Valentine Winters P.O.V
The pain eased a bit, and I wasted no time in trying to get away from him. I ran into my washroom with wobbly legs and quickly locked the door behind me.
I laid my back against the door and slid down as the pain again hit me like a ton of bricks before there were harsh banging on the door.
I crawled my way away from the door over to the toilet seat and closed it. I pulled my aching body up and sat on it cradling my stomach. Tears were already welling in my eyes from the pain.
I was already in this matter of state yet I had created another trouble for me just outside that door.
âVortexzy.â I heard him growling lowly calling out my wolf.
âLet me in. I can make you feel so good Vortex, I can take the pain awayâ he moaned.
I felt my wolf coming up the surface and I let her out. I wasnât tough enough to push her back and there wasnât a reason to even do that.
âJacque, control yourself. Let Octavius out.â She spoke.
âSay my name again.â He purred.
âGive Octavius his control back.â She ordered.
"No.â He boomed before breaking the door.
He looked like a starved animal.
He walked over to me as my wolf whimpered âPleaseâ. I tried to get back in control but I was too weak.
He carried me up before placing me on the sink and got in between my legs. He began rubbing himself on me and my wolf purred as some of her pain eased.
âJacqueâ she warned and he moaned out pinning both of our hands on top of our head with one of his and his other hand around my hips to keep me in place.
He pushed some of my hair at the back to reveal more of my neck where Luciferâs mark was displayed and his canines elongated.
Fear consumed me.
Is he gonna mark me ?
He buried his face at the crook of my neck and scrapped his teeth over the mark and my wolf lost it.
He canât be serious in marking me forcefully!
"No." She growled ferociously.
"Iâm not yours, Iâm already marked.â She growled regaining back control as her pain subsided for awhile.
Thatâs all she needed.
She pushed him away with her alpha strength and commanded him to leave. I heard my room door open and a familiar scent hit me.
âValentine ? Octavius ?â
Zachary was here.
He came in view of my washroom frame and his eyes went wide as saucers.
âWhat in the gods world happened in here ?â He shrieked.
"Zachary take Jacque away from here." My wolf ordered.
âJacque ? Octavius wolf ?â He questioned confused and looked over at me.
âVortexzy ?â I guess my pitch black eyes gave away that I wasnât in control.
Jacque growled trying to fight off her command and all dawned upon Zachary. Guess who just won the lottery. Note the sarcasm.
âYouâre fortunate I have greater control over my wolfâ He says before trying to drag Octavius away.
âSorry for this.â He said and hit him on the head making him drop down unconscious.
âThanks Xavierâ My wolf thanked.
âStill Zachary, Vortex. Doesnât mean if I made him unconscious Xavier helped me.â
He dragged Octavius out of my room but before he left, he smiled.
âVal, itâs great to see you. Iâll meet you once everything is over and in control.â He said and shut the door.
Vortexzy gave me back control and I sat down on the bed. âThanks Vorâ
âItâs fine, I just pity Jacque. Heâd always been protective of me. He just couldnât control his animal instincts.â She reasoned.
âHeâs gonna regret when he comes back to his sensesâ
I stripped of my clothes and took a shower. I could smell him all over me and it made me cringe.
I didnât like his scent on me.
It did smell nice but it felt wrong on me.
I wasnât his to be having his scent. I sighed and turned over on my bed. I felt so weak.
I feel so incapacitated.
I felt disgusted and repugnance with his actions.
I want to feel strong; independent and courageous.
I wanted to be vigilant; valiant and valorous.
I am a strapping individual when it came to everyone else. My wolf is even more rugged. Yet whenever heâs there, we feel like our energy has been drained out.
I feel pathetic and poignant.
Just because Iâm a female, doesnât mean I canât stand up for myself.
Doesnât mean if youâre born a male, you have two horns stuck up on your head.
Just thinking about him, had me shivering and I hated that fact. I loathe that he broke me into tiny little pieces and no matter what, I can never put the pieces back together.
Itâs impossible and paradoxical.
Itâs an irreversible process.
What did I do to deserve this ?
Why me ? Do I deserve to have him over anyone else ? To be rejected again and again ?
Abused in various methods and crying out in pain ? Do I deserve to be punished without any reason ?
Have I ever disrespected my family ?
Looked down upon anyone ?
Was I a conceited and overbearing soul ?
Am I responsible for his mothers death ?
Was I the cause of his doings and undoings ?
Did I wish to be kidnapped and enslaved ?
Was I stomping on my foot that I wanted him to be as my mate ?
