Tuesday morning.
As I rode the train to work, I was thinking about yesterday.
After I refused to let her feed me her crepes, Otozui was pouting for a while.
At first, I thought she was just a child, but maybe it was a miscommunication/misunderstanding.
When I thought about it, I couldnât help but feel self-loathing.
But it was hard to eat the crepes she had.
Ha~. â¦. What was I supposed to do?
As I sighed for the umpteenth time, I heard a voice in its usual dull tone.
âGood morning, Onii-Sanâ.
âHey. Yuika.â
In todayâs rapidly changing society, I envy you, Yuika, for being so natural.
When she saw me, she tilted her head.
âYou donât look happy today.â
You can tell?
âWeâve known each other a long time.â
âItâs only been about a week since we met.â
But I guess only Yuika had gotten me to talk so much in just a week, since I have a reputation for being unsociable.
I might not appear like a positive character, but I was a great communicator. I wanted to follow in her footsteps.
Perhaps sensing my mood, Yuika looked up at me with a smile.
âSo whatâs up?â
âIâve upset my junior colleague again.â
âAgain?â
Her expression didnât change much as usual, but I could tell that she was taken aback.
Iâm sure youâre right, Even Iâm disgusted with myself.
But now I was grasping at straws.1
I could rely on Yuika here.
âActually, we were eating crepes together. â¦â
âOnii-San crepe. Pfft.â
âDonât pretend to laugh. Itâs .., and thatâs why I couldnât give the reaction my junior wanted, and then couldnât follow through, and now Iâm here.â
Yuika replied.
âAh~. Onii-San is like that, even with me.â
âIâll be careful in the future.â
âGood.â
Crossing her arms and nodding deliberately, Yuika spun her index finger around as if to guide her answer.
âFirst of all, Onii-San is making a big mistake.â
âWhat?â
âMaybe the junior didnât want to see the reaction she thought she would get, but wanted to see what Onii-San was really like.â
â⦠Always like this?â
âYes, I know that. But I donât think thatâs it. I think she wanted to see the part of you that you donât always show.â
Hmmm? Not the usual, but the real me?
Iâm different when Iâm alone. But if you mean my usual self, Iâve shown you that long ago â¦
â⦠I donât understand.â
âIf you want to see a side of the person you like, a side that you didnât know⦠. You donât understand â¦.â
âYou just made fun of me.â
âIâm shocked.â
Iâd like to say something back, but it was true that I didnât understand womenâs feelings.
Iâm sorry, but I have to accept it.
âAnyway, I have to gain back the trust of my junior. â¦
âHmm~ I guess so~.â
Yuika tapped her chin with her index finger in a thoughtful gesture.
It must be a habit of hers to think while looking around in a daze like this.
Then, Yuika snapped and looked up.
âHmm. Thatâs it.â
âDid you come up with something?â
âOnii-san, I think you should strengthen your ability to compliment.â
When I heard Yuukaâs answer, I grinned.
âPraise. He~ Iâm confident in that.â
âYou can disinfect that confidence with alcohol and bury it in the ground.â
âWhat? Itâs food waste.â
âProperly handled.â
The point was made so harshly that I asked in a hushed voice.
âIs ⦠that bad?â
âIâd like to see some confidence and good manners in the disposal of food waste. Donât you think so?â
âIâll reflect on it.â
Then Yuika â tangibly â stood in front of me and looked at me with a serious face.
âOnii-San, listen to me carefully.â
âLetâs hear it.â
âPraise is a way of expressing affection, you know.â
âYouâre getting very serious all of a sudden.â
âOnii-san is unsociable, so I think itâs just right to think that way.â
âWell, ⦠Iâm aware of my personality, but â¦â
âLetâs change that.â
Yuika accurately pointed out my problems and proposed a plan for improvement.
But unsociable was my default setting, so it was not something I could change immediately.
Then letâs try to solidify a concrete image.2
The opposite of my personality was ⦠that.
âI see. So youâre saying I should be a cheery-yang3character.â
âA cheery Onii-San. I hate that.â
âYeah.â
âStop it. And youâre reading with a stick4.â
After a while, Yuika was trying hard to hold back a faint laugh.
I just did it out of desperation, but apparently I might have a talent for comedy.