Volume 3, Chapter 6: Destination of the Virtuous One â Part?3
Hamyuts picked up her sling. Holding Shlamuffen in her mouth, she stood up. She looked up the path Mokkania used to leave and leaped ahead â but didnât jump high enough. Hamyuts fell down and hit the floor. The wounds in her thinking process were deep.
Yet she didnât stop. She rose and jumped again. She gripped the ceiling using her right arm and both legs to climb up. She understood her opponentsâ location using her Sensory Threads.
Iâll punch out Mokkaniaâs skull with one blow. That would probably satisfy him.
âWait for me, Mokkania. Iâm coming.â
Hamyuts started walking, blood dripping from her entire body.
âDonât you hate me?â
Mokkania asked.
âWhat is there to hate about you?â
Renas stroked Mokkaniaâs body.
âHow horrible, youâre so tattered. You fought for my sake and became like this, and yet you say I hate you?â
Renas started smiling. But Mokkania thought to himself â did I really fight for her sake?
No. If he truly was acting for her, he would have told her the truth without betraying the Armed Librarians. Since he didnât, it was for his own sake. It was to retrieve his lost days, for his own desire.
âYouâre wrong, mom.â
âAbout what?â
ââ¦I didnât do it for you, mom. In the end everything is for me. I fought for my own selfishness.â
Renas gently extended her hand to Mokkaniaâs cheek that was wet from blood and tears and stroked it.
âEven so, I donât mind. You love me, donât you? If you do, itâs fine.â
Renas kept smiling while shedding tears.
âBut, Mokkania. What do you think we should do? I canât be anyone other than Renas Fleur. Even now when I know itâs a lie, I have nothing else.â
ââ¦Mom.â
Renas leaned on Mokkania.
âSay it, Mokkania. Call me your mother. I have nothing else.â
Winkeny once said that if Renas knew the truth, she would come to hate Mokkania. His prediction was wrong. The despair she was thrown into was far deeper than either Mokkania or Winkeny imagined.
Even if she knew it was a lie, her despair was deep to the extent she could do nothing else but cling to him.
While walking and holding Shlamuffen in her mouth, Hamyuts ordered it to attack.
The invisible blade cut through the nearby wall. It wasnât an attack â but a declaration of war. It was a single blow letting Mokkania know the battle wasnât over.
Thinking calmly about it, she was at a disadvantage. This wasnât her usual tactic of a surprise attack. But right now, she was anything but calm.
She trembled in joy thinking about their struggle to kill each other which will now resume.
Mokkania felt a vibration while holding Renasâs body.
âSo youâre alive⦠Hamyuts.â
Rather than fear, he somehow felt relieved. For some reason, he felt relief at finding out his superior â the one he could never cooperate with, the one he grew to hate, the one he battled to death with â was still alive.
Hamyuts came to kill him. She would probably also kill Renas who was in his arms.
He will die along with his mother. Thinking about it, this was the exact conclusion he hoped for.
ââ¦â
Mokkania suddenly recalled the past.
Why did he want to flee from the present and return to that day?
His father who abused his mother, the old friend who bullied him, the fight against Guinbex⦠And finally, his escape to the past.
Right. Mokkania both hated and feared the fact that the strong could trample upon the weak at their mercy. It was an important thing his mother taught him.
He felt his motherâs body within his arms. She was cold and trembling.
âWhatâ¦â
What a stupid thing Iâve been doing. Once again I only did as I pleased. I was going to repeat my mistakes.
I shouldnât have thought about having us both die.
âMom.â
Mokkania said.
âIâm sorry.â
And he strongly embraced her.
Hamyuts stopped in her tracks. She felt with her Sensory Threads that Mokkania rose up and started heading in her direction.
He wasnât producing ants from his body. Hamyutsâs excitement completely chilled down at seeing Mokkania walking defenselessly. She could see that he longer had any intention of fighting.
âWhat.â
Hamyuts sighed. Mokkania approached the spot where he became visible.
âAre we already done?â
Mokkania nodded.
âI see.â
Hamyuts replied in a terribly pained voice.
The conversation was over with that. For a while, the two merely locked gazes.
âHey, didnât you want to die along with her?â
Hamyuts said.
âIâm going to kill you, but Iâll allow you to choose how I do that.â
ââ¦â
âReturn to that room and die with her. I donât mind granting you that much. Since youâre not going to fight anymore, I donât mind allowing you your desires.â
Mokkania shook his head.
âNo, I will die here.â
ââ¦Is that your wish?â
âYes.â
âLiar.â
Hamyuts said. There was no reply.
âPlease, Hamyuts. Let her live.â
Hamyuts instinctively sighed.
âWhat a foolish man. You canât even die together with the person you love?â
Mokkania cast down his gaze.
âIf you wish so, go ahead. You can do that. You want that, right, Mokkania?â
Mokkania answered her words without hesitating.
âI canât do such a thing. I canât just kill people as I please.â
âA fool to the very end.â
Hamyuts sighed. Then, Mokkania created his ants.
âI was attempting a foolish thing. Iâm really glad I was able to give it up.â
The ants climbed on Mokkaniaâs body. And they started gnawing at him.
âHamyuts. Donât let her die. She is a person who should not be killed.â
ââ¦Are those your final words?â
Mokkaniaâs body was blanketed by ants.
