âHey, Liâl Mommaâ¦â Lyle peeks his head into the nursery where Iâm humming âTwinkle Twinkle Little Starâ and rocking baby bean.
I do this a lot nowâsit in here and dream of what life will be like in two months when heâs finally here. Eight more weeks seems like a lifetime; then I remind myself thirty-two have already passed and reason that itâs actually not so bad.
Smoothing my hands over my enormous bump, I smile up at the man whoâs made this incredible life possible. âHi.â
âCan I show you something?â Heâs still standing in the doorway, and his excitement over whatever he wants me to see is palpable. My heart rate picks up without knowing a single detail.
âWhat is it?â I ask, gripping the arms of the chair to lift myself out of it, but before I have my butt off the seat, heâs in front of me, offering me a hand.
âSo, I was in the studio messing around this morning and recorded a lullaby for baby George.â His smile is dazzling.
âHis name is not George,â I huff as he leads me through the house to his studio, only recently completed.
âI want to play it for you.â He brings me into the room where thereâs a table filled with art supplies. âOn your stomach,â he adds, reading the confusion on my face.
âHuh?â His explanation does nothing to clear up what he wants.
He flattens his front to my back, moves my hair aside and brings his lips to my ear. A chill moves through my entire body when his warm breath hits. âI want to paint a guitar on your belly.â He grabs my left hand and stretches it out. âAnd the frets on your arm.â Lyle nibbles my lobe while lightly feathering his fingers along the sensitive skin on the inner side of that arm. Suddenly this all seems very sensual. âAnd play it on your body along to the recording.â
âAre you trying to seduce me, Mr. Livingston?â I ask, looking back at him over my shoulder with fireflies dancing in my chest. My voice is breathy. âBecause if you are, itâs working.â
âAlways,â he says, nibbling from my ear along my neck and finally placing a tender kiss to my shoulder.
His touch has me tingling all the way down to my toes. Excitement buzzes in the air. âI canât wait to hear it.â
His grin is reminiscent of the boy I grew up with as he whips a stool out from behind the counter, motioning for me to sit. âYouâll have to lose the shirt.â My husbandâs tone is less than apologetic. A Boy Scout, he is not.
âBut Iâm not wearing a bra.â I bring a hand to my chest, feigning innocence.
His head shakes. âYou usually arenât wearing a shirt either.â
âTouché.â I shrug, dipping my head side to side before ripping his threadbare tee over my head, leaving me in just a pair of pink cotton panties. If Iâd have had any clue Iâd be put on display like this, Iâd have worn something sexy. But the fire blazing in his amber eyes says heâs not the least bit deterred by my less than impressive undies. âEverything okay?â I ask when he just stands there staring.
âSorry.â He reaches out to tweak one of my nipples, causing my breath to catch, âyouâre very distracting.â
âShould I go put on a bra?â I offer, though the idea is not very appealing.
âNo, of course not.â His brow furrows. âI control myself.â
I snort, because that remains to be seen.
âI said, I canâ¦I just usually choose not to.â
âThen by all means, paint me.â I wave both hands in the air, motioning to his canvas.
âIâm not much of an artist,â he volunteers as he rubs my belly down with alcohol wipes to remove any oil from my skin. âSo, donât laugh at my elementary painting skills.â
âI will try my best.â I smooth a hand through his mop of brown hair when he crouches before me and brings the tiny face-painting brush to my belly.
âJust gonna do a simple round body. Itâll look better on your belly than the traditional shape.â His entire face is taut, his focus absolute.
âOkay,â I say, trying not to giggle.
âWhyâs your belly tightening like that?â His voice turns frantic. âIs the baby okay?â
His obvious concern makes it impossible to hold back the laughter Iâm fighting. âBabyâs fine.â I offer, trying to regain my wits. âI was trying not to laugh, so you wouldnât think I was making fun of your skills, but it tickles.â
His posture visibly relaxes. âItâs insane when you tense up like that. I swear I just saw the outline of Georgeâs butt.â
âOh my God,â I huff. âWe are not naming him George!â
âWeâll see,â he challenges.
âYes, you will.â
We engage in a little stareoff before he gives up and reaches for his supplies.
âOkay, keep still,â he orders, getting back to work.
After drawing the outline, he colors it in using a little sponge, then retrieves a black pencil that looks a hell of a lot likeâ âIs that my eyeliner?â
He shrugs sheepishly. âThatâs what the instructions said to use for detail work. Iâll get you another one.â
I force myself to keep very still while he draws the strings. Itâs not too difficult on my stomach, but once he reaches my arm to draw the frets, I swear Iâm about to come unglued.
Picture that scene from . You know, the one when heâs running his hand down her arm. Iâve never related to anything so strongly.
âYouâre ruining the neck of my guitar!â He tries like heck to hold my arm straight and finish the strings, but weâre both in hysterics at this point. âWhatever,â he says, finally tossing the eyeliner pencil to the table. âWeâll have to imagine that this looks anything like a fret board.â
I glance to my left and crack up all over again when I see the end result. It can only be described as a complete disaster.
The paint only takes five minutes to dry, so itâs pretty well set by the time he finishes with his detail work.
âTry not to be ticklish,â he orders while dragging another stool up behind mine for himself.
With the touch of a remote, he dims the lights. Then he stretches my left arm out, holding it in place with his left hand, fingers positioned on the frets.
He sets the little remote on the stool between my legs and with the press of another button soft music fills the room.
My head lolls back onto his shoulder while he hums along to the intro, strumming the chords on my tummy.
Tears spring to my eyes at the sound of his beautiful voice. At the sentiment poured into each of his words.
He sings of meeting a young girl with sunshine in her hair and the oceans in her eyes who forever altered the course of his life. Of loving her beyond reason and the pain of nearly losing her.
My heart brims over with love for this incredible man.
The rest of the world fades away. In this moment thereâs only him and me, existing in this bubble heâs created through his lyrics. A journey specific to the two of us.
he croons.
Tears pour down my face as he sings of the future he imagines for us. A life filled with love and laughter. With struggles and triumphs.
His lips brush my lobe, and I swear I feel a tear hit my shoulder when he sings of how foolish heâd been to take a love like this for granted.
My chest heaves with sobs when he sings the chorus for the last time: