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âOh.â Pretending to be calm, I grimaced a little. I didnât want to look too helpless in front of him, so trying my best to look relaxed, I asked, âSo⦠did the one in my belly bleed out?â
Su Qi looked at me with an unfamiliar expression. He was silent for a long time before suddenly asking, âXiachun, youâre pregnant?! Why didnât you tell me? When did this happen? And⦠whose child is it?â
âHas the baby been aborted?â I asked casually.
Su Qi realized that I was deliberately avoiding the subject. He looked as though he wanted to say something, but stopped. Maybe he was being considerate of me. Under the circumstances, it wasnât like we could sit down and have a proper conversation about this. All he said was, âNo. Itâs an ectopic pregnancy and requires surgery.â
His expression was dark, and I wasnât sure what else to say.
âWell thenâ¦â
I pursed my lips and felt rather embarrassed, but I had to be thick-skinned. âCan you lend me the money for it?â
ââ¦â
âWhen I recover, Iâll work and pay you back no matter what.â
Su Qi lost his cool and said, âWhoâs asking you to return me the money!? Do you need to be this calculative with me?!â
âNo, I have to return it.â
âI donât want to owe you anything,â I said dryly.
He fell silent again.
He covered his eyes weakly, took two deep breaths, and said in a choked voice, âXiachun⦠so, is this why you avoided me?â
ââ¦â
âIs this why you didnât wish to continue dating me? Did you think that I would despise you?â
ââ¦â
I silently clutched the blanket and looked at the white sheets indifferently.
âLeave me alone, Su Qi. You donât owe me anything. You donât have to sacrifice this much for me.â
âXiachun, stop torturing me, okay?â
Su Qi stared at me, her eyes turning bloodshot. Suddenly, he looked away and lowered his head to hide his tears. He stopped looking at me, probably despising himself for being so pathetic.
Heâd always said, âReal men donât cry.â When around me, heâd always been so bright and dazzling. He had never lost his composure the way he did now.n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om
I forced a smile. âWhatâs wrong, Su Qi? Iâm really fine.â
âFine?â
He finally looked at me as tears fell from his eyes. He leaned forward slightly, took my hand and said, âI really⦠really donât know what to do. I only know that I hated myself when I found out you were pregnant and secretly trying to abort the child! But youâre asking me to leave you alone, that we donât owe each other anything.â
He choked and continued helplessly, âYin Xiachun, stop torturing me, okay? No matter what happens, I will face it with you. Why are you avoiding me? Do you really hate me that much?â
I held back my tears and forced a smile. âSu Qi, thank you⦠but after what has happened, itâs hard for me to continue being your girlfriend as if nothing ever happened. If you care about me, will you do me a favor?â
âWhat favor?â
âI donât want my family to know about this.â
I suddenly tightened my grip on the blanket and said with difficulty, âYou know⦠my family will be really angry that something like this has happened! I⦠I need you to help me think of a way out.â
Su Qi asked, âDo you not want your family to know, or do you just not want Dongyu to know?â
I smiled bleakly.. âNeither.â