Chapter 231 â Indescribable Love (1)
This was a city where snow fell. In December, the whole city would be covered with snow, and everywhere would appear as a clear, undulating white line; it was a pure and dazzling sight.
She liked this city and the snow that fell every winter.
The five-year-old girl was actually very smart. She learned the word âinferiority complexâ today; she felt that she was different from the other children.
Every morning, when she got up, her mother would brush her hair into a beautiful ponytail. Afterwards, her mother would take her in front of the mirror, and say with a smile, âLook, my little Lan Xin looks so beautiful with her hair tied up, just like a doll.â
The mirror reflected a little Lan Xin, her eyelashes were curly, her nose tall and her skin as white as snow. However, she already understood from the moment sheâd turned five that the little girl standing in front of the mirror wasnât beautiful; there was a large red birthmark on her face. Formerly, her mother had said that it was a rose bestowed to her by the Heavens, which represented love. However, at the age of five, she learned another word, which was âbirthmarkâ.
The red birthmark, which occupied half of her face, wasnât beautiful, but extremely ugly.
That day, she heard the children at the same table whisper, âLan Xinâs face is so ugly, she mustâve offended the Heavens and received that as a punishment.â
Little Lan Xin didnât know why her classmate had said that at the time. She just felt very angry, and she pushed the child. Consequently, the child burst into tears.
At that moment, everyoneâs gaze landed on her. Some classmates cast her a surprised look, while some looked at her with contempt.
Soon after, the childâs sister came. She was a very beautiful, tall girl wearing a pink princess dress, and a beautiful hair clip clasped on her hair. She stood in front of Lan Xin with her hands on her waist, glaring at her ferociously.
âYouâ¦Ugly Duckling, why did you push my Little Sister?â
However, Lan Xin stared blankly at her, not knowing why that Big Sister had called her an ugly duckling.
Then, suddenly, the blank Lan Xin was shoved by someone, and she hit her head on a stool. However, she didnât cry or say a word as she watched the Big Sister help her little sister up. She saw the Big Sister gently coax her little sister before fishing out a green-coloured lollipop from her pocket, opening it and putting it in her little sisterâs mouth.
Following this, Lan Xin learned the word âinferiority complexâ.
It wasnât only because of the birthmark, but also because she didnât have a sister. At that time, Lan Xin didnât know the word âonly childâ yet.
She wanted a sister, so she told her mother exactly that. However, her mother was very busy, and even when she stopped busying herself, she seldom listened to her words seriously. Her mother thought that she was just throwing a tantrum, so she simply pinched her little face before continuing with her work.
Little Lan Xin ran outside in a fit of anger and started playing with the snow. She was going to make a sister for herself.
Her sister was very tall and had a plump body. Her eyes were made of multi-coloured glass beads, and her nose was made of carrot. But, what about her lips? My Sister must have beautiful lips. Little Lan Xin suddenly recalled that her mother had a red lipstick. That colour was very beautiful, and it should fit her Sister well. But, it was also her motherâs treasured item.
Like a thief, she carefully rummaged through her motherâs things and found the red lipstick. Afterwards, she applied it on her lips in front of the mirror. The reflection in the mirror sure is ugly. But, if it were her Sister, the lipstick would surely look good on her.
Following this, she ran into the yard and tiptoed to the snowman and applied the lipstick on its face. Her Sisterâs lips were finally done.
This sister sheâd built wasnât very pretty as her nose was a bit crooked, and her mouth was also very small. But as little Lan Xin stared at the big sister sheâd made, she smiled happily.
Little Lan Xin didnât have any friends, but now she had a sister.
When her mother came back, she found Lan Xin sitting next to the snowman, chatting and playing games with it happily. At that moment, her mother had a sad expression on her face, but little Lan Xin couldnât understand that kind of emotion yet. She smiled foolishly at her mother, and loudly said, âMama, look! I have a sister now.â
When spring came, the heavy snow melted into a stream of water, flowing to an unknown distant place, and the snowman in the yard glistened in the sun as it melted.
Little Lan Xin was slightly sad when she saw that. Her sister had lost a lot of weight. Her lips had turned into a patch of red, and the carrot had fallen to the ground and rolled into the canal in the yard where it could no longer be seen.
Following this, the weather became hotter by day, and one morning when she woke up, little Lan Xinâs Sister was no longer there.
When her mother was away, little Lan Xin cried her heart out. The neighbourâs child pulled an ugly face and shouted at her at the top of her lungs, âLan Xin, youâre really stupid. You actually regarded a snowman as your sister. Look, my sister is a living person! Sheâll tell me stories, buy me delicious food, and sleep with meâ¦â
Lan Xinâs view was hazy as she stared at the tall girl in front of her and suddenly burst into tears again. Lan Xin didnât have a sister, the snowman wasnât her sisterâ¦
She wasnât happy, so her smile disappeared from her face ever since. When she went to school, she was always alone. Occasionally, sheâd stare with envy at those children who were led by their sister, hand in hand.
When she got home, she asked her mother, âWhy donât you give me a sister?â
Whenever she asked this, her motherâs eyes would well with tears, and then sheâd send Lan Xin away and quietly wipe her tears inside the room.
As Lan Xin grew older, she never mentioned this topic again, because she knew that her mother would feel bad about this. As such, she grew up in solitude.
She would always dream of a little girl who looked exactly like her. The girl in her dream would always smile gently at her, and she didnât have a birthmark on her face. She was very beautiful.
As a result, Lan Xin also followed along and smiled as she cried out, âSis, Sisâ¦â
At this moment, Lan Xin was fast asleep, and she didnât see the complicated look in her motherâs eyes.
Soon, it was summer. Lan Xin moved a small stool outside and sat quietly under the banyan tree in the yard. She listened to the joyful laughter coming from next door, and a corner of her lips curled upwards.
One day, her mother smiled and said, âLittle Lan Xin, Mama will take you to see your sister, alright? Your Sister is currently living in another cityâ¦itâs a very beautiful city!â