Chapter 11: Chapter 11

Evan was depressed, he walked into the firm so he could start his day, but he wasn’t feeling it. It hurt to think about Drew all the way in New York and him here, but that wasn’t the only thing that had him depressed, he wanted to see Andrew, he knew the older man was back at the apartment thanks to David who had texted him, letting he know that Andrew had gotten there yesterday, what are the odds of Evan leaving a few hours before Andrew had gotten there, it was like it wasn’t in their destiny to be together. He knew he had to be strong, since Andrew was there but he hadn’t ask for Evan, if he did Drew would’ve already call Evan to let him know. The only explanation was that Andrew didn’t want him, that almost made him cry, but he held the tears in, he wasn’t about to cry in an office full of people.

So he need it to sack up and be a man. Even if inside he was a broken man, no one needed to know that.

David had also asked Evan if it was ok with him if he asked Drew out, the idea of his ex-boyfriend and his best friend getting it on was a bit disturbing but he also knew Drew wasn’t gay it wasn’t alarming, the worst that would happen would be, Drew punches David and his ex would be sporting a nice black eye, so he gave David the green light.

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Andrew was quiet as he thought of ways to get Evan back; honestly he wasn’t the most romantic man out there. Hell on his last few anniversaries with his ex, he had gotten her socks, a teaser gun oh and his best yet a cooking book. Yeah not romantic at all, but he had to think of something.

This was Evan and he wanted him back, he wanted their relationship to be full of romanticism so they could show all their love for each other, that is if Evan even loves him the way Andrew loves him.

He sighs as he spots the blinking light, alerting him to buckle your seat belts as they were getting ready to land.

His nerves went up as the plane started to slow down more and more.

Should I get him flowers? Chocolates? A ring? Shit what the hell do I get him? A shirt? A cell phone? A new car?  I’m helpless, Andrew sighs as he thinks that, he was helpless, why the hell didn’t he bring Drew with him? His son would’ve known what to get Evan.

As he walks out of the plane into the busy airport, he took out his cellphone with his free hand and clutches his overnight bag with the other.

It rang three times before an annoyed Drew answers. ‘’My god old man, did you fucked up again?’’ His son never to sugar coat things went straight to the negative shit.

‘’No dumb ass, I just landed I kind of need your help.’’ He grumbles as he silently hails a cab outside the airport.

‘’Oh? And what would that be daddy dearest?’’ Damn has Drew always been this sarcastic? Andrew thought, ‘’I don’t know how to get him back, should I get him something? And if I should what can I get him?’’ He hated asking his son for help, but Drew knew Evan better than anyone.

‘’don’t get him anything,’’ Drew snorts, ‘’god damn it David, put on some fucking clothes man, no one wants to see what you’re lacking.’’ Drew snaps and Andrew rolled his eyes, his son was more agitated lately and Andrew knew it was due to David always fucking with him, in a way it was amusing seeing Drew in that position.

‘’Drew, ignore him and help me!’’ Andrew chirps as he tells the cab driver to take him to a hotel.

‘’Who you talking to sunshine, are you cheating on me?’’ Andrew snorts when he hears David, judging by how clear Andrew could hear David, he was willing to bet that David was sitting really close to Drew.

‘’David fuck off man, have you ever heard of personal space?’’ Drew bit off angrily.

‘’Ok, now that we have a few seconds with that pest out of my way, don’t get him anything, just go up to him and apologized, than get on your knees and grovel man, fuck pride, throw your dignity away and if you can shed a few tears for the effect, Evan is a sucker for sappy moments.’’ Drew advices him and Andrew found himself nodding in agreement.

‘’And if you feel it, tell him you love him.’’ Drew adds as he sighs in exasperation.

‘’David, wearing a fucking towel is not wearing clothes, fucking take it off!’’ Drew growls pissed off.

‘’Fucking hell man, I didn’t mean, you take it off in front of me!’’ Andrew furrows his eyebrows, as he listens to his son’s rants.

