Chapter 11: 11. Guilt

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As I knelt beside Mayura, my heart ached with a deep, gnawing sense of remorse. My eyes, filled with regret and sincerity, locked onto hers. I gently reached out, taking her hand with a tenderness that belied the storm of emotions raging within me. My fingers traced a reassuring path along her palm, a gesture of apology and hope.

"Please forgive me," I whispered, my voice trembling with raw emotion. The weight of my actions pressed heavily on my chest, each word a desperate plea for her understanding. "I was not myself tonight. Someone spiked my drink. I would never hurt you intentionally, I swear on my honor."

I drew in a shaky breath, my gaze never wavering from hers as I continued, "I know I can't undo what's been done, but I promise to make it right. I'll do anything to prove myself to you."

My words, though fervent and earnest, felt inadequate in the face of the pain I had caused. I waited in silence, my presence subdued, hoping that in this moment of vulnerability, she could see the genuine remorse in my eyes.

Mayura's response was barely audible, her voice tinged with a weariness that broke my heart. "Leave me alone, please."

Her plea was a dagger to my heart. I felt the crushing weight of her words, the sting of her rejection. I nodded slowly, my face falling as I relinquished my grip on her hand. My movements were deliberate and respectful, a silent acknowledgment of her need for space.

"I'll leave you alone for now," I murmured softly, my voice barely whispering in the dimly lit room. "But know that I'll be here, waiting for you, whenever you're ready to talk, whenever you find it in your heart to forgive me."

With a heavy heart and a soul weighed down by guilt, I rose to my feet. Each step I took felt like a step further away from the man I once was, but I knew it was necessary. I turned away from Mayura, the resolve in my heart firm despite the desolation that enveloped me.

As I walked towards the door, the weight of the evening's events bore down on me. I felt the burden of my actions, the overwhelming need to set things right, and the unwavering commitment to prove myself worthy of her trust. But for now, all I could do was give her the space she needed, hoping that one day she would find it in her heart to forgive me.

My body trembled uncontrollably, still gripped by the fear that had taken over me. When he threw me onto the bed, his eyes burning with an intensity I had never encountered before, I felt a terror so deep it seemed to paralyze me. My mind raced through the worst scenarios imaginable, each one more horrifying than the last. The thought of him forcing himself on me filled me with dread.

But then, something shifted in his gaze. For a brief moment, I saw a flicker of confusion, a glimpse of the Abhimaan I knew—the one who had married me and had not touched me on our wedding night. It was as if the man I had known was struggling to break through the storm of emotions that had overtaken him.

Yet, despite this fleeting moment of clarity, the fear I felt was overwhelming and all-consuming. It felt like I was trapped in a nightmare, unable to wake up or find a way out. When he came near me again, I instinctively flinched, unable to reconcile this man with the one I had married.

Even when he spoke softly, his words gentle and meant to comfort me, I struggled to trust them. The image of him hovering over me, his eyes wild and unfamiliar, was burned into my memory. It was a sight that overshadowed any reassurances he could offer.

I needed time to process what had happened, to understand the man before me and to regain a sense of safety. The only words I could manage were a whisper, barely audible but filled with the depth of my plea. "Leave me alone, please."

I

mustered every ounce of courage I had left and forced myself out of the bed, my body still trembling with fear and anxiety. The thought of sleeping in the same bed where Abhimaan had... I pushed that thought away, unwilling to relive the terror from just hours before.

Determined to find some semblance of comfort, I changed into a soft nightdress, hoping it would help me feel a little less vulnerable. I grabbed a blanket from the closet and spread it out on the floor, far from the bed, before lying down. The hard floor was uncomfortable, but I didn't care. I needed to feel safe, and the bed no longer felt like a refuge.

As I lay there, the hardness of the floor and the chill of the blanket seemed insignificant compared to the swirling thoughts in my mind. I couldn't stop wondering what had happened to Abhimaan, why he had acted so violently. But my mind was too exhausted to piece together the answers, and the questions only added to my turmoil.

Eventually, exhaustion took over, and I drifted into a restless sleep, my dreams haunted by the memory of Abhimaan's intense gaze.

Abhimaan stormed out of the room, his mind seething with anger and frustration. Mayura's words "Leave me alone" echoed in his mind, a constant reminder of his failure to protect her, to be the husband she deserved.

As he paced the hallway, his anger turned to rage. Who could have done this to him? Who could have spiked his drink, manipulating him into betraying Mayura's trust?

He pulled out his phone and dialed a number, his voice firm and commanding. "I want every single footage from tonight's reception sent to me. Every. Single. Footage. I don't care if it's from a phone or a security camera. "

His team responded with a swift "Yes, sir" and Abhimaan knew they would deliver. He would get to the bottom of this, no matter what it took. He would find out who was behind this and make them pay.

I stormed out of the room, my mind seething with anger and frustration. The words "Leave me alone" from Mayura echoed relentlessly in my mind, a constant reminder of my failure to protect her and be the husband she deserved.

As I paced the hallway, my initial anger swiftly turned into intense rage. Who could have done this to me ? Who had spiked my drink, manipulating me into betraying Mayura's trust?

I pulled out my phone and dialed a number, his voice sharp and commanding. "I need every piece of footage from tonight’s reception sent to me. Every single piece. I don’t care if it’s from a phone or a security camera."

My team responded promptly with a firm "Yes, sir," and I knew they would deliver. I was determined to uncover the truth and find out who was behind this betrayal. I would make them pay for what they had done.

As I reviewed the footage, my eyes scanned intently for any clues. A figure lingering around the drinks table caught my attention. My focus sharpened as I recognized the person handing him the drink.

It was Rajveer.

Third person's pov..

Abhimaan's rage flared uncontrollably. Rajveer had always tried to outsmart him, consistently failing in his attempts. He had never cared much—until now. This time, Rajveer had crossed a line by using Mayura to hurt him. "Rajveer, you’ve made a grave mistake. You’ve crossed the wrong man," Abhimaan muttered, his voice thick with menace.

With fierce determination, he rose from his seat, his movements deliberate and predatory. He was resolved to confront Rajveer and hold him accountable for his actions.

But first, he needed to check on Mayura. As he entered the room, his gaze fell on the empty bed, and a wave of dread washed over him. Where was she? Anxiety gripped him as he scanned the room.

His eyes finally landed on her. She was sleeping on the floor, curled up in a fetal position, her face pale and drawn. His heart shattered at the sight. She had chosen the cold, hard floor over the bed, unable to bear the place where he had failed her so profoundly.

Tears stung his eyes as regret and sorrow overwhelmed him. He had caused his wife to feel so unsafe and uncomfortable in her own home. His legs trembled as he approached her, moving silently and gently. He knelt beside her, his heart heavy with grief and remorse.

He longed to hold her, to comfort her, to apologize, but he knew he must not disturb her. She needed rest, and he needed to give her space. So he stayed there, kneeling beside her, his eyes fixed on her face, burdened with the knowledge of the long journey ahead to regain her trust and heal her emotional wounds.