Chapter 62: chapter 62

Kabir's POVMy heart is filled with love for Nandini..But still I thought I will do my best to make Nidhi happy and accept her slowly..but every moment I spend with her makes me feel that I am with Nandini, the way she behaves , the way she looks at me with those love filled eyes everything reminds me of Nandini..Even I mistook her for Nandini and kissed her. That was the worst thing that I have done to her..I cursed myself for behaving like a jerk..I know ,she is a self valued girl, and will  never accept what I have done to her..I felt very sorry for her that day.After giving a lot of thought I decided I will not make her suffer anymore. if she is with me her life will be hell..For me it is getting very difficult to forget Nandini.. and I don't want to ruin Nidhi's life..Every tear that comes from her eyes gives me heart break.  I don't want to ruin the life of such a wonderful girl. At the beginning I was selfish and agreed to marry her for Avani due to mom's pressure. But I can't do that anymore, she deserves to be happy  and to be loved and I can't give her that happiness and love. She deserves someone better.. I thought of explaining all the things to her coolly and on that day when I took her to the restaurant. she put her point clearly.. My heart ached when I listened to her but reacted harshly so that she could hate  me and move away from me by herself..I want her to hate me, so that she can move on with her new life easily..On the day, when Avani went missing, I was scared and rushed to the supermarket and saw the CCTV footage. I observed clearly that she was holding Avani like a precious thing in the world.I saw it was just a few seconds that Nidhi left her hand  and Avani ran towards the main door.I saw the pain she is going through on her face and she was crying as if she had lost her own child..When I received a call from Isha ,I was relaxed.. When I reached home, I heard Isha blaming her for everything.. I wanted to rip Isha's mouth for slandering Nidhi.. but thought ,I should utilise this opportunity to make Nidhi hate me.That was the reason I didn't stand up for her that day and I know she will start hating me even more for not trusting her..my heart was bleeding   when I saw her crouching down on the floor and crying helplessly..My heart was saying to calm her down but my brain was saying " No"My struggle came to an end when  I heard her dad..What he said was 100 percent correct. Yes, she has given everything to this family and I couldn't even stop the one who was slandering her. This house nor me doesn't deserve her.. My heart ached when she  was leaving the house, I didn't want her to go but controlled myself because I thought it was better for both of us.I didn't stop her and walked away from there as I couldn't see her leaving and I may stop her any moment.. and I also don't want my mom to see the pain on my face.. I was already trying hard to lose the best friend I have made a few months back..I know the moment I stop her she will come back to me but No ,I can't do that..There were mixed emotions in my heart when she was leaving..I didn't know why, I felt pain in my heart. The same pain when Nandini left me.I didn't like the way Isha spoke to Nidhi.. I didn't say anything at that time so as to turn the situation in my favour  but I felt there was some conspiracy..I couldn't believe what She said, so I thought of checking the CCTV footage again..I returned to the supermarket again and requested the manager to show the footage once again..I observed a lady wearing scarf and shades was acting as if she was checking the products and after closely observing,  I understood that it was Isha because the dress the lady was wearing was same as Isha's dress.. and just after Nidhi left Avani's hand the lady ran towards the main entrance and Avani walked out with a smile on her face as if she has seen someone she knew..I was sure that it was Isha but to confirm it I went back home and came to know she went out shopping, so entered her room and saw the scarf lying on the bed..The same scarf the lady wore in the supermarket..It was too coincidental to have a person with the same dress and the same scarf wearing it at the same time..I concluded it was Isha.. If it would have been any other girl I would have filed the case but as she is Nandini's sister I can't do that..I understood her intention to blame Nidhi , the innocent girl who loved Avani like a mother..I felt she is a threat to the family and decided to send her back.. and I will never allow Avani near her..So Immediately I  called my manager to book a ticket for her return..When I came back to the room, it felt empty..I missed the giggles and laughs of Nidhi with Avani..She used to play with Avani like a small child and even made Avani learn many Sanskrit slokas..I used to feel proud of my daughter for  reciting slokas like a pro..It was all because of Nidhi and I know she will never return back to me nor to this house.I have lost two wonderful ladies in my life.. I couldn't sleep the whole night. I don't know why I felt emptiness  and pain in my heart.." Kabir , this is what you wanted right?? you wanted her to go away from you?? Now , don't say you are missing her", my inner voice said..I can't do anything even though I miss her now..I went to Avani's room to play with her for some time and while playing she spilled water on her dress..I walked towards the wardrobe to take out another  dress  and saw one shopping cover.Seeing it I remembered that this was the cover of the day I took Nidhi to go shopping..Why is  it still unopened??Out of curiosity I took it out..I quickly changed Avani's dress and gave her to my nanny and took the cover to my room..When I opened it I was surprised  to see a  new shirt of my size.Which means she bought this shirt for me on that day but she didn't give it  to me..This was the first gift she brought for me.. I sighed and calmly put the shirt in my wardrobe. At that moment I felt I found some treasure..My mother was not happy with what I had done to Nidhi ,so she stopped talking to me.. I thought I would explain everything to her slowly..With all her thoughts in my mind I went to bed but couldn't sleep whole night..