Does love have only one shape and size?
Certainly not..
In my life, many people received my love, and I was given the love of so many as well, but no one weighs inside my heart as much as any other does, or is loved in the same way.
This applies to everyone, we all give and receive different kinds and amounts of love.
It applies to Nadir as well, I guess he strangely ended up giving me a warm spot inside his heart, one that is not attributed to any kind of ulterior motives or hidden desires, just simply a brotherly love, a thing Eliyas couldn't quite believe.
As to how my dense highness came to realize Nadir's affections and my husband's unnecessary stubbornness, it is of course because I was clearly and directly informed of these two facts, the situations in which I received this valuable info were rather a bit complex though.
You see, it all started with my husband, when the makeup artist was working her magic on my face, I was spending that time reflecting on all the recent happenings being the idle person that I was.
Of course the main subject that successfully concurred all my thoughts was my husband's unreasonable jealousy and all the weird actions that resulted from it.
For example, he never had any word to say about my clothes, even when I was going through my hilariously ugly fashion phase back in high school, he never said:
_" cousin, I find my self obliged to honestly say you can't go out looking like this. wearing green shirt, green pants and green shoes with a thousand black bracelets doesn't make you fashionable, it only makes you look like a giant vegetable."
Still, when the stylist gave me this elegantly elegant outfit for the visit to the farm, with tight white pants and a beautiful jacket my husband surprisingly said the moment I walked out of the bathroom after changing my clothes:
_" Noursine, you can't wear this."
_" why not?" I logically asked.
He was actually standing at the balcony door and talking on the phone when he said this to me, so who ever he was talking with, he must have heard how unreasonably bossy this CEO was, not only this, after my husband finished throwing this remark to me he abruptly cut the call as well, so this poor person on the other side of the phone who found himself suddenly involved in a couple's argue must have felt very wronged for being a victim with no reason.
Once Eliyas cut the call, he put his phone inside his pocket and calmly walked towards me, when he reached me, he illogically explained:
_" You were just yesterday involved in an accident, you can't wear this today."
And yes ladies and gentlemen, after saying this, he seriously expected me to reply:
" oh yes, now I understand, this explanation is very explicit and on point, you might as well go solve the world's biggest mysteries with this correct mindset of yours"
Like seriously!! There was no link between my accident and my clothes!
Still, remembering the terror I made him go through because of my accident, my heart somehow felt very heavy and burdened, and I said to my self that it wasn't a big of a deal after all changing a set of clothes since he hate them so much, it was him who wasted his money buying them for me after all and it was him who was going to lose more money buying new ones.
Trying to be an exemplary understanding wife, I looked at the stylist, and asked her to arrange a new outfit for me while sighing, being the tactful person that she is, she immediately brought out her phone then after quick swipes and clicks she showed us her phone screen and explained:
_" these are the available pieces for this occasion in our store, you can choose what you want."
Eliyas of course readily welcomed this suggestion, he snatched her phone from her hand then soon turned him self into a fashion critic and expressed his opinion about every piece of clothing, needless to say it, this opinion was necessary because he rejected each and every freaking one!
As you know, he is a very reasonable person, and somehow of a perfectionist as well, So when he wants to be unreasonable, he has to be perfect in this aspect as well, this was mainly why and how the stylist and I ended up listening to the most nonsensical of reasons, naturally, we had to deactivate our intellect and endure all his words with no objections.
After minutes of being silently listening to the opinion of someone who knows not a first thing about what he's saying, I finally realized that it was pointless being an understanding wife when having such a husband, as I looked at the stylist's face which was, for long minutes, showing all signs of being in torture, I decided to simply shout:
_"Eliyas! Just leave the room already! I'll wear whatever I want!"
Not paying any regard to his reputation in front of the stylist, I snatched her phone back from his hand and while returning it to her I said:
_" I apologize for the trouble you had to go through, the outfit I'm wearing now Is ok, I will not change it."
Hearing my logical and perfectly "making sense" words, Eliyas was not pleased at all, he glared at me until his eyes almost popped out, when he was convinced that I was not going to change my mind again, he decided to leave the room in a fit of anger, and glared at me all the way out of the room, if the room's door was transparent, he would have glared at me as well from the corridor but it wasn't the case.
It was after this point that I finally had time to really measure and weigh Eliyas's actions and words, no matter how much I thought about it while the make up artist was doing her work on my face, I still found his behavior very unjustified.
When I was finally ready to go, I took my phone and I sent him a message saying that I was ready and he can come escort me.
He immediately and coldly replied back:
"Come by your self, you don't need me to show you the way down."
Did this unnecessarily rude message bother me?
It didn't..
Compared to the days which he chose to simply ignore me because he was mad, receiving this reply from him was definitely much better, so I stepped on my pride, I thanked the stylist and makeup artist for their efforts, then we all left the room and headed down stairs together.
It so happened that when we reached half the downer row of stairs I saw a group of servants strangely gathered at the entrance of the corridor leading to Nana's and Ines's room, and they were discussing some matter very seriously, such a sight is very rare of course so my curiosity was immediately stirred.
As the old butler came to escort the two ladies in my company, I decided to go see what was going on once I was left alone.
I slowly stepped closer to the group, their discussion was barely heard, still I managed to listen to it being blessed with sharp ears, to simply put it: they were ordered to go call Ines and Nadir to the guests hall, but no one dared to do it, because they heard the sounds of yelling and heated quarrel coming out of Ines's room so they feared being punished for interrupting the arguing couple.
To be honest, I truly sympathized with them, I lived most my life as an average person who didn't dare offend people in power and who had to struggle in order to survive, I know all about that fear of taking a risk, so I didn't want the poor hardworking servants at the villa to endure the cruelty of my in-laws when they really shouldn't.
