With a smile on his face, Caitel puts the cookies in my mouth as he promised. I donât know why, but I felt sad eating it. I canât believe I gave up my identity and self-esteem just because I wanted to eat this. Itâs all screwed. Iâm done! I donât see hope.
âYouâre a good at smiling.â
Iâm sorry. I know I smile often.
I wanted to be a goofy baby, but I guess Iâm too nice to be like that. The next minute, Caitel gives me a little star-shaped cookie. Naturally, I opened my mouth, and at that moment, he took the cookie away. Huh?
âDo you want it?â
â¦Oh, my god!
Why canât you act like other normal fathers, you! When I look at him with a really serious crumpled face, he felt awkward and gives me that cookie. Because the cookie is little too big, I took a bite and grabbed the cookies with my hand, and I stared at him. Are you my father or my enemy?
âYouâre so ugly.â
Whatâs he saying about my brilliant looks? Youâre ugly, too. Iâm not the only one whoâs ugly. First of all, Iâm your daughter. I donât even feel itâs unfair now because I hear that too often now. Well, he surely said that I look like a bug, and look like a dog before. Oh you bastard.
âHow can you be this ugly?â
I said you are ugly too. I breathed a low sigh. And taught the truth of life to the ignorant Caitel.
âItâs because I took after you.â
Caitelâs face is slightly stiff in my reply. In the back, Ferdel was already laughing so hard.
âYouâre unsightly.â
âI said I got it from you.â
âYou are ugly.â
âMaybe because I look like you?â
Iâm ugly because I look like you. Isnât that so? I nod my head as if it were an immutable truth made Caitelâs face seriously crumpled. When I saw it, I giggled inside. Tel, youâre still a long way to catch me. Haha.
âYou were like a bug when you were little.â
âYes, because I resemble you.â
âYou also look like a dog, too.â
âThatâs also because of you.â
Iâve heard that I look like a cat, too, but thatâs silent. So what? Whatâs going to happen if you glare at me like that? Are you gonna hit me? Can you really hit someone as cute and lovable as me? Right, of course. Heâd do much worse than thatâ¦Iâll just stay quiet and smile. People say you canât hate a smiling face.
ââ¦now that I look again, youâre quite pretty.â
âYes, I know how pretty I am.â
Kitellâs face crumpled without mercy. I giggled inside. Do you think Iâd say I got that from you again? Iâm not that simple.