Chapter 100: I hate myself more than I hate you
Suyin froze.
âT-that. It was nothing.â
Jianyu stared at her and said, âI seeâ¦â
Suyin cried, âJianyuâ¦I-I was touched by those men. Do you know how much they tortured me? Do you know how much I begged them? Iâm not pure anymore. They-they all had their way with me.â She was crying hard, âYou wonât leave me right, Jianyu? I really need you. I want to be with you. If youâll be with me then I know that I can come out of this. So, Jianyuâ¦can I ask you something?â
âWhat?â
She looked at him hopefully, âI know itâs very selfish of me but can you pleaseâ¦break up with Nana?â
Silence.
âI-I know that you are dating her now, butâ¦but I want you back Jianyu. I canât stop myself. Especially after what happened now. I need your support. I want you here as my boyfriend, not just my friend. I know Nana will hate me, but I will do my best to apologize to her and make her understand.â
He said nothing.
âWe were always together, and we should be even now. You both donât even love each other. So, why be in a relationship? But we do. We can get back together. Please. I love you, Jianyu.â
He let out a peal of mocking laughter and said, âDo you know Suyin that when I saw you bruised and bleeding, I couldnât think of anything else. I rushed to carry you in my arms and take you to the hospital.â
Suyin felt happy, âJianyuâ¦I knew-â
âYou know at that time, Nana didnât even cross my mind. I was so panicked for you that Iâ¦forgot about her.â
Really? Suyin felt damn elated.
âShe was also lying in the shed, battling between her life and death.â
Huh? Shed? Didnât she fell by the small cliff?
âBut I chose you. And after abandoning my girlfriend for you, what do I get? This?â He took out a phone and threw it in front of her.
She confusedly looked at it and she felt like she got paralyzed from shock. She looked at it for a few seconds before she nervously raised her head up.
âThisâ¦â
He smiled. âDonât you remember? Oh, should I remind you? This is the phone I got from your bag with which you used to message Sun Dong.â
She looked at him petrified. Every cell, every nerve of her being felt numb to her.
âSun Dong. Oh, donât you remember him either? Donât worry. I will tell you. He is the man my men caught while searching for your rapists. He was so weak. After a little torture, he spouted out all your plans. I saw the message on his phone, and the same message was sent from this phone that was in your bag.â
Her mouth was hanging wide open. She wanted to say something but nothing came out.
âSad. You didnât get the chance to dispose of this phone. If your plan had gone smoothly, you would have thrown this phone right? So that you wonât get caught?â
Jianyu was slowly peeling off every layer of her ugly facade.
She was shivering. The weather was warm but she felt the chills.
âAnd Nana. You plotted such a despicable plan against her but she, unaware of anything, had the courage to come back and rescue you.â
She blinked her eyes in confusion.
He stepped threateningly closer to her, âI talked to your driver. He also confessed everything being a part of it. But he told me an interesting thing. After Nana climbed back up from the slope, she didnât run away. She didnât escape. Do you know what she did?â
She kept quiet.
âShe came back to save you and Huian. She made a plan with your driver to get you both out of there.â
Suyin shockingly looked at him.
âShocked arenât you?â, he laughed as if some comedy is going on, âThe one who you tried to destroy was the very same person who didnât even think twice of her own safety, just to save you. Ironic, isnât it?â
She cried, âNo-no Jianyu, you are misunderstanding me! This is not what it looks like. Please let me explain.â
He laughed crazily, âExplain? What is there left to explain? I already know you withdrew a hefty sum of money. Obviously, you didnât transfer into his account online. You donât want the trail to go back to you. You gave him hard cash. And we found the same amount of cash inside his apartment. The serial numbers of those notes you withdrew and what we found with him match perfectly.â
She bit her lips.
âI even have the record of your assistant buying that unknown number and phone for you to communicate with Sun Dong. This same phone that you are holding right now.â
She removed her IV drips and got up to grab his hand.
âIâm sorry Jianyu. Please forgive me. Please donât hate me. I will never do it again. Iâ¦I did this all for you. I really love you and wanted you back. Please forgive me Jianyu.â
He laughed again like a mad-man, âLove? Do you call this love? Who do you think you are? If people start calling this love, then it is the end of the world. You give the reason of love behind all your schemes? Suyin, you knowâ¦â, tears welled in his eyes, âI so regret falling in love with you. I hate myself more than I hate you for stupidly being blinded by you. I wasted so many of my yearsâ¦on such an ugly and evil person like you.â
âNo! No please donât say that Jianyu. I love you. One chance. Please give me one chance. Let us forget everything and start over again. I donât want to lose you.â
âLeave me!!â, he shook her hand away. âYour mere touch disgusts me. You still have the nerve to ask for a second chance? And forget everything? Do you even know what you are saying? You tried to do the most loathsome thing a woman can do to another woman and you want me to act as if nothing happened?â
âNo noâ¦I-â
âSHUT UP!!â, he looked at her furiously, âBe ready with whatever lame excuses you can come up with. Because Iâm exposing you to everybody.â