‘’Well make up your fucking mind, either you want me to wear the towel, or you want it off.’’ Andrew could hear the amusement in David’s voice.

‘’I hate you so fucking much, that I want to chop you into little pieces and feed them to the dogs, the only thing that’s stopping me is that I don’t want any dogs eating trash.’’ Drew had a very vivid imagination; Andrew had to give him that.

Andrew wonders if his son forgotten he was on the phone, so with a sigh he continues to hear his son as he tells David what else he wanted to do to him. It went on for a few more minutes and then everything went quiet.

‘’Hello?’’ David’s voice came on the line.

‘’David tell me, why are you antagonizing my son, and where is he?’’ Andrew questions Evan’s ex.

‘’Because I like him, and I think he forgot he was on the phone with you, he threw it at me and stomp into his room he looked pretty angry, you want me to go get him?’’ Andrew thought about it, he wanted to get more ideas from his son, but he knew it would be a fail attempt since once David walks in his room the fighting would once again start between him and David.

‘’No, you don’t have to, just please slow down on the teasing, Drew is not gay so he might actually go through with his ideas and make you disappear, not that I really care since I don’t like you but I have a feeling Evan would miss you.’’ Andrew drawls as he gets out of the cab and pays the driver.

‘’You know they say there’s a thin line between love and hate, besides you used to be marry to a woman, maybe Drew has a little gay in him just like you, you know like father like son and shit.’’ David explains and Andrew just sighs.

‘’Ok, just don’t say I didn’t warned when he kills you.’’ Andrew pipes a bit frustrated.

‘’It’s ok sir, I’m thinking by the end of summer, Drew might just give in and let me rock his world.’’ David said with confidence.

‘’You just focus on getting Evan back, the boy needs to be happy, he deserves it after all the shit he’s been through.’’ Andrew murmurs his ok and said bye to Drew’s pain in the ass.

He go a room and went to it, he was going to sleep in and in the morning he was going to go up to Evan and Plead for forgiveness.

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Evan sighs as he goes into work the next morning, he was finding it hard to make it in, he so wanted to go back to New York, he wanted to be around Drew, and if Andrew happen to be there than that was just fine with him.

He went through half of the day doing his job, with a blank face, the people around him never bother him, he was a shy and quiet man so he was thankful that people was leaving him alone.

At lunch time he went out of the building so that he could go to a fast food place, when he exited the building, he froze, he wasn’t sure if this was all a dream, did his mind conjure Andrew?

He took a step back, he pinch himself to make sure he wasn’t dreaming, and there he was the older man, leaning against a car, wearing jeans with a blue shirt, and his boots, looking sexy. Andrew seemed unsure, nervous even, he wasn’t even smiling in a happy way, and he only had a grim smile playing on his lips, what was he doing here? Evan didn’t want to have hope; maybe he came to tell him he loves him and wants him back? No that couldn’t be it; it had to be another reason as to why Andrew was here, standing in front of him.

‘’Hi Evan, can we talk?’’ Andrew asks, he looked into Evan’s eyes, he pleaded with his eyes and Evan found his throat dry.

‘’Andrew what are you doing here? I didn’t think there was anything to talk about.’’ Evan finally manages to speak, he mentally slaps himself at how small he sounded, he wanted to sound confident but when he was around Andrew he became pathetic and with low self-esteem.

‘’I beg to differ, Evan we have a lot to talk about, could we please go somewhere else so that we can talk?’’ Andrew begs with urgency.

‘’Sure, let’s go to the coffee place across the street.’’ Evan agreed as he started to walk towards it, he heard footsteps behind him and he knew Andrew was following him.

Evan tried to hide how nervous he was, he didn’t want to spark any hope thinking Andrew was here to beg him to come back to him, he refused to think that way.

They sat down after the order a coffee, they were silent for a few minutes, Evan avoided Andrew’s gaze, in fear that the older man could see how scared he was of getting rejected. If he rejects me, this would be it, this would be the last blow and it would kill me.

