Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
As he spoke, he glanced at the fruit on the headboard and asked with a smile, âWould you like something to eat? Are you hungry?â
âWhere is Gong Fan?â Yun Shishi repeated stubbornly.
Little Yichenâs expression froze.He held his forehead in defeat. âMommyâ¦â
âWhere is he?â She sounded anxious when she saw no sign of him. âAnswer me!â
âMommy, calm down. Youâre injured now. The wound has just been stitched up. Donât be agitated. Lie down first!â
Her chest rose and fell slightly. She was a little anxious, but being mindful of Little Yichenâs emotions, she tried to restrain herself and continued to ask, âWhere did Gong Fan go?â
âIâ¦â
âWhy arenât you answering me? I just want to know where he is? Why are you here watching over me and I see no sign of him? Where did he go? What happened?â
The boy was especially upset by this. He understood, perhaps it was because she and Youyou had been so mutually dependent for so long, that her feelings for Youyou probably ran a little deeper than that for himself. He knew, and understood that Yun Shishi favored Youyou. After all, humans are not perfect, itâs impossible to be completely fair. He understood why she favored Youyou, but he couldnât help feeling lost and sad at times.
The boy said desolately, âIsnât it good that Iâm watching over you? Iâve been watching over you all night. When you woke up, I wasnât the first thing you saw. The first names you called out were Gong Fan and Youyou. Donât you want me watching over you?â He sounded desolate and lonely.
Alarmed, she realized at the same time that both her tone and her expression had upset Little Yichen.
âIâm sorry, Little Yichenâ¦â She grasped his hand sadly. âIâm sorry⦠I⦠Iâm just really worried! After all, you know how Youyou is. I⦠Iâm so worried about himâ¦â
âSometimes I wish I were Youyou. Even though he has poor health⦠but he gets more of your attention.â The boy seemed exasperated with himself.
Yun Shishi immediately snapped, âDonât talk nonsense! Youâre in such good health that Youyou can only envy you! Donât you ever say such things again!â
âBecause Iâm envious!â Little Yichen actually said this. He looked up at her and took a deep breath. âI envy him. No matter what, you always prioritize his feelings and take care of him first. I may not covet such a privilege, but Iâd be lying⦠to say that I donât envy it!â
He was envious, but because he was the older brother, he tolerated it. He yearned for it, but because Youyou was his little brother, he let it go. Yun Shishi loved him for being sensible, so he tried his best to be sensible. He made an effort. Butâ¦
In the end, he was still no match for the boy. He wasnât vying over anything with the boy. Rather, he was hoping⦠for just a little more⦠even if it was just a little attention. He would not be greedy!
Yun Shishi felt a sharp pain in her heart to see how forlorn Little Yichen looked. âIâm sorry⦠I know. Itâs not fair to you. Iâ¦â It hadnât occurred to her that it would break the boyâs heart. It wasnât what sheâd expected.
The boy smiled bleakly. âI didnât mean for you to apologize⦠and Mommy doesnât have to apologize to me. Iâm just being wayward.â