Iâve never been this guy before.
The one who gets clingy.
Not ever. Not even in high school.
Iâve never had a girlfriend. Never wanted one. Not that, thatâs what Maddie is, but itâs what sheâs beginning to feel like. And what shocks the shit out of me at that recognition is that I donât hate that idea. It doesnât scare me. It feels . . .
.
I didnât dwell on that realization while I drove over here last night. I just did what Iâm good at and followed my gut instinct. It hasnât steered me wrong yet.
She didnât throw me out, like I thought she might.
She didnât give me too hard of a time, like I was sure she would.
She didnât even really hesitate to lay her head against me, which made me feel a little like the grinch whose heart expanded three sizes. It may sound like a ridiculously low bar to set, but for Maddie, Iâm willing to take baby steps. Fuck . . .
need to take baby steps for myself.
. Cade is gonna kick my ass all over the ring if he finds out I was even thinking this way, with a fight less than a week away. But compared to the other thoughts I was having while Maddieâs warm body spent the night wrapped in my armsâwith her sweet scent invading my senses and her face tucked against my chestâit was a marathon of self-restraint, having her that close and wanting her that badly but not acting on it.
Not burying myself inside her and showing her how good itâll be between us.
Because whatâs hitting me like a roundhouse kick is the fact that there will be an .
I have a few more days left of . . . Pretty sure in some ways, Iâve already stepped over the line Cade draws in the sand before every fight.
Itâs never been this hard before now. Before .
When the alarm chimes at five a.m., I reach over, grab my phone from the nightstand, and turn it off, then roll back to my sunshine. She hasnât cracked open an eye, but thereâs a small smile tugging at her lips. âIâve gotta go, sunshine.â
âMmm . . . do you have to?â She nuzzles her face against me.
Okay, now I know sheâs still asleep.
I lean down and kiss her forehead, like itâs the most natural thing in the world, and feel her smile grow instead of her body recoiling. I could get used to this version of Maddie. The affectionate one. The one who doesnât pull back and shy away from me. âIâll see you at the gym tonight.â
She hums again, and the sound goes straight to my dick. âTrain hard, King.â Then with her eyes closed and a beautiful, sleepy look on her face, she pulls the blanket up to her chin, and I force myself to pick up my sweatshirt and sneakers, then head downstairs with a ridiculous smile on my face.
Cinder follows me into the living room and scratches at the front door before it opens and Brandon Dixon walks into his house.
Dixon is the center for the Philadelphia Kings, and heâs one of the best in the league. Heâs as protective as they come, on and off the field. At an easy six feet, three inches, and probably close to three hundred pounds, heâs not a small guy. Not a dumb guy either. Most men would probably find him intimidating.
Iâm not most men Iâm also not stupid enough to ignore the fact he just found me coming out of his sisterâs bedroom.
He drops his duffle bag and closes the door, never taking his eyes off me. âWhat the fuck are you doing here, Kingston?â After a quick glance at his watch, he groans, âItâs five in the fucking morning. Care to explain?â
âGreat game yesterday.â My smile vanishes, and I cringe.
Bullshitting isnât usually so hard.
He ignores my non-answer and walks into the kitchen without saying a word.
What the hell am I supposed to do? Follow him?
âYou want a cup of coffee?â he asks from the other room.
I guess that answers my question.
I step into the kitchen and shove my hands into my pockets, itchy to get the hell out of here. âNo thanks, man. Iâve got to get to training.â
âCare to tell me why youâre leaving my house at the ass crack of dawn?â He looks around me for something, then adds, âI donât see my sister.â
Yeah . . . this looks bad, and Iâm not exactly sure how to handle this situation. âSheâs still sleeping.â
âAnd you were . . . ?â He leaves off the end of the sentence, his question fully implied.
âListen, I know what this looks like, butââ
Dixon cuts me off, with a hand in the air. âMaddieâs a grown woman. I donât need to know what you guys were doing.â
Shocked, I canât help myself. âReally?â Seriously, this goes against everything Iâve ever heard about this guy.
âDo you care about my sister?â He grabs his coffee cup from the machine and downs the piping hot liquid.
âYeah. I do. But nothingâs happening.â I leave off the because thatâs between me and her.
