Two weeks after my date with Steffan, I left for my goodwill tour with Mikaela, Rhys, another bodyguard named Elliott, the palace photographer Alfred, Alfredâs assistant Luna, and Henrik, a reporter from the Everyone loved my idea, including my grandfather, and the palace had worked around the clock to put together the perfect itinerary on short notice. We hit all the countryâs most important regions, including the manufacturing hub of Northern Kurtland and the oil and energy center of Hesbjerg. I felt like I was campaigning for an office Iâd already won, somewhat undeservingly, thanks to genetic lottery.
But I had to do it. After years of living abroad, I needed to reconnect with the people of Eldorra. Understand the way they lived, what problems kept them up at night, and what they wanted that was within my power to give. In practice, the prime minister and Parliament ruled the country, but the royal family, as an institution, wielded considerably more power in Eldorra than in other countries. It boasted an eighty-nine percent approval ratingâfar higher than any politicianâand the monarchâs opinions held a lot of sway.
If I were to be a good queen, I needed to get back in touch with the people. It didnât matter that I didnât want the crown. It would be mine one day regardless.
âItâs just us and a handful of staff,â Ida, the owner of the dairy farm we were visiting, said. âOur farm is on the smaller side, but we do the best we can.â
âIt looks like youâre doing a lovely job.â I walked through the barn. It was smaller than the others weâd visited, but it was well-kept, and the cows looked healthy. However, I noticed half of the stalls were empty. âAre the other cows with the farmhands?â
Behind us, Alfredâs camera clicked and whirred. The Part-Time Princess headlines, which were already fading thanks to my dates with Steffan, had all but disappeared during the tour, replaced with pictures of me touring factories and reading to schoolchildren.
I wouldâve done the tour even if no one covered it, though. I meeting with locals, far more than I did another tedious gala.
âNo.â Ida shook her head. âThe dairy industry isnât doing so well. Milk prices have gone down over the years, and a lot of farms in the area have shut down. We had to sell some of our cows for extra cash. Plus, there isnât enough demand for milk to justify keeping so many of them around.â
Despite her words, sadness flitted across her face. The farm had belonged to her family for generations, and I could only imagine how difficult it must be to see it shrink year after year.
âHave you contacted your minister about the issue?â
According to my briefing materials, the drop in milk prices resulted from a trade fight between Eldorra and a few other countries in Europe. Trade and tariff policies fell under Parliamentâs purview.
Ida shrugged, looking resigned. âWe used to write to our officials, but we only got form responses, so we stopped. No one listens to us anyway.â
I frowned. The whole point of Parliament was to represent constituentsâ concerns. What were they doing if not their job?
âYou can write to me,â I said on impulse. âAll of your friends and neighbors can write to me. If you have an issue you want addressed, write or email me and Iâll bring it up with Parliament. I canât guarantee legislation, but I can at least make sure your voices are heard.â
Elin coughed, and Henrik the reporter scribbled furiously in his notepad.
Ida blinked. âOh, I couldnât possiblyââ
âI insist,â I said firmly. âElin, can you please share the mailing and email addresses with Ida before we leave? Actually, please share them with everyone weâve met so far.â
Elin rubbed her temple. âYes, Your Highness.â
She waited until we returned to the inn that night before laying into me.
âPrincess Bridget, the point of this tour is to create she said. âNot make things more complicated with Parliament. Do you really want random people writing to you about the smallest problem?â
âTheyâre not random people, theyâre Eldorrans.â I sat in the common room with Rhys while Elin stood by the fireplace, her hands on her hips. Henrik, Alfred, Luna, and Elliott had already retired to their rooms. âIâm not changing policy. Iâm merely helping people get their voices heard. No,â I said when Elin opened her mouth. âIâm not arguing about this. Itâs been a long day, and we have an early morning tomorrow.â
Her mouth pinched, but she conceded with a reluctant, âYes, Your Highness.â
She was a master at choosing which battles to fight, and apparently, this one wasnât worth fighting.
She disappeared up the stairs, leaving me alone with Rhys.
He sat in the corner, staring at the flames in the hearth with a brooding expression. Whatever was bothering him, it wasnât us and what happened in the parking lot of the Royal Botanic Gardens. It was something else. Heâd been moodier than usual since the trip started.
âPenny for your thoughts,â I said. Weâd barely talked the entire trip, unless and counted as talking.
Rhys finally looked at me. The firelight flickered over his face, casting dancing shadows over his strong jaw and chiseled cheekbones âYou seem happy,â he said. âFar happier than Iâve seen you at those fancy parties you go to in Athenberg.â
Of course he had. He was the most observant man Iâd ever met.
âI love it,â I admitted. âMeeting people, hearing their concerns, having something concrete to contribute at my next meeting with the Speaker. I feel like I can finally do something meaningful. Like I have a purpose in life.â
That was one thing that had bugged me so much about being a princess. Yes, the monarchy was symbolic, but I didnât want to spend my life just smiling for the cameras and giving lifestyle interviews. I wanted something But maybe Iâd been thinking about my role all wrong. Maybe, instead of conforming to what being the crown princess had always meant, I could shape it into what I wanted it to be.