Andrew clears his throat, as he thinks of ways of putting everything he feels on the table, at the end he decided to tell him everything, even tell him that he had fallen in love with him since the day they went to lunch together and he posed as Evan’s boyfriend.

‘’Evan, I’m sorry for what I had put you through, I hate myself for hurting you and if you let me, I could spend the rest of my life making it up to you.’’ Evan snaps his head to face Andrew as he heard that. Does that mean what I think it means?

‘’What do you mean?’’ Evan voices his confusion.

‘’I mean, that I was stupid, I thought that if we kept our relationship in secret the day we landed for your mother’s funeral, that I could protect you that way, I didn’t want you to get shit from my ex and your father, I didn’t want them to hurt you more than what you were already hurting, now I see that was a mistake, I tried to protect you and I ended up hurting you the most.’’ Andrew spoke softly; he was ashamed of his behavior.

‘’Is not like we talked about us before we got there, if we had a relationship or not so I don’t really blame you.’’ Evan shrugs his shoulders as if that didn’t hurt him.

‘’In my head you were mine and I was yours, there was no need for words, but now I’m here to make everything clear.’’ Evan nods as he listens to Andrew.

‘’What took you so long to do this? Were you confused?’’ Evan’s biggest fear was that Andrew had changed his mind and had gone back to woman, which would crush him.

‘’I took long because, I wanted to come find you as a free man, divorced which I’m now, she signed the papers and it just became final a few days ago, Evan I want you back, I don’t want to live a life without you in it, I’m here to grovel at your feet, plead to you to take me back.’’ Evan’s heart flutters a little at Andrew’s confession.

But he was still scared, what if Andrew one day wakes up and decides he wants a woman, Evan was afraid of the damage it would cause him if that happen, if he was in pain with this after only a few days together, what would happen if in a couple of years Andrew dumps him? The pain would be ten times worst, unbearable even. He didn’t want the hurt, but he was hurting right now, so he didn’t know what the difference would be.

‘’What if you wake up a year from today and decide, you’re not gay after all?’’ Evan whispers his question.

‘’And what if you wake up one day and decide you want a younger man? What if I die of a heart attack tomorrow, or get hit by a car? Evan all those are very valid fears, but we can’t live in fear, all we can do is live life, and make each other happy, enjoy our lives together, because Evan I need you in my life and I would do anything to have you with me, hell I can get on my knees and beg you to take me back if you want to.’’ Evan blushed at Andrew’s words.

‘’Evan, I l-I love you and I had since the day I pretended to be your boyfriend, so please give me a chance, give me a chance to make you fall in love with me.’’ Evan had tears in his eyes, there it was, the words he had been dying to hear, and they were coming out of Andrew’s lips.

‘’No.’’ Evan shook his head no with a sad smile and tears pooling out of his eyes, Andrew’s shoulders slumped in defeat as he looks down at the table.

Evan stood up and walked slowly to Andrew, he stood right in front of the older man and with the tip of his finger, he lifted Andrew’s face by his chin, Andrew had a defeated look on his face and Evan could tell he was fighting the tears.

‘’No, you don’t have to make me fall in love with you, because Andrew I’m already there since the same day you pretended to be my boyfriend, Andrew I love you too.’’ Evan coos with a soft smile on his lips, as he leans in and connects them with Andrew.

After they disconnect their lips in need of air, Andrew sighs as he stands up and wraps Evan in his arms.

‘’You scared me there for a minute, I thought you were rejecting me.’’ Andrew chuckles, he was happy, he had Evan back and he was going to do anything possible to keep him there.

‘’I don’t think I could ever do that, I feel like I can’t breathe without you, I need you so that I can feel alive, it’s scary how much I have become to be depended on you so much.’’ Andrew understood that, he was also fucking terrified; he’s never felt anything like this before with anyone, hell not even with his ex-wife. Is this real love, the -I would kill for you kind of love-?

