ZEDKIEL.
A week has passed since the trials and Kash and Ziahra have left. Apparently, they are going to take things easy but as far as I can tell, they are constantly making out.
So irritating and disgusting to see.
Jason had told Kash he is in no rush to stand down and I think that is something Kash appreciated. Although Ziahra had made it clear, she did not want him to follow her when she left, he told her hell accompany her and only be staying a day or so before he returns home.
They may act like they have this love and hate thing going on, but I have seen she has marked him back, which says enough. I still need time to get used to the two of them being together.
I know heâs trying to find Isa, but I told him he may just lead Godric to her if he tries to find her. Youâve got to think smart and play smarter.
Last night Evangeline told me that Evelyn is leaving today, she has avoided me a lot since she has returned with her own body. Itâs a shame, considering I feel that we have formed a bond of sorts. However, I can also understand how sheâs feeling.
I walk through the castle gardens in search of her, until I spot her sitting on the wooden swing in one of the orchards, with her feet up on the bench, her head resting back against the rope that ties the seat to the tree.
Her eyes are closed, and she seems to be lost deep in thought as the wind blows through her hair.
âI hear youâre leaving this weekend.â I say as I walk over to her.
Her eyes open and I motion her to move her legs.
She c***s a brow, swinging her legs down and I sit down, making the swing creak.
âFatty.â She chuckles.
I raise an eyebrow, amused at her choice of words.
âWe both know Iâm far from fat.â
âMmm. true.â She says, her eyes raking over me, but instantly the amusement vanishes, and she turns her head away.
A tense silence falls over us as the swing rocks slowly,
âHow are you finding everything? Are you ready to be out there on your own? How do you feel now that you have your own body?â I ask her quietly. I need to know that sheâs going to be ok.
She shrugs. âIm fine.itâs cool to have my own body⦠I mean, the bond between us is gone and yeah, although I love you, you two deserve to be together. Iâm happy for you guys.â She looks at me now, and although thereâs sadness in her eyes, sheâs speaking honestly.
âI hope you also find someone who treats you like the queen you are. You helped Evangeline, you helped me, and you fought this curse despite everything. We owe you, Little Lamb.â
She smirks, now looking at me. âOh, you do, I mean, I did a lot you know, without even having my own body.â She says now looking down at herself, clearly admiring herself before she becomes serious again and tilts her head as she rocks the swing slowly. âIâm not destined for love, so Iâm not going to mull over it. I want to live my life with no regrets. Live the life I have always been deprived of. I know my worth..â
She stands up, hugging herself as she turns her back in me.
My own smirk fades away as I frown.
âIm ok being alone.â She says.
No, youâre notâ¦
âYou deserve far more.â I say, stepping in front of her, âThings will get easier, and Iâm certain that there is someone out there who will make your life complete.â
âYou donât mean that.â She says, shaking her head.
âI do.â
Our eyes meet before she steps closer.
âTo think that in our first life, we were meant to be together too.â She says more to herself than me.
She smiles faintly and I run my fingers through her hair. âYou deserve better.â I say quietly.
âThatâs what they always say when they want to let you down slowly.â She says quietly.
Our eyes meet and I shake my head. âI do love you, Evelyn, but I know Iâd always mess up. You deserve to be loved by someone who loves only you and someone will.â
âYou have more faith than I do then.â She says, smiling bitterly. âAt least grant me one last k**s.
We both can admit you are a good kisser.â
Our eyes meet and I donât deny her, and slowly she cups the back of my neck, pulling me down.
For a moment she looks into my eyes as if expecting me to pull away, but I donât. She smiles faintly before she leans up and presses her lips against mine. She k****s me softly and I k**s her back and it truly does feel like goodbye⦠after few moments, we slowly part.
A simple k**s, a farewell.. as we close this chapter of our lives.
She moves back slightly, looking into my eyes, and I wrap my arms around her, hugging her tightly.
âYouâre going to take on the world, one city at a time, and I know youâll have fun.â I say, kissing the top of her head.
She nods. âMm, I plan to. The world will be my playground.â Thereâs a devious hint to her voice as she chuckles, and I c**k a brow.
Oh, I have no doubt it will.
EVELYN.
Iâm finally leaving. Ever since I had that heart-to- heart with Zedkiel, I feel I got the closure I needed. I canât help but smile at the conversation I had with Evangeline that same night.
(FLASHBACK)
âDid Zedkiel tell you I kissed him?â I ask bluntly.
she looks up from the papers sheâs working on and smiles.
âOh?â
I raise an eyebrow. âArenât you jealous or angry?â I ask. I know she isnât because she has a heart of gold and loves her mate.
âNo.â She says, smiling. â1 can never be jealous of you.â
âSo annoying.â I say, but Iâm not mad..
Iâm not Evangeline⦠I am jealous of the life she has and Iâm a little envious but Iâm ok. Il be okâ¦
âAnnoying or not, Iâm your older sister.â Evangeline scolds lightly.
