Chapter 44: chapter 44

Nidhi's POVDuring the wedding, Kabir never looked at me, he was doing the things the Priest is asking him to do mechanically.. There were no  emotions on his face..After the wedding when we were returning back home , I sat along with him in the back seat in the car, neither he looked at me  nor spoke to me."It's ok ,Nidhi, it's better you not put any expectations on him, it will take time.. ",I said to myself..When we reached home, my luggage was shifted to his room.. He sat on the couch in the living room with Avani in his arms.. He didn't speak to anyone during the entire wedding..Kabir's mom asked me to take a rest in his room.I don't know whether he will allow me to enter his room, because he is not allowing anyone to enter except for the maid who cleans the room.When his mom said to go into Kabir's room ,I  unconsciously looked at him but there was no response for him.. He didn't object ,so it was a relief for me..I walked towards the stairs and entered his room which was dark.All the windows were tightly shut and curtains were  blocking the sun rays.I turned on the light to see his room. His room was filled with Nandini's photos..They all were arranged neatly on the walls of the room..There was a  huge bed in the centre with a silk bedsheet on it. I walked towards the bathroom and saw a large dressing room attached to it..There was a huge wardrobe in it.. I saw one side of it was empty..may be he wanted me to put my clothes there, I felt happy that he considered something for me.. and I was in his mind for at least a few seconds..I slowly arranged my clothes in the wardrobe, went into the bathroom to take a bath and dressed myself in comfortable house clothes..When I came out , I saw him standing on the balcony.. There was smoke around him, which meant he was smoking..When he realised I came out of the bathroom, he went inside to take shower..I was feeling awkward staying in this room, so I came downstairs to see what Avani is doing..?I heard from Kabir's mom that she was tired so she fell asleep.. I don't know what to do now, I can't go up to the room nor stay here.. I went into the kitchen to help Kabir's mom  in cooking.. But she objected to me saying , you can cook from tomorrow.. for today you go and take a rest.. I had no other choice, so I walked towards my bedroom.When I entered , I saw him wearing his t- shirt..I quickly turned my gaze and sat on the couch playing with my phone..He took his mobile which was on the table and left the room as if I didn't exist..Soon it was night, but he didn't return.Kabir's mom called me for dinner, so I went downstairs..She knew it's been very long since he left the house.  She took my hand in hers and said, " Nidhi , give him some time"..I smiled and nodded my head in agreement.."I expected this mom, so I don't feel hurt.  you please don't think much and let's have dinner.How about Avani, did she eat??", I asked."Yeah, nanny is feeding her, don't worry, come let's eat, Kabir's mom made me sit on the table and we had our dinner together.."When I returned back to my room, I didn't understand where to sleep , what if he gets angry if I sleep on his bed, so I decided to sleep on the couch..As I was tired , I fell asleep quickly..At midnight when I woke up for water, I saw him sleeping peacefully on his bed..I didn't know when he returned. I sighed ,drank water and slowly slipped into sleep...Kabir's POVWhen my mom made the proposal of a second marriage , I shouted at her. I cannot give my Nandini's position to anyone.. But one day she said, " Kabir, Nandini might have told you the problems she faced without mother. Avani is a girl ,she needs a mother. try to understand and moreover Nidhi is ready to marry you. you might have seen how much attached Avani is to Nidhi. I assure you Avani will get enough love from Nidhi, think about it Kabir"I didn't understand why Nidhi wanted to marry me.. I know she is a nice girl and her family is well settled, her father can bring any guy for her, but why me?No, I cannot give her the love she deserves. I cannot marry her.When my mom spoke about the marriage again , I clearly said "No"..Mom's everyday's sobbing gave  me a headache.one day, when I was in study , I heard Avani crying continuously.. when I came out I saw Neither Nanny nor  mom were able to control her..I was going downstairs to hold my daughter. Before I could reach, Nidhi entered the house and lifted Avani in her arms and to my surprise I saw Avani tightly holding her neck and stopped crying..I realised she is very much attached to Nidhi.. Maybe other than her no one can love Avani..If I have to remarry, I should marry Nidhi..But how can I ?? She is the girl who helped me rebond with my family.. How can I spoil her life by marrying her?My heart was saying marry her and my mind  was Saying ," No, she deserves better".. In the night ,mom once again spoke to me ," Kabir, if you marry any other girl I can't guarantee she will take care of  our Avani, but if it is Nidhi, Avani will be in safe hands..Think about it.."Finally, I gave in for my daughter.. I agreed to marry Nidhi..I don't know why I started feeling guilty, I felt like I was destroying her life..On the day of the wedding, when I was following the priest's instructions, I felt like I was betraying Nandini..I was trying hard to control my emotions.After the wedding, when we sat in the car, I looked at her in the car's mirror. she looked really beautiful, just like Nandini..When I came to my room, I realised she was in the bathroom taking a bath..I stood on the balcony , took out a cigarette and started smoking.When she came out I went to take a bath and left the house quickly later.I drove aimlessly on the roads, my heart was in a mess.. I don't know what I am gonna do. If I accept her I will be betraying Nandini, if I don't , I will be hurting the innocent girl who has  helped me in my tough times.When I reached home back ,it was already midnight.. I walked slowly towards my daughter's room, she was sleeping peacefully and nanny was lying beside her cot.My hands and legs  were shaking to enter in  my own room,I saw Nidhi sleeping on the couch..I felt bad for her. Being the only daughter of her family she lived the life of a princess. After marrying me she is sleeping on the couch.. Kabir, what have you done to her?I had an urge to pick her up from Couch and make her sleep on the bed but didn't dare to. I changed my clothes and laid on the bed thinking about my future with Nidhi..