And as he stares into Evan’s beautiful eyes, he knew the answer, hell yeah this is the real thing and he promised never to let Evan go.

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Drew stare into space, he was drinking a coffee while sitting on a bench park, he didn’t want to go home, he knew David was there, ok if he’s being honest here, he so wanted to go but it terrified him as how much he wanted to see David. How in the hell did this happen? David somehow manages to be in Drew’s head and he didn’t like that, he didn’t have anything against gays, but he had everything against love and relationships, he avoided them like the plague. Since when do I think of his and David’s thing as love?

All this time he had managed the art of hit it and leave it theory, and for David of all people to break Drew’s protective walls little by little was seriously fucking with his head.

And if the whole David wasn’t troubling him enough, he hadn’t heard from his old man or Evan, he wonders what was going on, did they make up? Did they talk? Did his father apologize for being a douche bag?

His phone chirps and he took it out of his pocket, he sighs as David’s name pops on the screen, Drew had snapped at him the first time he had called him, he questioned the annoying twat, about how he had gotten his number, the fucker had just smirked and said, I know people.

Drew scoffs as he answers the call. He wanted to ignore him but he knew it was a waste of time, since David will just keep on calling until he answers. And if anyone asks him he would totally deny it, but for some reason he wanted to answer, to hear his voice, he scolded himself for thinking that.

‘’What do you want?’’ Drew growls into the device.

‘’Well hello to you two kitten, I’m good thanks for asking.’’ David chirps with amusement.

‘’Cut the bull shit and tell me what the hell do you want?’’ Drew bit off.

‘’Well I just wanted to ask if it was ok if I had someone over, didn’t want you come here and find him here, I know how bitchy you get sometimes, and I don’t want to be rude to my friend.’’ Drew curse in his head, he felt something deep in his gut, something he’s never felt before, jealousy.

‘’Do whatever just don’t trash my place and for fuck sakes, have some decency and do your friend in your room with the door closed.’’ Drew grumble, he was feeling sick and he hated that feeling.

‘’Thanks, I’ll even put music so that you don’t have to hear our voices.’’ David pipes and Drew could just imagine the bastard with a small teasing smile on his plump lips, lips that would look so good wrapped around his shaft, it didn’t go unnoticed to Drew how David didn’t even tried to deny what he was going to do with his ‘friend’.

He swallowed a big lump down his throat and let out a big disappointed sigh. ‘’Everything ok over there kitten?’’ David’s voice had change into a more serious tone.

‘’Yeah, why wouldn’t it be ok, I just hope that now that you have your booty call, you’ll finally leave me alone.’’ Drew wince at how cold his voice sounded, but it didn’t matter if it got David off his back.

Then why do I feel like shit? Why am I jealous? I don’t want him, right?

‘’don’t count on it kitten, remember I made a promise to make you fall in love with me, and I have never broke a promise before.’’ David drawls.

‘’You’re wasting your time with me, I only do girls and last time I check you had man organs.’’ Drew said blushing, he did check, every time David walked out of his room naked, he had peeked and he had checked the man out.

‘’I’m glad you check me out, so ok I have to go my friend just got here, so I’ll see you later.’’ David chided and ended the call, without waiting for Drew’s response. It hurt Drew at how easily David had just dismissed him for a guy.

It pains him to hear David say that he’ll make him fall in love, what for? David wanted Drew to love him and then break his heart, Drew’s worst fear. And still he couldn’t shake the jealousy he was feeling as he imagines David all over the friend.

Make up your fucking mind, you either want him to hit on you or you don’t.

You either want him for yourself, or you want him to move on with someone else.

He was so confused, did he like David?

Drew sighs and throws the empty coffee cup in the trash can; he started to walk out of the park.

He didn’t know where to go; he didn’t want to go back to the apartment so he needs to kill sometime.

He took out his cell phone and goes through the names on it.

He decided to go visit one of his booty calls himself and prove he wasn’t gay.

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‘’Hi Drew, come in.’’ The girl chirps with a big smile on her lips.

