Ivy's POV
You're not important to matter to me.
It kept ringing in my head as I drove home. The tears threatened to fall but I did everything I could to stop them from betraying me. My throat felt clogged.
I tried swallowing back the big lump in my throat but it never went away. I drove through the gates and the car screeched to a halt in front of the entrance.
I picked my bag and got out. Slamming the door and walk-running up the stairs, barging through the doors.
"Ivy?" Erin called, worried, as I made my way towards the stairs
"What's the matter?" I heard mum ask Erin as I made my way to my room.
I barged into my room and shut the door with my back against it. I was hyperventilating.
Why does this always happen to me.
I thought as I sank down on the floor, a tear slipped and I wiped it as fast as it fell.
Why do I feel this way?
I wasn't suppose to feel anything...for him or anything he said.
Why does this always happen to me?
Different thoughts ran through my mind, I didn't notice when the tears started pouring.
I was sobbing with my hand wrapped around my knees and my head buried in them.
Knock! Knock!
"Ivy?" I heard mum call
I was brought back to the present and I lifted my head trying to reduce the gentle sobs.
"Ivy!?" Mum called again
"What's wrong honey?" I heard dad ask mum behind the door
"I don't know. Erin saw her run to her room crying" mum told dad
"Munchkin" dad called as he knocked on the door
I swallowed hard trying to get my voice.
"Are you alright in there?" He asked
"I'm fine dad" I finally said trying to sound as normal as possible
"Can you open up the door please?" He asked
I wiped my tear stained face and got up from the floor. I composed myself and opened the door
"Hey dad" I said, smiling at him
He smiled back, but it looked pained
"Hi mum" I said to her
"What's wrong?" Dad asked As we all went into my room
"Nothing" I said sitting on the edge of my bed "Just had a bad day"
"This doesn't have anything to do with a certain Dave Connor?" He asked
I snapped my face back to him
"No. Why would you think that?" I said a little too quickly
Dad and mum shared a look and they both looked back at me
"What did he do?" Mum asked
"Mum it's fine" I said "I'm an adult. I can handle it"
"You may be an adult but you'll always be our little munchkin" dad said
I smiled at him, sighing
"It doesn't matter what he said" I said "He doesn't matter"
But he did matter.
He has always mattered.
But it's doesn't matter that he matters.
I'll do everything in my power to make him not matter anymore.
"Okay honey" mum said "When you want to talk, we'll be here, okay?" She said
I nodded
"Thanks mum" I said as she hugged me
"Take care munchkin" dad said, kissing my forehead
I smiled and watched them leave my room.
You're not important to matter to me.
Ughhh!
Get out of my head.
I picked up my phone and called grandma
"Hey sweetie. I was wondering when you were gonna pick up your phone and call" she said
I smiled
"Hi grams" I said
Silence.
"What's wrong sweetie?" She asked
Grams had a way of knowing how I was feeling. She knew I had about Dave and my high school crush on him. She was easier to confide in. She never criticized what I did. She only advised me and told me 'Everything was gonna be fine'.
I sighed.
"He says 'I'm not important to matter to him'" I choked out
"He's a wuss" she said, which made me laugh "He is. For not being a man and coming clean with you"
"Coming clean about what grams?" I asked "He's made it pretty clear that he doesn't feel anything for me. I don't matter to him"
I heard her sigh
"Kids of nowadays" she muttered to herself, but I heard "Sweetie, all I'm gonna tell you is, what we say isn't always what we feel. You might say you're okay, but inside you're a tornado. So don't believe everything you hear." She said
I was trying to understand what she meant. It was pretty clear but grams had a way of going deeper. There's always a message below the surface.
"Thanks grams" I said "How's grandpa?"
"He's as health as a horse" she said
"Say hi to him. I miss both of you" I said
"I'll do so sweetie" she said "See you for your graduation"
"Yea grams" I said "See you"
She hung up. Leaving me alone with my thoughts and her words.
What am I going to do?
Silence.
I dialled his number.
"Ivy?" I heard his voice
"Hi" I said
"What's the matter?" He asked
"I'll tell you when I see you tomorrow" I said
"But you were suppose to go dress hunt with your mum tomorrow and come the next" he said
"Change of plans" I said "I'm coming tomorrow and 'we're' going dress hunt the next" I said
"Any valid reason for your change in plans?" He asked
"Douche" I said
I heard him sigh and mutter a series of curse words.
Luke knows about Dave. So he nicknamed him 'Douche'
"What did Douche do this time?" He asked "I swear Ivy, if he made you cry I'm gonna come over there and beat the shit out of him"
"No. He didn't" I said "I mean, I'll tell you when I see you"
"Okay" he said
"Then we're gonna go dress shopping and figure out what the 'Valedictorian's speech' is gonna be about" I said
"Hey, why do you think I'm not top of the class?" He asked
"Cause you're dumb?" I smiled
"Close" he said like he was thinlking about it, which made me laugh "Cause I don't like the whole speech thingy. Not my kinda thing"
"Jess is" I said
"Bingo!" I heard him smile
I sighed
"Take care of you for me Ivy" he said
"You too" I said "See you soon"
"See you soon love" he said, mimicking Enzo from TVD
I giggled I hung up.
Ass.
But that's why I love him.
He always had a way of making me feel better.
And I did feel better.
Now the problem was the light packing I had to do before leaving for Harvard tomorrow.
Argh!
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