âWhy do you have those things in your face?â Smith asks, pointing to my lip ring.
âBecause I want to. Maybe the better question is, why donât you have any?â I say to turn the tables on him, trying not to remember that heâs a kid after all.
âDid they hurt?â he asks, ducking my question.
âNo, not at all.â
âThey look like it.â He half smiles.
He isnât so bad, I guess, but I still donât like the idea of babysitting him.
âAlmost finished in here,â Tessa calls out.
âOkay, Iâm just teaching him how to make a homemade bomb out of a soda bottle,â I tease, which causes her to poke her head around the corner to check on us.
âSheâs mental,â I tell him, and he laughs, dimples showing.
âSheâs pretty,â he whispers into cupped hands.
âYeah, she is. Isnât she?â I nod and look up at Tess with her hair pulled up into some sort of nest on top of her head, her yoga pants and a plain T-shirt still on, and I nod again. Sheâs beautiful, and she doesnât even have to try.
I know she can hear us still, and I catch a glimpse of her smile as she turns to finish her task in the kitchen. I donât get why sheâs smiling like that; so what if Iâm talking to this kid? Heâs still annoying, like all the other half-sized humans.
âYeah, really pretty,â he agrees again.
âOkay, calm down, little dude. Sheâs mine,â I tease.
He looks at me with an O for a mouth. âYour what? Your wife?â
âNoâfuck, no,â I scoff.
âFuck, no?â he repeats.
âShit, donât say that!â I reach across the couch to cover his mouth.
âDonât say âshitâ?â he asks, shaking free of my hand.
âNo, donât say âshit,â or âfuck.â?â This is one of the many reasons I shouldnât be around kids.
âI know theyâre bad words,â he tells me, and I nod.
âSo donât say them,â I remind him.
âWho is she if she isnât your wife?â
God, heâs a nosy little shit. âSheâs my girlfriend.â I should have never got this kid talking in the first place.
He folds his hands together and looks up at me like a little priest or something. âYou want her to be your wife?â
âNo, I donât want her to be my wife,â I say slowly but clearly so he can hear me and maybe get it this time.
âEver?â
âNever.â
âAnd you have a baby?â
âNo! Hell, no! Where do you get these things?â Just hearing them aloud is stressing me out.
âWhy doââ he starts to ask, but I cut him off.
âStop asking so many questions.â I groan and he nods before grabbing the remote out of my hand and changing the channel.
Tessa hasnât checked up on us in a few minutes, so I decide to go into kitchen and see if sheâs almost finished. âTess . . . are you almost done, because heâs talking way too much,â I complain, grabbing a piece of broccoli from the dish sheâs preparing. She hates when I eat before a meal is ready, but there is a five-year-old in my living room, so I can eat this damn broccoli.
âYeah, just another minute or two,â she answers without looking at me. Her tone is strange, and something seems off.
âYou okay?â I ask her when she turns around with glassy eyes.
âYeah, Iâm fine. It was just the onions.â She shrugs and turns the faucet on to wash her hands.
âItâs okay . . . heâll talk to you, too. Heâs warmed up now,â I assure her.
âYeah, I know. Itâs not that . . . itâs just the onions,â she says again.
Chapter seventy-one
HARDIN
The little shit remains mute and just nods when Tessa asks him cheerfully, âDo you like the chicken, Smith?â
âItâs really good!â I say overenthusiastically, to soften the blow of the kid still not wanting to speak to her.
She gives me an appreciative smile but doesnât meet my eyes. The rest of the meal is eaten in silence.
While Tessa cleans up the kitchen, I head back into the living room. I can hear the small footsteps following me.
âCan I help you?â I ask and plop down on the couch.
âNo.â He shrugs, turning his attention to the television.
âOkay, then . . .â There is literally nothing on tonight.
âIs my dad going to die?â the small voice next to me suddenly asks.
I look at him. âWhat?â
âMy dad, will he be dead?â Smith asks, though he looks pretty unfazed by the whole topic.
âNo, heâs just sick with food poisoning or something.â
âMy mom was sick and now sheâs dead,â he says, and the little quaver in his voice makes me realize heâs not immune to the worry, causing me to choke on my own breath.
âErm . . . yeah. That was different.â Poor kid.
âWhy?â
Christ, he asks so many questions. I want to call for Tess, but something about the worried expression on his face stops me. He wonât even speak to her, so I donât think he would want me to bring her in here.
âYour dad is just a little sick . . . and your mum was really sick. Your dad will be fine.â
âAre you lying?â He speaks well beyond his years, sort of the way I always have.
I suppose that is what happens when youâre forced to grow up too quickly. âNo, I would tell you if your dad was going to die,â I say, and mean it.