A small smile touched Rhysâs lips. âI always knew you would make a great queen.â
âIâm not queen yet.â
âYou donât need a crown to be queen, princess.â
The words slid over my skin, leaving a trail of tingles in their wake. I let myself soak them in for a minute before I changed the subject, painfully aware of who and what we were.
âAre you enjoying the trip?â I asked. âItâs nice to be out of the city.â
His smile faded. âItâs fine.â
âJust fine?â Perhaps I was biased, but Eldorra was beautiful, and weâd visited some of the countryâs most stunning regions.
He lifted those broad shoulders in a half shrug. âIâm not the biggest fan of Eldorra. Almost didnât take this job so I wouldnât have to visit.â
âOh.â I tried not to take ffense. I failed. âWhy not?â
Eldorra was like Switzerland or Australia. Not everyone loved it, but no one hated it.
The silence stretched for several long beats before Rhys replied.
âMy father was Eldorran,â he said, his voice flat and emotionless. âHe promised my mother he would bring her here and theyâd live happily ever after. She never quite gave up on that dream, even after he left and it became clear he wasnât coming back. She kept talking about Eldorra, how she was going to leave our shit town and move here. She had postcards and magazine articles about the place all over the house. That was all I heard growing up. Eldorra, Eldorra, Eldorra. She loved the fantasy of the country more than she did me, and I grew to hate it. It became a symbol of everything wrong with my childhood. Still, I mightâve gotten over my hang-up eventually, butâ¦â
Rhysâs hand clenched and unclenched around his knee. âOne of my last deployments was a joint mission. Both the U.S. and Eldorra had agents whoâd been caught by the terrorist group they were tracking, and we were supposed to retrieve them. For diplomatic reasons, we had to keep our mission under wraps, which meant no air support. We were deep in hostile territory, outnumbered and outgunned. Our biggest advantage was the element of surprise.â
Cold foreboding trickled down my back.
âThe night of the mission, one of the Eldorran soldiersâa brash, hotheaded typeâstrayed from the plan. Weâd clashed from the beginning, and he hated we were using my plan instead of his.â Rhysâs expression was bleak. âInstead of waiting for my signal like we agreed upon, he fired when he saw one of the group leaders leave the compound. The one in charge of torturing the prisoners, according to our intel. It was a high-profile killâ¦but it hadnât been our priority, and it gave away our location. Everything went to shit after that. We were swarmed, and out of the eight men in my squad, three survived. The agents didnât make it out alive, either. It was a total fucking bloodbath.â
His words tripped something in my memory. A unit of Eldorran soldiers had all been wiped out in a joint mission gone wrong a few years ago. It had received nonstop news coverage for a week, and I bet it was the same mission Rhys was talking about.
Horror and sympathy gripped my chest. âIâm so sorry.â
I should be loyal to Eldorra, and I but loyalty didnât mean blindness. Everyone messed up, and in Rhysâs case, the soldierâs mistake had cost him the lives of those he loved.
âDonât be. Itâs not your fault.â Rhys rubbed a hand over his face. âIt happened years ago, and yeah, it added to my huge fucking hang-ups about Eldorra, but whatâs past is past. Canât do a damn thing about it now.â
We fell silent again, each lost in our own thoughts, before I worked up the courage to ask, âWhy did you take the job as my bodyguard then? If you knew it meant having to visit Eldorra.â
Rhysâs expression relaxed into a smirk. âYou got a real pretty face.â His smirk widened at my exasperated huff. âI donât know. Guess it felt right at the time.â
âWe always end up where weâre meant to be,â I said softly.
His eyes lingered on mine. âMaybe.â
He hated Eldorra, yet heâd not only taken the job but moved here permanently. For me.
âWell.â I forced a smile, hardly able to hear myself over the roar of my heart. âI should turn in for the night. Early morning tomorrow.â
Rhys rose when I did. âIâll walk you to your room.â
The soft creak of the wooden stairs beneath our feet mingled with the sounds of our breathsâmine shallow, Rhysâs deep and even.
Did he feel it, the electric current running between us? Or was it only in my imagination?
Perhaps not, because when we arrived at my room, I didnât open the door, and he didnât leave.
Goosebumps peppered my flesh, either from Rhysâs proximity or from the air-conditioning blasting through the hall.
His confession from the parking lot echoed in my head. We hadnât talked about that night since, but maybe we didnât need words.
Rhysâs eyes dipped to my breasts. I followed his gaze and noticed for the first time just how thin my blouse was. I wore a lace bra, but my nipples were so hard they showed clearly through the two layers of flimsy material.
I should leave, but Rhysâs molten gaze pinned me in place, erasing my earlier chill and leaving a deep, fiery ache in its wake.
âYou know what you said earlier? About how we always end up where weâre meant to be?â He grazed his hand over the side of my neck, and my heart thudded so hard against my ribcage I half expected it to leap out of my chest and into his arms.
