Ivy's POV
I left the room with the intention of clearing my head and going to sleep when I achieved that. Dave just had to burst my bubble of peace and quiet.
I sighed and decided it was time to sleep.
I went back to the room. The door was slightly open, I had forgotten to shut to completely on my way out. I pushed it open and stopped when I heard Dave laughing.
"Thanks Leslie" my breathing stopped when I heard him say that.
He paused before he said
"Love you too"
I covered my mouth with my hand preventing a sob from escaping.
I turned back as quietly as I could, going through the living room, I slid the door and ran down the porch. Barefoot, my leg sunk slightly into the sand as I ran away from the house towards the shore.
All along I held it back. But once I reached the shore, I dropped to the ground and cried. Letting it all out.
I cried for losing the CEO position.
I cried for ever loving Dave.
I cired for thinking being married to him would change anything.
I cired for myself. For the pain I felt in my heart.
I cired for ever letting all of this change me.
I was suppose to do things for the benefit of everyone, including me. But I was so caught up in the things Dave had done to me, I became so selfish and started to think about myself only.
The plan of ignoring Dave, how long would I keep on ignoring him?
I'm soo sorry.
God, forgive for ever thinking this way.
I'm soo sorry.
I fell side ways into the sand, my sobs reducing. I curled up into a ball, my hands supporting my head.
If Dave still wanted to be with Leslie. I wouldn't want to be the one stopping them from being together.
I've had enough suffering and heart ache for one lifetime. I wouldn't be able to handle it if karma got me for messing with fate.
You never know if Leslie and Dave are destined to be together. I'm probably just the one in their way.
I sighed, my eyes drooping close.
I'm through.
I thought I could find a way out of all of this. But I guess, this is what I was destined to go through. What I was destined to be.
The wife of a man who loved someone else.
Why did I have to be caught up in a love triangle?
I'm not gonna let all this change me. I'm gonna life my life like all this never happened.
Like dad never said I'd become CEO after I graduated.
Like I never loved Dave.
Like I was never friends with Leslie.
Like Dave never hurt me...a lot.
I'm gonna be a brand new Ivy.
Ivy who's never loved.
Ivy who's married to someone she's never met before - an arranged marriage.
Ivy who just works in her dad's, I mean Dave's - her husband's company.
Ivy who's aim is to live life to the fullest.
Ivy who's never gonna fall in love cause of what the former Ivy went through.
Ivy who's gonna lock away former Ivy's memory.
I never said it was gonna be easy.
Change isn't.
But I'll try as hard as I can. I need to change for myself. I don't want to become evil and be full of hate cause of what I've gone through.
So let's just say I've forgiven, and I've forgotten temporarily.
I hope to wake up with a clean slate.
I remembered the promise I made
"Believe me, Dave. You'll be one lucky sonofa if you see me once after our marriage. I'll be out of you hair, your sight and your reach.
That's my promise to you."
I'm afraid I won't be able to keep that.
Not because I'm weak but cause I'm stronger now.
I see what's right and what's wrong...and what I've been planning on doing just seems totally wrong. Not for him but for me.
This isn't the Ivy my parents taught me to be. I'm loosing sight of who I want to be and letting the situation cloud my good judgement.
No!
It can't go on anymore.
A clean slate.
A brand new life without repeating any mistakes.
My greatest mistake being falling in love.
I slept off along my line of thought.
Peace at last.
Dave's POV
I have to speak to her.
I went out of the room
"Ivy?" I called as I entered the kitchen
This house was small, I could see the living room and dining from where I stood.
Where the heck has she gone?
I saw that the glass door in the living room was open.
Oh shit!
At this time.
I ran out of the house. The moon was bright enough for me to make out foot steps on the left side of the house.
I followed the trail and a two minutes later, I saw Ivy on the ground, a few feets away from me, near the shore.
I ran and dropped to the ground beside her.
"Ivy?" I brushed her hair away from her face.
She appeared to be asleep.
What the heck Ivy?
I picked her up bridal style and walked back to the house.
"Why did you call her?" I heard her mutter groggily
She heard?
Damn it!
Explains why she was here.
I entered the living room using my leg to slide the door shut. I walked to the bedroom and placed her on the bed. Pulling the comforter from underneath her legs, I covered her and went to the other side. I slipped my unbuttoned shirt off and got into bed with her.
I pulled her into me. She snuggled till she was comfortable. Then she sighed.
It was a sigh of contentment, and I was happy to be the one to provide it.
It made me smile.
Her front was to my side. Her head on my chest, her left arm over me. My arm left underneath her, going around her waist.
I placed my right arm on her hair and ran it down. I continued it cause somehow, I found it relaxing.
I'm sorry Ivy.
I'm soo sorry for everything.
I should have come up and spoken to you in High School but there was never a right time.
I liked you then and now?
Soo much more.
If this isn't love, then I don't know what is.
I love you Ivy.
More than I can imagine.
I snorted.
Things I'm suppose to tell her. I keep saying in my head.
I'm meant to tell her all these things.
Tomorrow.
I'll sit her down and explain everything to her.
I want us to be together not cause of the arranged marriage but cause we want to be together.
I'll tell her why we married.
About the deal and everything else that's in our way.
She has to know to be able to forgive me and let it go.
I thought, sleeping off somewhere in between.
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So I've been hoping to get this book finished when the month or before the month runs out. Not sure I can make the dead line anymore, but we'll see how it goes.
This past few days haven't been easy. Been a lot busier than my normal days.
Just wanted to keep you guys happy by updating.
Enjoy guys.
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Thanks guys,
J.L.