Chapter 117: Chapter 118: Unravelling the past

I watch my brother across the room, listless, and lost about how to approach him. Colton is pacing

around, hands gesturing in an angry manner as he thrashes out whatever dialogue the two of them

are having and Jasper keeps glaring his way. Arms folded across his chest, face tight, expression

grim in an “I'm not interested" kind of pose and watching as my mate talks about what happens

from here on in. Whether my brother like sit or not, he's stuck with us and a life in this pack. I should

be over there, contributing, coaxing, but I couldn't stand it any longer.

Sensing Jaspers pain and reluctance to start to let go of a decade of ingrained hatred and hurt was

overwhelming me to the point of sheer exhaustion. His head full of vengeance and blind belief that

the only cure to his emptiness is to somehow make the entire Santo pack suffer. To never return to

being Lychan among a pack who would embrace him as family again. He sees only a name and a

bloodline, and the details of the past do not seem to matter. I don’t even know how to begin to get

through to him at all when he's so far brainwashed into seeing us as only the enemy. He's forgotten

his own roots, his own needs as a wolf. Nothing I said dented that giant bubble of refusal that he

shrouds around him like an impenetrable fort of darkness. I know it's a form of self-defense but it's

not good for him.

He's had years of conditioning, brewing over this pain and fury, with a daily dose of “we will seek

revenge’ from his vampire carers. A diet of constant hate and plans of war. He can’t comprehend

any other kind of existence or path. Can't bring it together in his mind to latch onto the fact that

there could be another way to end his suffering. His own wolf gifts are dampened, and his mind

turned dark with only the goal of his own vendetta in sight. Lychans arent built that way and it goes

against our very nature to hold onto something so self-destructive. It's no wonder he’s so conflicted.

How do you unravel all of that and prove to him that he can live a normal and happy life once

again, among his own kind, if he just tries? That he has a mate willing to come to him and help him

through the worst of the confusion. She's within his reach. Carmen knows the kind of pain and

suffering he is experiencing too. She's part of the bigger picture with her own wounds and pain and

could be a healing balm to him if he just lets her. Just like he could be what she finally needs to start

to repair her own scars.

He needs a therapist, not Colton issuing orders and his imprinted mate hiding in the shadows for

fear of rejection for a second time. Both are dealing with him in the wrong way.

I'm no better though. A decade apart and he’s not exactly the brother of the past that I loved so

much and looked up to. We have both grown and changed in our own way and I am at as much of a

loss as how to deal with this version of him. The one who was raised by creatures we warred with for

twenty years is merely an image who looks like the Jasper I loved.

Carmen wanders in, drawing my eye, and watches them for a second by the door, for the third time

with that look of unreadable blank all over her face that hints she is burying intense emotion again.

She's turned inward since Jasper appeared and seems like she keeps running away from any kind of

face on interaction with him. I know this is what she does. Avoids confrontation when it's painful

and deflects to other things. Her emotions are all over the place and even at this distance I can taste

the heartbreak and indecision about what she should do. She blinks his way, eyes damp with

unshed tears and then turns and walks back outside once more. My heart sinks knowing she is

afraid to approach him but every instinct in her keeps pulling back to him. The agony of imprinting

and the fact it only gets worse the longer you deny it.

I watch Jasper for a moment and see only a subtle tensing of his shoulders as he senses her come

and go. I know he will smell her scent at that distance as he’s so in tune with everything that is her

since the imprint. He can't deny it's hurting him too, but he’s stubborn as hell, maybe more so than

Colton ever was, and I think it's going to take more than Carmen shuffling in to peek to make a dent

in his armor. She needs to get up close and personal and make it impossible for him not to touch

her, cling to her, and want her so badly it turns his head inside out. That's what broke Colton, and

maybe it's how I should tackle my brother. Force them into close proximity. Use the bond and it's

sheer overwhelming urge to bring him out of his own head and chase after the one destined for

him.

The subs are clearing up the fallout of a long night of battle so we are pretty empty in this great hall

now. Varro and Darrius are gone, and the hybrids too. Outside is eerily quiet and as a new day

dawns, it feels like last night weas nothing but a flitting dream. The witch has vanished into thin air

and that is still grating on my nerves.

The sun began to rise about an hour ago and just like we expected, turned all the remains of our

enemy to dust as they blew away on a gentle wind as if they were never lain there at all. Leaving

only our own dead to contend with. Leaving the hanging sadness and silence in the area around this

desolate place as we begin the long process of bringing this valley back to something resembling a

home. Taking away the evidence of our battle and leaving only the pain of the fallout. I just need

one thing to go better today so I feel like this all wasn't so pointless.

“Jasper.” I call out with hesitation and only a half-formed plan in my head, but it's like grasping at

straws. I just have to take the plunge and go for it. My brother is on top of the to do list, because it's

one of the problems which is right here in front of me at the moment.

Both Colton and Jasper stop their combative narrative at one another, and turn heads this way with

a look of “what?". So similar in build and pose, booth oozing subtle aggression as they hit head on

with equally stubborn personalities.