âNot by much!â I say, before we both begin to giggle
(END OF FLASHBACK)
I look at the car belonging to Kashâs brother Adonis. Heâll be taking me to the airport in a short while and Iâm just making sure everything is here.
âHmm, I should have packed some more chocolates for the journey.ââ I muse.
The ride to the airport is a few hours long itself!
Ah, Iâm going to go find some cold drinks for the journey. I better get some now!
I turn and yelp when I knock into something hard.
âWatch it.â Ragnar growls as I lose my balance and fall on the floor, with a big umph!
âOuch.â I growl, realising I had just knocked into one of the four black suitcases heâs carrying.
Giving him a glare, I stand up and rub my sore bottom and brush it off in case I dirtied my pants!
Idiot.
âWatch where youâre going, you big fat troll.â
He raises an eyebrow. âWatch where youâre walking, old hag, you were the one to bump into me.â He snaps back.
âWhatever.â I say, my gaze now falling on the large suitcases he is carrying.
Where is he going?
Iâm about to ask him when I notice heâs scanning the open trunk of the car.
âWhere are you headed?â He asks, frowning slightly.
I slip my hands into the back pockets of my leather pants and shrug as I gaze at the blue sky for a moment, then back at him.
âIm going to go see the world.â I reply.
Thereâs a look in his eyes that I canât read.
âHave fun. The world is a big place. Thereâs always something to seeâ¦
âYeahâ¦â I reply. Our eyes meet and I donât know what to say, so I look back at the suitcases heâs now put down. âWhat about you?â
âAs you know, Kaylaâs father was killed in the battle as well. Sheâs the only heir.â
Oh, yeah⦠that was discovered later. It had come as a shock to many as even the Irisian pack had not mentioned it until Kayla was requested to return, but then again, the pack is super secretive.
âSo, youâre moving to the Irisian pack to take over as Alpha.â I say, not knowing why that makes me feel a little gloomy.
He nods, and I look into those very blue eyes.
Pretty much.â
âI guess you still get to be the Alpha of a pack.
Thatâs cool.â I say. âI think youâll make a good Alpha.â
His eyes Snap up to me, and my heart skips a beat
âA compliment from you is pretty shocking.â He says mockingly, and I roll my eyes, but neither of us looks away.
I swallow and shrug, trying to break that strange tension between us.
âDonât let it inflate your ego.â I counter. âIve heard the Irisian pack is beautiful. Youâre lucky.â
âWant to come?â he says, and I know he instantly regrets it. Almost as if he didnât even know why he said it. âI mean to visit. Do you want to visit the pack?â
I smirk âI understood. Do you want me to come?â I ask teasingly before I sigh. âBut we both know inviting me over would be a big mistake.â
âYou are a mistake.â He says carelessly as if trying to brush off what had just happened.
âYeah⦠â I reply, looking up at him again. âWell.. take care⦠â
âYou too.â He says. He holds his hand out to me, and I take it.
Instantly I gasp, feeling a sizzling current rush through us, and our eyes blaze as his scent suddenly heightens and I canât breathe⦠Red eyes meet teal as we stare at one another in pure shock.
âMateâ¦â Stella whispers, her voice ringing in my head as I stare at the man before me.
My heart thunders as we both stare at each other, the recognition of who we are to one another making me freeze.
The realisation has dawned on him too, and I close my eyes, feeling his scent envelop me entirely.
Goddessâ¦
Why..
âRagnar! Ragnar!â
My eyes snap open, and that intense moment is broken, and I turn to see Kayla running towards us, an elated smile on her face, clutching some papers in her hands.
Ragnar blinks, his eyes returning to normal just as she flings her arms around his neck, the impact making him take a step back before he catches her, letting go of my hand..
âIm pregnant!â She whispers, her heart thudding with excitement.
Ragnarâs eyes widen, his heart thudding as he looks at me over her shoulder.
Once again.. Iâm mated to someone who has no place for me..
I smile coldly at him, taking a step back, and then another.
Placing distance between me and the couple.
I canât help but chuckle. Iâm hurting. Once again it hurts, but this time, I canât let it get to meâ¦
Kayla pulls away as if just noticing me.
âoh, Evelyn.â
âCongratulations.â I say, as I see Adonis come towards the car.
âThank you.â Kayla says.
Ragnarâs still frozen and I wonder if itâs because of the shock of us being mated or because his beautiful wife is pregnant⦠either way⦠thereâs no place for me hereâ¦
âEnjoy playing Daddy and Alpha.â I say lightly to Ragnar, my heart thudding as I fumble for the door handle behind me and pull it open.
âEveâ¦â He trails off, as if not knowing what to say, and I donât wait, either. Getting in, I close the door behind me.
I just want to get out of hereâ¦. Fast.
I spot Evangeline and Zedkiel walking down the steps, but even as they approach and bid me farewell, I am unable to focus on anything but the fact that once again, fate has done me dirtyâ¦
I finally manage to get rid of them and shut the window.
âReady?â Adonis asks.
âReady?âI say, unable to wipe the bitter smile from my face.
Iâm going to live my life.
Fate can go f**k itself.