I know it's very rare of me to interfere in people's business, but I wanted to be generous for no reason.
When I finally reached the group, I ignored their shocked looks and decidedly said:
_" you go back to you work, I will call Ines and Nadir on my way."
They all gave me strange reactions, which was very understandable, since Ines's room was actually in the opposite direction to "my way", but no one objected though, and they happily vanished from that place.
I headed to Ines's room next, and as I expected, I found Nana standing right at the door eavesdropping on them, of course this old woman wouldn't miss such a drama happening right next to her room.
Ines's loud voice was heard meters away, occasionally Nadir's as well, although I couldn't quite get the object of their quarrel.
Once I reached the room, and Nana, she barely waited for a couple of seconds before she whispered:
_" I knew this Nadir isn't good for Ines! She caught him playing with several women! he even shamelessly admitted his deeds and went too far as to accuse her of being with other men as well! That son of a filthy family! How dare he slander my well disciplined granddaughter!"
I gave her a very impatient look and said:
_"Nana, please, this is a private discussion, you can't come here and listen to them."
She impatiently glared at me and rebuffed:
_" how is it private when they are being so loud! And how do you expect me not to have an opinion when I hear that man is cheating__"
She didn't continue her words because we suddenly heard Ines yelling:
_"Noursine!"
For a split second, my heart almost stopped, I thought she saw me standing at the door and that was why she so angrily called my name, but seeing that the door was still closed and this was impossible, I realised that the couple were strangely quarreling about me.
I felt a bit sorry for wanting to eavesdrop on Ines, but hearing my name being mentioned I couldn't stop my self.
_" what about Noursine?" Nadir yelled angrily.
_" are you trying to deny it in front of me? You love her don't you? She's a married woman and you still dare to love her!"
_" I don't see any reason why I should explain my self to you anymore or why this marriage is still going to happen, but I can not allow you to speak ill about her in front of me! she's like a sister to me! it's something you Filladi's can't understand, because all you have is money, family bounds are nothing in face of money for you!"
_"don't give me that philosophical nonsense of yours, I would have believed these words if they were not coming from the mouth of a player!"
There was a long silence afterwards, after which Nadir more calmly said:
_" I'd appreciate it if you keep in mind that we both aren't so fond about each other, this marriage is taking place only because it's beneficial for us, as for your personal affairs or mine.. we're free to live in whichever way that we want, I was honest with you from the beginning and you agreed, we're two mature people so I will not accept such lowly treatment from you in the __"
Ines angrily interrupted him yelling:
_" Is this how you treat your fiancée? You're cheating on me even before we're married and you're telling me that it's not my business? "
Still, as if he wasn't even listening to her, he said:
_" We're late for the visit to the farm, in the future, I hope you be more firm with your mother, there's no need to involve me in such unnecessary events."
_" there's no need for you to attend to any of my mother's silly events in the future, this marriage is never happening, I was mistaken about you."
I didn't know what I was supposed to feel about all that I heard, it's not my deal anyways how they treat their engagement, but I didn't expect the situation to be this sour between them, why don't they just break this toxic thing that they had?
There was a long silence after that, so I conveniently asked Nana to go back to her room promising her that we'll chat about what we heard later, then I mastered my courage and knocked on Ines's door.
It was Nadir who opened the door for me, he looked somehow surprised and nervous to see me there, as for Ines, she was crossing her hands and standing in front of the mirror.
Needless to say it, the air inside the room was so suffocating that I preferred not to go in, plus deep inside I had an unfavorable opinion about them both after hearing their discussion so I immediately said:
_" we're all waiting for you at the guest's hall."
Then I dismissed my self right afterwards not wanting to be more of a nuisance.
On my way back to the guest's hall, I was a bit in a victory mode remembering Nadir saying that he saw me as a sister, I was eager to let Eliyas know how unreasonably stubborn and nonsensical he has been although there was no real reason for it!
But I barely crossed half the distance when someone suddenly called my name from behind me.
When I stopped walking and I turned to look there, I saw Nadir walking towards me.
When he was about two steps away, he stopped and looked at me very strangely.
_"You heard us?" He asked.
I'm not a liar, therefore I honestly replied:
_" I did, it was hard not to hear you anyways when you're being so loud."
Hearing my answer, he chuckled then added:
_"it's strange how the filadis are spending their fortune buying all sorts of weird furniture for their villa yet they couldn't make the walls more soundproof."
I nodded coldly, not having heart to slander my husband for no reason.
_" Is you opinion of me shaken?" He suddenly asked.
His tone was so serious that I was taken aback and didn't know what to say.
After a lot of thinking, I finally said:
_" it doesn't matter what I think of you, I'm not in a position to judge your personal life__"
_"it matters." He firmly interrupted me.. Then stepping even closer to me he added:
_" your opinion matters to me, so.. Are you disappointed in me?"
You see, he was close, I mean, very close. I don't think a married lady should be that approached by another man even if he claims to be her brother, so I naturally made a step away from him and whispered:
_" Yes."
_" I see." He added, then simply ignored me and walked away towards the guests hall.
Seeing his back I somehow started feeling very uneasy, and decided not to oppose to Eliyas's growing jealousy anymore.
Although I clearly heard Nadir saying I was like a sister, remembering the look he gave me after I said "yes", I started to question his confession.
Love indeed comes in different shapes..
But..
Should I keep thinking that Nadir's is really that innocent?
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Author's note:
I can't believe my book reached 113k reads!! Thank you all so much for your support ⤠I never expected my book to receive this love from you, I'm truly grateful to you ðð
I apologize as well for the long delay before posting this episode, I rewrote it so many times that my writing app was filled with failed half finished ones, then after reading your comments, I was encouraged again and I finally finished it the way I wanted, I hope you enjoyed reading it.