I couldnât bring myself to speak, but I managed a small nod.
The heaviness of the air caressed me like a bold loverâs touch, and I , deep in my gut, I stood on a dangerous precipice. The slightest movement from me, and I would fall.
The question was whether I wanted to save myself, or if the pleasure would be worth the eventual pain.
âPerhapsâ¦â Rhysâs touch skimmed down my neck and over the curve of my shoulder. I shivered, my skin blossoming with a thousand more goosebumps. âI was always meant to find my way to you.â
Every ounce of oxygen disappeared from my lungs.
âYou should go into your room, princess.â His voice was full of gravel, dark and rough. âGo into your room and lock the door.â
I shook my head. âI donât want to.â
Whatever was happening, it was different from Costa Rica. We didnât have a bucket list or excuses to fall back on. It was just him and me, making a choice that had been a long time coming.
Rhys groaned, and with that one sound, I knew heâd made his choice.
Even when there was no oxygen, no air, nothing but him.
He dipped his head, but instead of kissing my mouth, he kissed the hollow of my throat. It was so soft it was more a whisper of breath than a kiss, but it was enough to make my knees weaken.
I was a lightning rod, and Rhys was the strike that lit me up from the inside out.
I closed my eyes and stifled a moan as he dragged his mouth up my neck, inch by inch. Just as the lazy possessiveness of his touch lulled me into a semi-stupor, he yanked me toward him with one hand and sank his teeth into the curve between my neck and shoulder. Hard. Almost as hard as the thick arousal pressing against my stomach and causing my core to throb with need. Rhysâs other hand clamped over my mouth, muffling my surprised yelp.
âTell me.â His voice lowered. âWhat would your boyfriend think about this?â
It took a minute before it clicked.
Weâd gone on two dates. Hardly enough to be considered my boyfriend, no matter what the press said.
But I had a feeling that argument wouldnât hold sway with Rhys, who loosened his hand enough for me to gasp out, âSteffanâs not my boyfriend.â
The air thickened with danger.
âI donât like hearing his name on your lips.â Lethally soft words, each one delivered with the precision of a guided missile. âBut you went on dates with him. You kissed him.â Rhysâs voice darkened further, and he pressed me further against the wall while wrapping one hand around my throat. âDid you do that to bait me, princess? Hmm?â
âN-no.â I was soaking wet. The darkness of the hall, the roughness of Rhysâs voice, it all went straight to the heat pulsing between my legs. âI had to date someone after the ball. And I didnât think you cared.â
âI care about everything you do. Even when I shouldnât.â Rhysâs grip tightened on my throat. âOne last chance, princess. Tell me to stop.â
âNo.â
I was all too aware that Elin, Mikaela, and the rest of the group slumbered behind the doors on either side of us. It would only take one late-night bathroom break, one light sleeper to hear us and blow the situation to hell.
But somehow, the danger only intensified the thrill running through my veins. Whatever this was between us, it had been building since the moment Rhys stepped out of his car outside my house at Thayer, and I couldnât stop it even if I wanted to.
Rhys hissed out a breath and released my throat, only to curl his hand around the back of my neck. He yanked me to him again, crushing my mouth to his, and my world imploded.
Tongues, teeth, hands. We devoured each other like the world would end and this was our last chance to something. Perhaps it was. But I wouldnât think about that now, not when our bodies pressed so tight against each other we might as well be one, and I was falling, falling into an abyss I never wanted to get out of.
Mikaela had been right. You could tell everything from a kiss.
I tugged on Rhysâs hair, desperate for More of his touch, his taste, his scent. I wanted to fill every inch of my soul with this man.
He drew my bottom lip between his teeth and tugged. I gasped, so aroused I could feel my wetness slicking my thighs.
âQuiet,â he rasped. âOr someone will hear.â He swept his palm up my inner thigh to my core and let out a low groan when he discovered how wet I was. âYouâre killing me, princess.â
He rubbed his thumb over my clit through my drenched panties, and I fought back a moan as I arched into his hand. He slid my panties to the side, andâ
A bed creaked behind the door next to mine.
Rhys and I froze in unison, our breathing harsh.
Weâd gotten so wrapped up in what we were doing weâd forgotten all about the people sleeping just a few feet away.
We heard another creak, followed by the shuffle of someone getting out of bed. Henrik, if the direction of the sound was any indication.
Rhys cursed under his breath and pulled his hand away. It was the smart thing to do, but I still wanted to weep at the loss of contact.
He opened the door to my room behind me and gently pushed me inside. âTomorrow night. Gazebo,â he said in a low voice. âWeâll go together.â
There was a gazebo behind an abandoned farm, about a fifteen-minute walk from our inn. Weâd passed by it on our way into town.
âAnd princessâ¦donât bother wearing any underwear.â
The throbbing between my legs intensified.
Rhys closed my door right as Henrikâs opened. Their voices filtered through wood as I tiptoed to my bed and climbed in, my head spinning from the events of the past hour.
I only had to listen to the frantic beats of my heart to know the answer.