‘’Hello, Diana what are you up to?’’ Drew questions as he goes into her apartment.

‘’Drew let’s cut to the chase, you’re not here for small talk, so come on.’’ Drew always liked these kinds of girls, straight to the point, with no fuss.

They went into her bedroom and she just started to unbutton Drew’s shirt, she sensually started to lick his neck as she roamed her hands all over Drew’s chest.

Drew was having trouble concentrating in the task; he shut his eyes and saw David’s smiling face, David kissing some guy, David’s hands on someone else.

Drew groaned as his gaze drop down, he wasn’t even hard and the girl was doing her best moves.

He sighs as he takes a hold of the girl’s hands before they went inside his soft shaft.

‘’Sorry babe, I don’t think this is going to work.’’ He gave her a little smile as he apologized.

‘’I don’t understand, usually it takes little effort to get you in the mood.’’ She frowns as she studies Drew and he guess she was looking for an answer.

A loud gasp from her lips as she widens her eyes told Drew she probably did find it.

‘’Oh my god, it happened, it finally happened.’’ She stepped back and started to shake her head no, as if what she saw was unbelievable.

‘’Who is she?’’ She questions in a whisper.

‘’What are you talking about?’’ Drew frowns at her.

‘’The girl you’re in love with, who is she?’’ She asks and he felt himself blushed.

Drew didn’t know how to respond to that, if she only knew he couldn’t get it up because he was thinking of how wrong this felt, being with her, when in his mind he wanted to be with him.

Drew didn’t reply he just silently put his shirt back on and kiss her cheek; he bid her good bye and left.

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He went into his apartment and spotted David with smaller man, the guy seemed small, blond spiky hair an eyebrow ring and tight leather pants, he was wearing a shirt that looked like it belong to a drag queen and immediately Drew hated the guy.

They were both smiling at each other, as if nothing existed around them and Drew felt jealous at the intimacy they were sharing.

I’m going crazy, god damn it Drew snap out of this, he’s not yours, and he can’t be yours.

‘’Hey kitten, when did you get home?’’ David’s voice sends shivers down Drew’s spine.

‘’Just now, I thought I told you to entertain your company in your bedroom, with the door close.’’ Drew avoided looking at the happy couple, because if he did he was sure it would feel like a knife bury in his heart.

‘’He was just leaving.’’ David answers with a smug smile on his lips.

‘’Whatever, I’m going to bed.’’ He mumbles as he hurries into his room.

He need it to get a hold of his emotions and fast, this shit he was feeling needs to go away.

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‘’He looks more like a top, not a bottom.’’ The twink said to David as they both stared in Drew’s direction.

‘’I know, and that’s ok, we can always take turns.’’ David grinned at his friend; he did saw how uncomfortable Drew was avoiding eye contact, gritting his teeth when he spoke to him.

‘’You think he’ll let you top him? And you’re forgetting something, the boy has been a player in school since he started college, I mean did you not see him, he always had a different girl every day, and girls do talk, how good he is in bed, how big, David are you really sure you want to hit on him?’’ The twink said with concern.

‘’It’s too late for me to change my mind, I already fell for him and I will do anything possible to get him, the thing I had with Evan was like finding myself, with Drew I feel different, he challenges me in everything, he fights me and calls me on my bullshit and I like that, I like that we can be equals, him topping me and then me topping him, neither being the female version in the relationship, anyways thanks for coming, I really do appreciate you helping me with getting me an internship in your father’s law firm, I like to fight for gay rights, and help gay couples with anything they need.’’ David smiles at his new friend.

‘’You are welcome, dad is impressed with you, since he heard the gossip when you came out, so no biggie, please don’t get hurt trying to get with him, and I’ll see you tomorrow.’’ The twink left David.

David knew he was risking his heart by loving a straight man, yes he had heard about what a player Drew has been, the boy was busy in the school year, but David had made a promise to himself that he would make Drew fall in love with him during the summer, so that when school started again, they could be an out and happy couple.