Chapter 59: CHAPTER 37.5: As Told by Aqua

Arma brought in a new tv, she set it up for me then they left. I laid in my bed then got up when I heard a knock. I answered the door and saw Gray and Cade. They wanted to spend time with me, so we watched a movie. I’m sure Gray was the one who wanted to spend time and dragged Cade along, so it was a little awkward but nice.

The next week I tried to get over everything that happened but there were reminders everywhere. I was able to see into the pack house and central city from here in the castle. I was using my abilities so much that they were getting better, but I was feeling sick. I constantly had headaches and the corner of my eyes bled a few times. The castle wasn’t the safe haven from the human world that it used to be for me.

“Aqua.” Arma stopped me in the hall. She frowned when she noticed dried blood in the corner of my eye and wiped it. “Are you okay?”

I shook my head. “You have to promise not to tell anyone.”

“I promise.”

“I’ve been having some side effects from using my abilities so much; headaches, blood, and nausea. I didn’t use them at all until a month and a half ago and in the last two and a half weeks I’ve been overdoing it. There’s nothing I can do about it because I have to meet the king and queens’ tasks for me every three days.” I yawned. “And my holder dreams are becoming nightmares. I’m only seeing bad stuff from the past and future. The future stuff is so vague and cryptic that I can’t interpret them. They used to be clearer.”

“You have to tell the king and queen okay? If you let them know they have to lighten your workload.” It might have been easier if they knew I was half human. “Come have lunch with us tomorrow okay? You know our usual lunchtime.” She hugged me.

The next day I did have lunch with them, but Cade was there. He already had to hangout with me for Grays’s sake, I didn’t want him to have to here too so I got up. He told me to sit back down.

After that day for the rest of the week Cade spoke to me more but I decided I wouldn’t let myself get close to anyone again. Not yet because I’d just ruin it. I stayed away from Arma and Stewart all together. “Where are you going?” Hannah asked.

“I’m going to go talk to your parents. I have some concerns.” I kept walking.

Hannah followed me. “If it was about me you’d tell me right? Or is it about Lexus? I know you miss him.”

“It’s neither but yeah I would tell you.”

“But you do miss him? I miss Lydia since were not together 24/7.” She tried to relate to me.

I stopped when we got outside their office. “You two are cute together, hopefully you can see each other more often. I do miss Lexus, but he doesn’t miss me enough to call.” I sighed.

“You’ll see Lexus again, thanks for helping me so much Aqua. You could have half assed helping me with my work since you’re obviously struggling but you’re not. I’ve been able to see Lydia so much because you’ve helped me. Not as much as I used to but daily, I just haven’t been able to ditch and see her or stay out past my curfew anymore. The guards are stricter with me now. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

I watched her walk off then knocked. The door opened and I walked in. I sat in one of the seats and explained to them that I needed my workload lightened.

“The symptoms will subside.” The Queen said. “Your body is probably just adjusting. This workload was never too much for past holders.”

“But I’m not a regular holder…” I took a deep breath. “I’m a hybrid. My mother was human and I’m half human. I can’t be counted as a regular holder.”

“What?” The Queen looked upset. “Call Konn.” She told the King, and he did. Soon my father walked into the room. “When we’re you going to tell us, your daughter is half human?”

Father closed his eyes and exhaled then opened them. “I didn’t want to burden you with the news.”

“You’re dismissed Aqua” the King said. “We’re rejecting your request.”

I left and waited outside for Konn. “What was the purpose of that Aqua? I told I wasn’t planning on telling anyone.”

“I know but-“

“I know you’ve been having a hard time but that doesn’t accomplish anything. You can have the day off tomorrow, and we can do something when I get off work how about that?”

I felt like he was treating me like a child. “Sure.”

He went back to work and I walked towards my room. “Aqua.” I started to dread hearing my own name.

When I turned around I saw Cade. “Are you free? We can go do something. I know things have been weird between us, but I think we can fix them.”

It was a nice gesture, but I didn’t feel like I had the energy for anything right now. “I’m sorry, I just want to get some sleep.”

“Oh, what about tomorrow?”

I shrugged. “I just don’t feel good.”

Cade sighed. “I’m doing everything I can right now Aqua. I’m trying to be there for you but you’re making it impossible. I know you were in love with Lexus and that he’s your true mate, but you weren’t the only one hurt. Maybe I needed you there for me. It’s been three weeks and you can’t keep playing the victim. You know you’re a lot like Vella in that way. You’re supposed to be my sister but when have you acted like it? I was so excited to have a younger sister but-“ He scoffed. “I’ll see you whenever you’re ready to join the real world again and gain empathy.”

I stood there in shock. I didn’t expect him to say any of that. So… I left. I left in an attempt to save myself. If I stayed then the king and queen would work me to death, and I’d watch the relationships around me crash down because of my mental state.