Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
Good heavens.
Frustration gripped Yun Shishi. What on earth had she done? How old was Youyou? Why did he have to go through such cruelty?
âItâs all my fault!â She buried her face in her hands, looking grief-stricken. âAt the time, I should never have kept him with me for my own selfish reasons. I obviously was in no condition to give him a wonderful childhood. I should never have taken him back. It was all my selfishness and my fault!â
Aliceâs heart actually ached when she saw how distraught the other woman was. She had no children, but she could understand such feelings. She imagined that the Yun Shishi would have wanted to give him the best that the world had to offer. And yet the reality was⦠She did not have such ability!
Alice smiled helplessly. âWho says you havenât given him wonderful things?â she said faintly.
With tears in her eyes, Yun Shishi looked up at her in surprise.
Alice smiled. âArenât you the best thing that ever happened to him?â
Yun Shishi was stunned. She opened her mouth in surprise, recovered, and brushed away her tears. Listening to the boyâs sub-conscious conversation with Alice earlier on had been like a stab to the heart. However, after hearing what Alice said, she had mixed emotions.
âDonât give him what you think is good. And donât blindly blame yourself for everything. Life is irreversible. Nothing can ever be undone. Take it all in your stride.â
âAlright, thank you.â Yun Shishi added, âAnd to think I was wary of you earlier. I didnât expect you to be so much more mature than I thought.â
âYou are only worried and confused because you care too much.â As she spoke, Alice flicked through the printout of the monitoring report and drew hard on her cigarette.
Yun Shishi looked at the intricate lines that criss crossed it and was confused. âWhat is this?â she looked up and asked suspiciously.
âItâs the frequency of his sleep quality. This part shows data before he goes to sleep. And here, after he goes to sleep.â Alice pointed at the paper and remarked, âYou notice here that after he falls asleep, his brain waves become even more intense?â
âWhat does that say?â
âThat saysâ¦â Alice frowned and said, âIt means his quality of sleep is terrible.â
âQuality of sleep is bad?â
âUh huh.â Alice said, âWhat we fear most in patients with multiple personalities is poor quality of sleep. If the quality of sleep is poor and the mental pressure is too strong, then the patient can easily fall apart. A personâs willpower is often weak. Sometimes it can seem so strong you think itâs indestructible, but often the more indestructible a person appears, the easier it is to crush them with a straw. Therefore, good quality sleep is critical to maintaining good mental strength. If a person doesnât sleep well, it becomes easy to slip into a state of anxiety.â
Yun Shishi nodded. âItâs no wonder Iâve been feeling recently that the boyâs mental strength has been deteriorating. During the day, he seems depressed and preoccupied.â
âThe boy relies heavily on you.â
âUh huh.â
âBut such dependence might not be a good thing. Sooner or later, heâll have a family of his own. It wouldnât be a happy thing for him to rely on you all the time.â
Yun Shishi nodded grimly. âI know that, too. I agree that he shouldnât be relying on me so much.â