Chapter 0329 Hannah Noah held my wrist tightly, his finger stroking my inner wrist.
I felt my resolve crumbling, and there was no hiding the way my hand trembled under his touch. His eyes flicked between my hand and my face, reading my conflicting emotions like an open book.
âI know you want me, Hannah,â he said softly, his voice low and husky. He rose to his full height, still holding my wrist. âYou donât need to lie anymore.â
I swallowed hard, craning my neck back just to look up at him. His eyes caught the light of the bedside table, tiny wildfires burning in the forestâgreen depths. I wanted to kiss him, to shove him down on the bed, to ride him like my life depended on it.
But I restrained myself. I pulled away, turning to grip the dresser. The cool wood under my palms grounded me, but my mind was still racing, torn between desire and reason. The large hotel room suddenly felt too small for the both of us.
Finally, I took a deep breath and spoke.
âNoah, I think we need to be honest about our feelings,â I said, my voice hardly more than a whisper. âYes, I enjoyed what happened earlier. The way you touched me... it felt incredible. But if weâre still getting divorced, this could complicate things. It would tangle up our emotions and make everything more difficult.â
I felt Noah stiffen behind me. âSo you still want the divorce?â he asked, his tone carefully neutral.
I nodded slowly, feeling a pang in my chest as I did so. âOur marriage has been in shambles for years. Weâve been living like strangers, Noah. And... thereâs something else.â I paused, steeling myself for his reaction to what I was about to say.
âI want to take over Silvermoon when my father abdicates,â I said. âAnd I canât do that if Iâm married to another Alpha.â
Noah was silent. Slowly, hesitantly, I turned to find that he was now facing the window, his shoulders rigid. I wanted to go to him, but I didnât. I couldnât.
âSo you just want to get divorced for power,â he finally said, his voice low and controlled. The words stung, even though I knew they werenât entirely true.
âItâs not... like that,â I protested.
He turned to face me again, and his face was set hard. âWhat is it like, then?â he all but growled.
âMy cousin Alvin is the only other heir. If he takes over, heâll run Silvermoon into the ground. You know what heâs like, Noah.â
Noah grimaced at the mention of Alvin. He had met him plenty of times beforeâhe knew exactly what I was referring to.
âMy father plans on abdicating within the year,â I explained, surprised by my own candor in this matter. Which means that Silvermoon could be at risk within a year. I canât just sit idly by while my home pack is destroyed.â
Chapter 0329 +25 BONUS Noah sighed. âYouâre right about that,â he admitted, running a hand through his hair. âAlvin would make a horrible Alpha. Heâs a playboy with no real sense of responsibility.â
I let out a sigh of relief. So he understood, at least; that was something.
He moved closer, his eyes softening as they met mine. âYou, on the other hand... A few months ago, I might have thought you would make a horrible female Alpha too.â
âDo you still think that?â I found myself asking.
He shrugged. âLately, youâve shown such strength and responsibility. Itâs like youâve become a different person, Hannah. As much as it pains me to allow you to divorce me, I wonât lie; you could make a great Alpha.â
His words warmed me, but they also made me feel guilty. There was so much he didnât know, so much I hadnât yet told him.
Maybe now was the time.
âNoah, thereâs something I need to tell you,â I started, my heart racing.
âWhat is it?â
I wanted to tell him everythingâabout my rebirth, how I had died and been given a second chance. How that was the reason why I had suddenly changed.
But the words caught in my throat. I couldnât do it, because I knew he would think I was crazy, and it would negate everything he had just said.
Instead, I said, âFinding out I was pregnant made me realize the flaws in my ways. Thatâs why Iâve been working so hard to be better.â
Noah nodded slowly. âI can understand that. I donât want to divorce you, Hannah. But I wonât stand in your way. I donât want you to feel like a prisoner. And if youâre really concerned about Silvermoon, I canât fault you for putting your pack above your heart.
Itâs... admirable, actually.â
His words made my chest ache. Why did he have to be so understanding? It would be easier if he was angry, if he fought against this. Fighting was something we were so good at, but this...
âIn the meantime,â Noah continued, his eyes flicking over my body, âI still want to do whatever I can to make your pregnancy easier. And I meant what I said about daily orgasms being recommended for pregnant women. Itâs not just about pleasure, Hannah. Itâs about your health and the babyâs health.â
I felt my face flush, heat spreading down my neck. âI have toys,â I mumbled, avoiding his gaze.
Noah shrugged, a small smile playing on his lips. âYou can use toys if you want, but itâs not the same. It doesnât produce the same mental chemicals as real intimacy. Dopamine, serotonin, oxytocinâtheyâre all -important for a healthy pregnancy. For bonding, for reducing stress, for overall wellâbeing.â
I bit my lip, unsure of what to say. I couldnât deny that I had enjoyed his touch, that my body craved more.
But the idea of continuing this... arrangement felt dangerous. Like playing with fire.
âWhat if...â Noah started, then paused, running a hand through his hair. âWhat if we agree to a âreleaseâ, like I suggested before?
If you donât want sex, I can still pleasure you in other ways. Just for the pregnancy. No strings attached.â
+25 BONUS Chapter 0329 I hesitated, my mind whirling. The rational part of me knew this was a bad idea, that it would only make our eventual separation more painful. But another part, a part I had been trying to ignore, longed for his touch. Craved it like I craved air.
âI... I donât know, Noah,â I said, my voice trembling. âItâs tempting, but...â
âLet me show you some other options,â Noah said softly, stepping even closer. Our bodies were almost touching now, and I could feel the heat radiating off of him. âNot just with my fingers. There are so many ways I can make you feel good, Hannah. Ways that will benefit both you and the baby.â
His hands moved to my hips, his touch gentle but firm. I felt my breath catch in my throat, my body responding to his proximity despite my reservations.
Before I could respond, Noah gently pushed me down onto the bed.
I didnât fight him as he pushed my dress up around my hips, as he tugged my panties aside. I moved my legs apart for him, watching with wide eyes as he dropped to his knees beside the bed.
And I didnât fight as he buried his face between my thighs.
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