âDonât fuck it up.â
Iâm pretty sure I look at him like heâs lost his goddamned mind. âWhatâs the catch? Everyone who knows Maddie knows how protective you are. You find me in your house, and Iâm pretty sure itâs the first time youâve ever found a guy here, and all youâre gonna say is ?â It doesnât make sense.
âMaddieâs not stupid. Hell, sheâs smarter than me and Iâm guessing you too. And she never lets anyone in. If youâre in, thereâs a reason. And if sheâs going to finally give somebody a chance, at least itâs not some weaselly little pencil dick who wonât or canât protect her when Iâm not around. You can at least keep her safe.â Dixon takes a long, slow breath, then grunts. âLooks like youâre the lesser of two evils, King.â He finishes his coffee, then puts the empty mug in the sink.
âBut like I said, donât fuck it up. My sisterâs been hurt more already than most people will hurt in a lifetime. She deserves better. Question is, are you it?â
I stare at him, wondering where the hell this conversation came from and why Dixon would ever trust me as he leaves me in the kitchen, heading for the stairs. âLock the door before you leave, Kingston.â Then heâs gone, and Iâm left standing there, trying to figure out what just happened.
My first day back in the gym sucks fucking ass.
Even just a few days off is enough to set you back. It doesnât matter what kind of condition I keep myself in year-round, I still feel the difference. And thatâs the bitch of choosing this profession. This life. But Iâve been training for it for years. Iâm not about to go soft and hand my title over to Maniac McGuire.
âYouâve got less than four days to drop fourteen pounds, King. Get in the steam room.â Cade turns to Cooper, whoâs been on my training team for the past two years, âKeep him moving.â
Coop just got here a few minutes ago and looks at me like maybe heâs rethinking helping today. But he cuts me off before I can say anything. âShut up and sit in the damn steam room, King.â
Once my sauna suit is on with duct tape closing every opening it has, Coop sits across from me, with a pissed-off look on his face.
âAre you constipated or something?â I try to joke, but he just glares.
âYou need to focus, King. Are you ready for this fight?â
âA representative from the league stopped by earlier for my drug test. Iâve gotta drop this weight, but Iâve had to drop more in less time than this. The Maniac doesnât stand a fucking chance.â I fist-bump Coop and get back into position for another round of push-ups, but he doesnât move. Doesnât even say anything. âWhat else is on your mind, Sinclair?â
âJust keep your head in the game, King.â
That pinched fucking look is still on his face. âWhat are you talking about?â
âMaddie, dickhead. Donât act stupid. I saw you Saturday night. I saw the look on your face. And Iâm not talking about the way you were looking at Spider either. Youâve got a week left. Donât split your focus now.â Not many people would have noticed that, but Coop isnât everyone else. Heâs a former Navy SEAL. This fucker was trained to notice everything.
âWhat would you have done if somebody said that about Carys?â I lob back at him.
And judging by the way his eye twitches at the mention of his wife, it hit the target. âYou canât fucking compare the two,â he snaps back at me. âI love my wife. Are you in love with Maddie?â
Well, damn.
Thatâs one way to slam me up against the cage.
Especially since Iâm not sure about the answer.
âThanks, D. Iâll see you tomorrow at ten to discuss the foundationâs push for the food drive and the new year.â I end my call with my best friend, with the meeting scheduled for her non-profitâs social-media presence and a list of research points I need to dig into later today.
Monday mornings are always housekeeping days for my business, followed by meetings in the afternoon, then a yoga class at Crucible at night. I guess Iâm a creature of habit because the routine always calms my restless mind. And Iâve spent today more on edge than usual.
Last night was so far out of my comfort zone, I should have been crawling out of my skin. I think whatâs freaking me out the most about it is .
It doesnât even make sense.
But itâs occupied all my spare thoughts, so Iâve been trying to keep myself extra busy today.
Itâs the only excuse I have for completely zoning out when my brother apparently came downstairs because when he clears his throat to let me know heâs two feet away, Iâm pretty sure I jump high enough to hit the ceiling. âWhat the heck?â I stand and throw my arms around him. âWarn a girl next time. I didnât know you were home.â
He holds me tightly to him, and the stress of the morning melts away. âMissed you, Mads.â
âI missed you too. But that was an incredible game yesterday. That block you made in the fourth quarter is why you guys won that game. I hope they realize that.â Brandon shakes his head at my excitement.