âThat, and tell everyone Iâm sorry.â
Leaving behind his final words, he collapsed. After a moment, the ants disappeared. Not even a droplet of blood was left behind.
If he was just a bit more evil, he would have died together with Renas inside their happy times. Mokkania wanted that but was unable to fulfill it â it couldnât be helped, because he was virtuous after all.
It was the foolish death of the person who couldnât kill a single woman even though he possessed the power of the worldâs strongest.
âMokkania. You shouldnât have become an Armed Librarian.â
Hamyuts left these words and went away.
âA telegram from the Director!â
Mirepoc cried.
âItâs our win. Open the seal and all barriers at once. Hamyutsâ
Mattalast went to open the barrier. And he made a small sigh.
âSo you lived through again, Hammy.â
He muttered.
Having sent the telegram, Hamyuts sat down on the floor. She was bleeding too much. Her pain, that was numbed by excitement, now returned to her.
She leaned on the wall and breathed. She could sense the actions Mattalast took outside the Labyrinth.
At that moment, she noticed that Winkeny came into the room and transformed into petroleum.
âOh, youâre still here?â
Hamyuts called to him.
ââ¦Before I die, I have one question for you.â
Winkeny said, still in the form of petroleum.
âHow was Mokkania?â
âHe looked happy.â
âI see.â
The pool of petroleum shook. While he was in that form, she couldnât guess how he felt.
âIs that all you came to ask me?â
âYes.â
Winkeny tried leaving the telegraph room. He would probably be killed by a Guardian Beast or some Armed Librarian. He had no way to survive.
âHey, I also have something to ask you.â
âWhat?â
The petroleum stopped.
âWhy did you prepare a real impostor? Couldnât you think of a better idea even with such a dangerous method?â
ââ¦â
âFor example, you could have caused Renas to join the Cult and let her persuade him to betray us.â
Winkeny stayed silent. It was impossible to know what he was thinking about.
ââ¦I wonder why. Now that I think about it, I donât know.â
That might be because⦠Hamyuts thought.
âItâs just that, when I brought Renas to visit Mokkaniaâs room⦠when he saw her, he looked so happyâ¦â
Winkeny couldnât continue talking there. After a while of silence, he kept talking with some difficulty.
âI felt very happy. Perhaps itâs because of that.â
ââ¦I see.â
Hamyuts took a matchstick from next to the heater.
âI lived so I could manipulate Mokkania. In a sense, I was living for Mokkania.â
Hamyuts rubbed the match, and threw it when she saw it lit up.
âI might have simply wanted to make Mokkania happy.â
Winkeny was ignited by the match. Without leaving any ashes behind, he turned into smoke and disappeared.
âWell then.â
Hamyuts rose up and left the telegraph room.
She found Renas standing still in the Labyrinth. There was no longer any one to protect her. Hamyuts walked closer.
âHello, Iâm the Acting Director, Hamyuts. I will ask you to promptly accompany me as it is very dangerous around here.â
âHamyuts-san⦠so you were a woman.â
Renas quietly muttered. Hamyuts judged from her facial expression that she might burst in tears if told careless words.
She couldnât guess Renasâs feelings. How will she, who lost Mokkania and had no-one else to rely on, keep living from now?
Letting her die with Mokkania would be bad, but letting her live would also be.
ââ¦â
It would possibly be an act of kindness to let her die here.
âWhy are you silent? Let us go outside.â
Her hand that was about to reach a gravel bullet stopped. Hamyuts smiled bitterly at her foolish thoughts.
âThatâs rightâ¦â
She reached out for Renas.
âDo you need a hand?â
Renas shook her head to the side. Searching on the floor, she picked up her cane.
âNo. Iâll walk alone.â
She rose up, squeezing the cane with her thin fingers. She then started walking.
There was a Book fragment in Renasâs breast pocket. It was the Book of the real Renas Fleur that Mokkania tried keeping away from her. Renas probed her pocket and touched that Book once more.
Engraved inside were the Renas and young Mokkania of days past.
It was a sunny day in a road lined with poplar trees. Mokkania was in a good mood, and Renas was a bit tired.
âWait!â
She pulled at Mokkaniaâs hand. The boy was surprised and looked at his motherâs face.
âLook here.â
She pointed at the ground. There was a line of small ants there.
âYou mustnât step on them.â
ââ¦Okay.â
Mokkania nodded, and then used his small legs to leap over the line of ants.
âHey, Mokkania. When youâre grown up, remember what Iâve told you.â
ââ¦?â
âNever oppress those weaker than yourself. Make a promise with me.â
The young Mokkania didnât really understand what his mother was saying. Yet Renas continued. Even if he couldnât understand her now, she believed that he would recall this day when he was older.
âThe small and the weak are all the same. These ants, you, and me, are all the same.â
Renas turned around and gazed down at the line of ants.
âBecause weâre alive, weâre all the same. Never forget this.â
At that time she was already sick. It was a short while before the real Renas had died.
The fake Renas was thinking as she walked through the Labyrinth. Mokkania protected these words until the very end.
âNever oppress those who are weaker than yourselfâ.
Perhaps I was happy⦠after all, despite being an empty doll, I was able to obtain a son who thought of his mother.