"Go help Carmen scout outside and take in how much damage has been done to the perimeter

fences and overall buildings now it's light. She knows this place well and was part of the permanent

patrol. Get her to pick out immediate repairs needing taken care of.” I try not to give away any kind

of expression and look deadly serious, seeing Colton narrow his eyes at my absurd command. He

already sent Meadow out to scout and report on damages that need fixed first. And with our

Vampire war now hanging to a peace treaty, it's not like we are in any imminent danger that

requires the fences anymore.

“I'm sure it doesn't take two, she can probably do it alone.” Jasper digs his heels in, bristling up with

attitude, eyes narrowing at me, but it only serves to push the stubborn little sister out of her hiding

place.

“Like it or not, now you're in this pack and by my side to command. I am your Luna, and you were

told to protect me. Do I have to make my mate alpha tone you to fall in line? I'm tired and hungry

and I want to go home, so help out and we can do that before sun's fully up. Do your part!” I grit my

teeth, knowing this isn't likely to win him over. He never responded well to bossy and commanding

in the past, but he always did have a soft spot for me and wrapping him around my little finger used

to be my forte.

“Whatever.” He “pfffts’ under his breath, throws his arms down to his side and marches off towards

the main door, sulking visibly and with a glare that could melt steel. It seems despite his standing

against my mate, I do have some more sway at times. There's hope for him if I can play his

heartstrings a little more. He obviously still cares enough about me.

I link Carmen quickly and tell her to meet her patrol partner outside the front door pronto. If I tell

her who it is, she'll run. It's better to let them thrash it out face to face. She will find out soon

enough and I know she won't disobey me, even if she doesn’t want to be around him.

“You really think that's going to work?” Colton is by my side in a flash, his own fatigue waving my

way. Catching my hand and yanking mt to him with that edge of possessiveness because we haven't

had physical contact enough lately.

“No, but it's a start. We just have to keep throwing them together, so it breaks down his defenses.

Much like what happened to you. Weakened by your love of me when up and in your face.” I turn

and jab him in the abdomen with my pointer finger, smiling naughtily at his “oooft’ response. Smug

with my immature plan.

“Hey, that was completely different. I wasn't against you being my mate, in fact I more than wanted

it.” He rubs his stomach and bops my nose with his thumb in a cute boy gesture. His dimples come

out to play as he smiles softly at me.

“Tomatoe, Tomato...... He needs to keep being affected by the bond, so he stops acting like a

schmuck. This is the only way to get them side by side.”

“My mates a devious one, isn't she?” Colton slides behind me and wraps his arms around my waist,

nuzzling his chin into the crook of my neck and settles himself comfortably around me before

eliciting a heavy sigh. The familiar safe haven, and it makes my skin goosebump all over from his

touch. Never will I ever not have a full body reaction to my gorgeous other half. He's part of my

soul. “I can't believe it's over. It doesn't seem real yet. I feel like we're dreaming and I'm yet to wake

up.” He sighs again, somewhat bereft. His body deflating slowly, his energy waning and I am more

of a pillar to prop against than just a hug. I can feel his very essence fading away and a sign that my

warrior needs time to rest and recharge. He carries so much on his plate and a night of crazy battles

and self-healing while being weakened by a weapon have taken their toll.

"Except when we wake up, we still have funeral rites to carry out in the droves. A valley to begin to

rebuild and a pack split across two homes. It's not really the end, but just the beginning.” Mt heart

bleeds at that thought. That the worst is over in terms of danger, but the emotional battle is still

ahead of us and may be worse than what last night was.

“It's going to take time, and patience. So many of the valley wolves no longer believe or trust in me

as Alpha, or us as a pack. The grief, the pain of everything that has happened has left it's mark and

we have so much work to do to bring Santo back to what it once was.”

“No.... we won't be bringing it back to what it was! We're starting over and building a new pack,

with new ideals, and a new structure. A new moral code and transparency. We'll build a real family

pack this time with no more secrets or lies or unfair hierarchy. Where hybrids won't have to hide in

shame or be outcast for anything.” I lay my head back on his chest and close my eyes to shut out

the ruin around us and excel in his safe and warm embrace instead. Trying to visualize the valley of

old, when my mother still walked these paths, before I knew anything of suffering and heartbreak

and the power struggle of adults. A time when I was happier and nature around us seemed fuller,

more vibrant, and life had less problems. I want to create that childhood feeling in our pack again,

that sense of peace and tranquility.

“You really have grown into the Luna I hoped you would be.” Colton lifts his chin and kisses me

lightly on my jaw under my ear. Igniting a new wave of tingles and my body starts to react to his

and I have to push it away. Squeezing me for a moment before relaxing back to where he was.

“I never thought I would ever think or feel like a Luna, yet here we are. The pack is always at the

forefront of my thoughts now. All that's left is to build, repair, heal..... and welcome our children into

this world.”

"Hmmmm"” he answers softly, agreeing and sounding as tired as me with the thought of what's to

come next.

“Colton, Alora.... Go back to the manor and rest. We can watch over here and take care of things.”