He sits down on the couch and kicks his bare feet up on the ottoman, then smirks. âSo . . . Iâm gone less than a week, and youâre having sleepovers?â
âExcuse me?â I squeak.
Brandon leans forward and waits for me to sit down. But I hold my ground, already uncomfortable with where this conversation is going. âThere was a Kingston in my kitchen when I got home this morning. Care to tell me why, ?â
âI was unaware I needed to clear my friends with you, .â I plant both hands on my hips and meet his glare, unsure if heâs angry or joking.
When his single dimple pops deep in his cheek, I know heâs not actually mad.
At least, I think heâs not.
âIâm all for you and the girls having sleepovers and pillow fights. All the pillow fights. Maybe add Chloe and Carysâs lingerie to the mix too. The more, the merrier. But I wasnât expecting to come home and see one of my team owners strolling out of your bedroom, Madison.â
âFirst, eww. Youâre disgusting. Iâve never had a pillow fight in my lifeââI grab one of the throw pillows I insisted on after he bought the worldâs most boring, masculine couch and smack him in the face with itââuntil now.â
Brandon picks the pillow up and smacks my hip with it. âDamn fucking shame too. Youâve got some hot friends, and if I block you out of the equation, thatâs basically most menâs fantasies.â
âHey,â I bristle, completely unsure of how exactly we got to this point in the conversation. âAre you saying Iâm not fantasy material? I mean I might not be a model or anything, but I donât think Iâm hard on the eyes either, you jerk.â
He yanks me down by the arm until Iâm sitting next to him on the couch. âIâm not a Lannister, Mads. Incest doesnât do it for me. And if some guy said he was saving you for spank-bank material, Iâd have to kill him.â
âWait . . .
â I scrunch up my face, utterly grossed out. âPlease freaking stop. Iâm begging you. I can handle you talking about fantasiesâto an extent. I donât want to know my friends are in your .â
But when he laughs at me, I remember how the conversation started. âStop distracting me, Brandon. Iâm a grown woman. I run a successful business, and Iâve managed to navigate life just fine, thank you very much. I donât need your permission to spend time with whomever I want. Man or woman.â That might have been more convincing if I didnât have to remind him Iâm a grown woman.
âI wasnât saying you needed to ask for permission. I was saying I was surprised to see Hudson Kingston this morning. Thatâs all. Iâm not used to guys sleeping here.â He throws his arm across the back of the couch and tugs on my hair.
âWatty crashes here all the time,â I pout.
âWattyâs crashing on the couch after too many beers. Heâs not telling me he left my baby sister sleeping in her room. Just promise me youâre being safe.â
âOh. My. God.â I hide my face in my hands, remembering ten years ago when he asked me that the first time. âAre you really giving me the birds and the bees talk . . .
?â
âMaddie . . .â He waits for me to look at him.
âNot that you deserve to hear this, but we just slept. We turned on a movie and fell asleep, fully freaking clothed, Brandon.â
âThat doesnât sound like you.â
My eyes go huge and bug the heck out of my head. âWhat?â
My brother practically stumbles over himself to fix his words. âI mean, you let him get that close? Close enough to fall asleep in your room? That doesnât sound like something youâd usually do.â
âIt doesnât, does it?â And with a deep breath, I fill him in on everything thatâs happened since last Thursday night.
The break-in.
Hudsonâs knee.
The crazy confrontation at Kingdom.
All of it.
When Iâm finished spinning the crazy week, Brandon sits back on the couch and just stares at me until I finally break under his intense scrutiny. âI knew youâd be mad I didnât tell you right away, but I wanted you focused on your game, not me. I was fine.â
And then he breaks, jumping to his feet, enraged. âYouâre not going to Crucible. You donât need that fucking job, and Cade St. James obviously canât keep you safe.â
Slowly, I stand and take his hand in mine. âIt was a break-in, Brandon. It could have happened anywhere.â
âFine. Then Iâm taking you to your class tonight, and Iâm staying until youâre done. I donât want you there alone. Get your stuff.â Brandonâs dark eyes harden.
âArenât you overreacting a bit here?â
âChop, chop, Mads. Weâre leaving in ten minutes.â He starts to walk away, and I want to scream.
âBrandon,â I call after him. âDonât you have to go to the stadium today?â
He doesnât even turn around. âNope. Bye week. Weâve got the day off. Lucky you.â
Yeah . . . lucky me.