Fated To The Alpha by Jessica Hall Chapter 141 Sage POV His hands were gentle as he removed my shirt, he then pulled me to him before moving my hair aside and unclipping my bra and sliding it down my arms before dumping it on the floor. His hands run up my arms stopping at my shoulders and I shiver. My nipples hardened from the cold or maybe it was the shock that made me feel cold, yet his hands were warm but also never lingered on my skin too long.
â Sage?â I look at him and he stares back at me as I try to decipher the look he is giving me.
âHe wants permission? â Sierra says, making my brows furrow.
âPermission for what?â I ask worriedly, he wouldnât try to mate me?
âNo to shower with you, he isnât sure whether you want him to stay or notâ Sierra answers and I could hear Donnie talking to her, she had grown quite attached to his wolf and Andrei never stopped his wolf from talking to her, even though it bugged me at first with how trusting my wolf is of them.
âCan I take these off?â Andrei asks, snapping me out of my head to see his hands on my hips. I suddenly felt awkward.
âWill you take yours off?â I ask him, not wanting to be the only one naked and baring all. I have always been body conscious, how could I not be when the majority of my body was covered in scars, especially my thighs and my womanhood. They made sure to mutilate me, it is amazing what wolfsbane can do to a werewolves body before they have shifted. The burns on my thighs were horrendous and without a wolf at the time I was never able to heal them.
Wolfsbane was like acid to werewolves and the plant in liquid form had the ability to melt flesh.
The plant itself was a purple flowering plant and just touching it caused pain and they used to love running the weed across my skin when I wouldnât submit to them, wolfsbane had the ability to make you surrender your soul if needed, nothing burns like wolfsbane. I donât even think fire itself would hurt as much as that stuff does, fire burns quickly. That plant is like burning to death by smoldering, cooking your flesh slowly at a blistering heat that moves slowly through your system making sure to burn every cell and nerve.
âNot if you donât want me to, I can leave mine onâ He says but I shake my head. I knew he would never hurt me, I truly believed that now. He has had multiple opportunities especially while I am sleeping but he never touched me inappropriately. Yet he still didnât move to remove my pants yet I couldnât bring myself to remove them and have him gawking at what they did to me so instead I reach for his belt and he grips my hands making me look at him.
âI can leave them on, â He says.
âI donât want to be the only one nakedâ I tell him and his brows lift but he lets my hands go letting me undo his pants. I pull his belt off before undoing the button on his jeans yet my hands shake terribly and eventually he undoes them, letting them fall to the floor before gripping my chin and tilting my face up.
âWe donât have to do anything, Sage, I would never force you to do anything you donât want to doâ Andrei says and I nod before chewing my lip. He had seen the top half of me but the bottom half was a thing of nightmares.
Would he be disgusted that I was used goods, mutilated? Would it disappoint him that I am actually useless as a woman, they made sure I could never have children and was just an object to torture and use as they pleased.
Would he reject me when he sees the scars between my h!ps, the scars and burns on my thighs and private area. I canât give him an heir, and all Alphaâs need heirs and I was broken and of no use to him.
âWhatâs wrong, I can goâ Andrei says when I still donât move.
âHe wonât care, Sage,â Sierra says.
âDid you tell Donnie?â I ask her and she shakes her head and I knew she feared the same thing.
âWell if he rejects us he will probably let us go so it wonât matterâ Sierra says sadly not wanting to leave but she knew that wasnât up to us once he realizes we canât even perform what we are made for.
I swallowed down the lump forming in my throat. I suddenly didnât want to leave either, the thought even occurred to me earlier when I thought he had some random rogue in the basement. I never thought once how I would get out but how I would get them out, I had no intention of leaving this place yet now he may suddenly get rid of me when he knows.
Andrei reaches for my pants undoing the button before stopping and I stand letting him undo them. My heart rate skips a beat as I watch him kneel before tugging them down. I clench my eyes shut not wanting to see the disgust on his face. I hear his breath hitch as he makes a strangled noise before he growls. I flinched knowing I was about to receive his wrath.
Andrei grips my hips holding me still before pressing his lips to my stomach. I look down at him and he moves his nose across my skin, stopping where my ovaries are meant to be another reason I wonât allow him to mark me. Sierra thinks going into heat would be horrific since I canât bear children, yet the wolf part of me would be demanding I mate even though it would be pointless.
His hands move down the outside of my thighs moving over the rough flesh that is marred from the wolfsbane, âDo the scars still hurt, I mean do you have nerve damage?â He asks, making me look at him.
âPardon?â I ask, wondering if I heard him right and he looks down at my legs and I look away when he looks directly at my womanhood. I hated seeing what they did.
â I mean am I hurting you if I touch you?â He asks.
âNo, my skin doesnât have much feeling, not the front anywayâ I tell him looking at him. I still had feeling at the back of my thighs but minimal at the front the scar tissue was that thick in some places.
âWhat about?â He didnât finish but I knew he was asking if I had feeling between my legs.
âYes I still have feeling unfortunatelyâ I tell him and he looks up at me.
âThatâs a good thing Sageâ Andrei says and I shake my head.
âThey have shown you only pain, I can show something else â He says standing up, I look at him confused. âI can show you pleasure â He whispers, pulling me in the shower with him.
Somehow I doubted that, I couldnât see any way sex could be pleasureable when I had only felt pain associated with it. But most of all I was shocked he would even want to touch me.
âYouâre not disgusted?â
âWhy would I be, everyone has scarsâ
âYou know I canât have kids?â I ask him and his eyes darken but he nods. I knew thatâs why he was sniffing my skin to see if I was still fertile.
âI donât care, you are still mineâ He says, pulling me against him. I rest my head on his chest before feeling him run the soap across my skin.
âTomorrow you start training, I want you to trainâ Andrei says and I look up at him.
âI can go outside?â I ask him and he nods brushing my hair from my face that was sticking to me.
âI already made that mistake by leaving the women in my pack defenceless, I wonât make the same mistake againâ He says pressing his lips to my temple.
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