Meadow pulls us out of our intimate bubble and we both turn to see her walking in, followed by

Radar and Sierra who have linked hands and are looking incredibly cozy together. No doubt

desperate for some alone time to mark and finish their own bond.

I squeal as the memory of their imprint hits me with fervor. Throwing Colton’s arms off of me as the

excitement I had to dampen down on a blood strewn battlefield rises to the surface again and I run

at my Rema. Unleashed joy in the form of an over excited Luna.

"Eeeeeeeeh, I am so happy, happy.” I throw myself at her, wrapping my arms around her neck so

she’s knocked sideways, and Radar has to grab at us to support us from falling over. Bouncing like a

child as she gets caught up in my excitement.

"What the ...” Sierra gasps in confusion and then laughs as my hanging onto her becomes a proper

embrace, sliding her arms around me too. I spin us and then shake her and somehow manage to

end up right back to where we started.

“I have a dad in law!" I turn, letting go of her and poke Radar in the ribs so forcefully he flinches and

then slaps my hand away moodily. He sighs, rolls his eyes, and then turns sheepishly as he sees

Colton approaching us. My mate isn't oozing the same overly hyper good mood as I am now it's

sunk in that his mother has a new mate. Radar clears his throat and loses all confidence. I guess

mating to your alpha best friend's mother, is a bit weird between brother wolves.

"Please don't call him that.” Colton grinds it out, mumbling and then walks to his sub and lands a

strong hand on his shoulder. A squeeze with obvious intent as Radar inhales sharply, wincing and

ducking down on that side to try and escape the grip.

“Alpha.” Radar lowers his head, instant submission coming over him and only gains another stab in

the ribs from me. Pushing him to snap up and glare at me instead. I am so not going to let him fall

back into being just another sub wolf.

"Stop that. You're the Rema’s mate. That makes you the Galma. Grandad wolf... So no more

formalities.” I start laughing stupidly at that, even though it's technically correct and hit the giggling

fits at Radar's unamused expression. He no longer should be bowing or lowering his eyes for either

Colton or I, as he's now our senior. He holds the same role as Rema in being a wise mentor to his

Stepson.

“I mean, she's not wrong... grandad.” Sierra joins in, poking fun at her new mate and Colton’s face

becomes more serious and stoic than before which only makes us both laugh louder and harder. His

whole aura cooling to icy tones and his eyes glow a slight hint of amber. I choke on my fast

inhalation of amusement and almost bend double trying not to die while having a coughing fit

brought on by snort laughing.

“I swear to god..." Colton’s snarls at me and Radar's face becomes ashen. It's obvious Colton isn't all

too adjusted to this new development and Sierra stifles her laugh by covering her mouth and tries

to return to mature mother figure when faced with a tantrummy man child.

“You will still always be my number one boy. Mummy loves you the mostest.” Sierra gets the words

out only just, before snorting at her own “coooeee’ tone and patting her son on the head in mock

affection. She's enjoying this as much as I am.

"Don't even think about making me call you dad.” Colton snaps at Radar and turns on his heel in a

dramatic, sulky fashion before storming off. Colton behaving like a child because he knows he can't

do a damned thing about a situation he actually wanted to happen. Radar hesitates , eyes going

back and forth from son to mother before going off after him in an attempt to unruffle his alpha’s

fetahers.

“Leave them to figure it out between them. They have a strong bond, I'm sure they will find their

new level quickly. Colton just wants everyone he loves to be happy but he will find it weird replacing

his father so soon after we ......." Meadow chimes in and yet trails off, moving in between us now

that our little dramatic scene is over, and slings an arm around my shoulder in that casual

affectionate way of hers. Her words bringing the somber mood back and I feel a little guilty

knowing that maybe this is all equally painful and confusing to Colton. Even as an adult. His father

left his mark in his heart and now Radar is meant to take his place after a lifetime of being like his

brother.

"He's not against it. I think deep down he’s pleased, but you know Colton... Has to seem like a cool

and bossy alpha and won't let Radar get any preferential treatment in case he thinks’ he’s gone

soft.” Sierra sighs and hooks her arm in Meadows other one, so all three are connected and we

stand for a moment watching them disappear out the far door.

I don't know how my mates feeling, but I know it won't last. He's the type to figure it out fast and

put it to bed so it doesn't disrupt his relationship with Radar, or how he oversees the pack.

“Let's go home. There's enough sub wolves and Cesar is overseeing what needs to be done here.

My Luna needs fed and put to bed.” Meadow squeezes me, sensing my need for time alone to

process everything that's happened, and bumps her temple against mine. “I had the twins go fetch

a car so I can take you tow back to the stead. We need to update all those we left at home. It's

going to be a hectic week.” Meadow is tired too. I can hear it in her voice and know last night she

would have given her all to battle against those creatures. She may be strong and fearless but even

Meadow needs mental space after killing to be able to look at herself in the mirror. Lychans were

never borne to be those kinds of beasts.

“Yeah... The work starts now. Let's all go home.”0000