Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
I saw his face harden and his eyes freeze over.
âWhy?â
â⦠Dirty⦠dirtyâ¦â
I crossed my arms, not wanting him to touch me. I did not want to dirty his hands.
I felt that I was dirty. From head to toe, there was a stain that couldnât be washed clean. In my heart, Dongyu was someone that couldnât be sullied. I didnât want to dirty his hands.
However, he seemed to have misunderstood my meaning. When he heard this word coming out of my mouth, he slowly retracted his hand.
I saw the light in his eyes dimming, devoiding itself of luster, and even⦠a hint of indescribable disappointment.
He seemed to be asking, âHow did you become like this?â
I couldnât stand the look in his eyes. I lowered my head and crouched helplessly.
I wasnât sure how long he stood there for, looking at me, studying me.
I only saw that he suddenly turned around and left. Despite Han Xiaoâs repeated urgings, he walked away without looking back.
Han Xiao ran out, after him. After a long time, she returned â I saw both resentment and helplessness in her expression.
âXiachun, whatâs the matter with you?! You have not said a word, not a word. What happened that night?!â
I didnât say anything, all I knew was that Dongyu was gone. But I thought, just go. The farther you go, the better. Donât⦠look back again.
I didnât need his care anymore.
That night, I still did not have dinner. Han Xiao could not persuade me either. My indifference almost caused her to break down!
As she stood there at a loss, her mother shouted from outside, âXiao Xiao, someoneâs looking for you!â
Han Xiao left the room. A few minutes later, the door was pushed open again. However, I noticed that the footsteps sounded different.
When I finally looked up, I saw Su Qi walking into the room, his face ashen. When he saw me, he was stunned for a long time before he walked up to me and squatted down.
He reached for me.
Surprisingly, I didnât push him away like I had pushed Dongyu away.
All I could recall was that my mind went blank when he tried to hold me. I couldnât think of anything. I didnât dare think of anything.
But later, I realized that back then, perhaps I just really needed a warm embrace.
Su Qi couldnât give me the warmth I wanted.
But I dared not hope for the warmth that Dongyu could give me.
Besides Su Qi, I didnât know who else could give me such warmth.
When he wrapped his arms around me, tears simply flowed from my eyes. They surged and flowed as though from a broken dam. I couldnât hold them back anymore.
Maybe it was my tears, my suppressed sobs that tore at his heart.
He hugged me tightly and choked, âItâs my fault. Donât cry!â
I cried harder upon hearing his words.
âWhy did you leave me alone yesterday?â I demanded of him.
That question came almost impulsively.
His entire body stiffened, as if all the blood in his body had frozen!
These words stabbed at his heart like a knife.
He rubbed my shoulder guiltily, his voice shaking. âItâs my fault⦠I shouldnât have left you alone yesterday!â
I questioned him over and over again in despair. âEven you left me alone, how could you?â
â¦
âWhy?â
â¦
âWhy did you leave me behind?â
â¦
âSu Qi⦠I have never toyed with you. I never did.â
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He had no idea what had happened that night.. He only understood that I was asking him why he had left me there alone.