's not Sera, but she will do. I join her in the stall and immediately she starts to press into me. Curious little hands roam my torso. Greedy little girl. I am sure to silence her so nobody will hear her cries. We begin to fondle and kiss. In my mind she is Sera. She breathes soft moans into my mouth and I laugh softly. I get her bare against my and I enter her, watching her lustful entranced eyes roll as her shoulders slump against the wall. She rides out her first few orgasms quickly, I feel her heart flutter. I absorb all the lust through our touching skin.
Having my fill of lust, I decide I need something stronger to add to the blood I'll soon consume. I still have her under my will, and she cannot scream or speak. I flick my long tongue out and I lick from her chest to throat. Her eyes widen in shock. Horns sprout and my long claws extend, sinking into her soft flesh as she silently squeals. Her heart is pumping dangerously quick. Blood bubbles around my claws in her thigh as I quicken my pace. She tries to squirm and fight me off. Hands pushing at my hands and chest as she tries to beg but no sound escapes. She begins to hyperventilate. Heart and lungs in overdrive. I retract one hand to wave my claws in her face as I grab the top of her head and sink a thumb into her eye.
I bite down into her throat at this moment, absorbing all that delectable despair and horror as I drain her of blood. She twitches and muffled heavy breaths escape her lips. I gain my release as her last drops of blood enter my body and she tenses as her body tries in vain to save itself before ultimately shutting down. I let her down against the wall, and I flick her eye from my thumb into the toilet bowl. Not bad sweetie, but even after all that it wasn't enough. It wasn't enough. I go through the wall of the restroom until I am behind the building. I walk around to the car and get in. Axar is fixed on me, and I feel his suspicion as he focuses on my hands. The tips are stained with a now dried blood.
He doesn't speak on the way home. I strum my fingers on the wheel as I plan out my next moves. I decide to contact Narius, and our father. I need more information on what Sera might be or any hints to her ancestry. I need to see if father has any contacts with the ability to find her. I also need to figure out why she has this effect on me. I need to understand what she is to me.
I watch every set of grey leggings or hint of colorful hair while holding my breath, hoping each one is Sera. I'm crawling out of my skin. Restless to my core once again. Silently pleading as we go home that I will find her among the crowd walking the busy streets. As I pull into the driveway of my home, I pray that she's somehow waiting on the step, or somehow already inside waiting for me. My hand shakes as the disappointing reality settles in, and I try to push the door handle.
"We will find her Nox. You'll be okay." Axar's sympathetic face confuses me, and I realize I was not only trembling, but a lone tear sits beneath my eye. I snarl and destroy the car door on my way out. The sun is setting early, and the remaining daylight is obscured by dark clouds. I evetervthe house, Axar on my heels. Ain't no sunshine when she's gone, and this house just ain't no home anytime she goes away. I wonder this time where she's gone?
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So, we are getting deeper into it now! Nox is starting to realize the connection between he and Seraphine. Getting a little sentimental, a little out of control with his emotions. Axar is losing trust in him again. Interesting info is about to be introduced, and we are soon to meet several new important people. Anybody have any theories?