What would I gain out of this ? Why must the world be so cruel ? Why must fate play with my emotions ?
If only everything was in place.
Why canât I write the story of our lives ? If only Lucifer had a mother and his father wasnât a werewolf.
We wouldnât even be mates.
What if I had a wonderful loving mate ? I would have been the happiest woman alive on this planet. Yet in my heart, I know I still want him as my mate.
Do I love him ? Why am I feeling this way ?
What if Alpha Zades had Gabriel as his first son ? Theyâre bond would have been way closer.
I would have never been in this mess.
Nearly murdered.
Slapped.
Hurt.
Abused.
Defeated.
Nearly raped.
Shot.
Arranged to someone I will never fall in love with.
Always sprinting away from the inconveniences that I didnât even choose to be.
I didnât choose to be a werewolf.
Hunters should know that.
They chose to be a hunter.
They had a choice, we didnât. It was how the way had to be.
Why must it play with me ? Why canât any of the other girls who have bitchy character be in my position ?
They are the ones who have wronged.
Heck, I was still a virgin and I hadnât even had my first kiss before he stole it. But to think about any other girls being in my position and having Lucifer as their mate brought a whole new level of jealously running through my veins.
I havenât even had gotten drunk. I donât smoke or take weed.
What are the fates playing at ? Why must the moon goddess pair me up with him ? What benefit does this bring ?
Only problems and thick tensions in the air.
I closed my eyes.
Thoughts swirling in my head.
What did I do to deserve this ?
Lucifer Zades P.O.V
âI thought you clearly stated that youâd start searching for her at dawn.â My wolf growled out.
âI was thinking.â I replied sitting on the bed in the room of the hotel.
âThere isnât time to be thinking, you need to act.â He groaned.
âGive me a break okay ? My life isnât all about searching for her and making sure sheâs always by my side.â I fought.
âWell sorry to bust your bubble because I had been separated from the love of my life, sucked into a host with another soul and had been reborn for a second chance of having her into my arms and now that I had already found her but guess what ? An overbearing soul rejected her just because he had been born into a Hunter family and blames her for our moms death ? You hurt her! You fucking abused her! And she was mine! She became yours because of me and her human soul was fated with you because of your past life! You guys were in love. True love! So pure that you have also been given another chance and always will be together in every reincarnations! Everything was according to place and you ruined it. You destroyed everything.â He combusted.
âRemember Lucifer, youâre only good in everything because of me. Without me, you would have been a pathetic human just like the rest.â He continued.
I kept silent.
I fisted my hands. Even though whatever he said agitated me, I knew the wolf was right.
I closed my eyes and sighed. This was very stressful. Itâs even more tiring than fighting of with the filthy rogues.
Rogues.
She was almost killed by one.
âThat was because of you.â² My wolf blamed instantaneously.
I looked over at my hands and saw the ring that had her name carved on it.
Suddenly fear consumed me and I was left out of breath. I toppled over to the ground and tried to breathe while I was on my hands and knees. It only lasted for about 15 seconds and I placed my hands on the bed for support and before entering the washroom quickly and grasped the sides of the sink.
I opened the tap, letting the water run. I splashed some of the cold water on my face and looked up into mirror. My eyes had turned black as charcoal and my canines elongated. My whole face was red.
I was breathing heavily and I was sweating as if I just came out from the sauna or ran a cross-country marathon.
âWhatâs wrong with me ?â I growled out to my wolf. I know he knows whatâs happening.
âSomeone tried to mark whatâs oursâ He snarled.
âWhat! Did he ?â I questioned.
âNo. But he was close. Too close. Find her Lucifer. Find her now!â He ordered.
I felt his rage. Fur was already sprouting on my skin as I tried to keep my wolf in check. All we saw was red. I wanted the motherfucker who almost marked whatâs ours head to be separated from his body and burned into ashes.
I fell down on my knees as my wolf tried to reach up onto the surface and I tried even more to control him. But I havenât learned how to control him at most. I donât know anything about the werewolf dictionary.
I only know how to murder them yet now Iâm also one of them. Karma really have her ways.
I screamed out and finally it stopped. But only then, it dawned upon on me that I wasnât in control anymore.
My wolf was.
He got up and looked on the mirror before smirking. He had won over the body and I bet he wonât give me back control.
âGive me back control, wolfâ I commanded.
âMy name is Hunter!â He boomed.
âNever, itâs my turn now.â he growled lowly on each word before a sinister smile found its way onto our lips.
â²Iâm coming my love and no ones stopping me.â He said before walking out from the washroom ready to get out from the hotel.
What is gonna happen now ?