Chapter 58: CHAPTER 37.0: As Told by Aqua

Aqua’s POV When Lexus hung up after I called him I didn’t know what to do anymore. I wasn’t sure when I’d see him again since he didn’t know how long we shouldn’t be in contact for.

The next day I was called into the king and queens office with my father and Hannah. “We’ve decided that Hannah is going to take over Lexus’ responsibilities.”

Hannah’s eyes widened in excitement. “Really? I’m going to rule?”

The Queen sighed. “Not exactly but you are back up because we’re not 100% sure about Lexus anymore. You’ll have stricter studies surrounding preparations to possibly become queen. You’ll have Lexus’ workload and Aqua is now you’re aid. We’ll have to think over whether or not we want Lexus to return as heir,” She explained.

The king spoke next, “This means no more sneaking off. If we can’t count on you any more than Lexus there’s no point in you replacing him.”

Hannah nodded. “I understand, I’ll be on my best behavior.”

“You’re dismissed Hannah,” The king said, and Hannah left. “Aqua, we trust you have no contact with Prince Lexus.”

I nodded. “None at all.” I wish that weren’t true.

The queen stood up. “Good, we have a few tasks for you.” She handed me a piece of paper with a list on it. They were all tasks that required me to use my abilities.

“When you’re done write a report on the results on each task. We expect everything to be done in three days.” It seemed like a short time for all of these tasks, but I didn’t complain.

When we were dismissed Konn stopped me in the hall. “How are you holding up?” He asked.

I shrugged. “It’s only been couple days… I feel really bad about Sadia and Cade, even Lexus. I know how others are looking at me.”

Father put his hand on my shoulder for comfort. “I know how it feels, I got the same looks, it’ll pass okay?”

I got up early for the first day of working with Hannah. It was hard to sleep anyways. Sadia’s words ran through my head keeping me awake. “Did you get any sleep?” Hannah asked.

I shrugged. “Sort of. Don’t worry, I’ll be fine to work.”

“I heard about what you did with Lexus. Everyone in the castle knows but you probably know that. I’m not going to hold it against you, everyone has their reason for doing terrible things.”

I escorted her to her first class then went to mine. It wasn’t as exciting as usually. I used to love learning about this kingdom but now It bored me. When I was drone I escorted Hannah to her second class. After I met with her again. “Ugh these classes are longer than my last, if you don’t mind I’m going to take a break, a long break.”

I frowned. “Come on Hannah, you can’t skip. Don’t you want to prove to them that you’d be a better heir? They’re going to know you ditched even if I don’t tell them.”

Hannah sighed. “You’re right, you’re right.”

I took her to her last class and went to mine. After our last classes we went to the great hall to great hall to eat but I didn’t feel like eating so I had nothing. I helped her with work like I would Lexus and she caught on fast. For the rest of the week, we had the same routine. My appetite got worse and my sleep.

I’d have holder dreams of the past and they were usually of when Cade and Sadia found out. I relived the moment over and over again.

I finally built up the courage to talk to my brother, but Cade ended up asking me if I knew about Vella and Lexus and I did so I told him I did. He didn’t respond but I know it hurt him. If he wasn’t avoiding me before then now he really was.

I stared at my phone for an order wanting to call Sadia. I wanted to apologize but I don’t think that’s what she needed from me. I missed Sadia more than I thought. I missed Sadia, Cade, and Lexus.

The next week It was hard to keep up with how much I had to use my third eye. They knew through the oracle who taught me that I could see further now. They requested me to look throughout the castle and as far past it as I could daily to make sure everything was going according. They had me spy on the pack house which I hated because I’d always see Sadia. She seemed happy with younger members of the pack house and Cade. It hurt me to have to see her but not speak with it. It was messing with me mentally. I even saw Calvin and was reminded of how I led him on. I’m sure he knew what happened. Daily I felt reminded of the worse thing I’ve ever done, hurt Sadia and other people around me.

When things started showing up on the news I couldn’t take it. I had a meltdown and threw my desk’s chair at the tv shattering it. My door wasn’t locked so I looked as Arma walked in. “Are you okay I hear-“

She stopped when she noticed the glass shattered around me and the chair on it’s back with the tv that used to hang on top of it. Shards of glass had even shot at me. Arma started picking out the small shards and hugged me. “Hey it’s okay Aqua.”

I couldn’t cry yet, I just felt empty. “It’s not… I’m a terrible person Arma, you should just see me the way you see Vella.”

“Well, you can call me biased if you want.” She chuckled. “There are a ton of things that set you apart from Vella.”

“What are they? Because I can’t think of any.”

“Well, you actually feel remorse. Sure, Vella said she was guilty, but I think that was more fear of getting caught. You care about the people you hurt. She only came clean to get back at Lexus for getting off with consequences.”

“She only did it once… I was doing it for a couple weeks.”

“It’s not like she wouldn’t have. I heard someone overheard her at or near the bar calling Lexus to hook up again, but he rejected her. I’m not saying you’re all that much better but enough for me to want to comfort you. Plus, she lashed out at me when I told Cade.” She helped me up and pulled me to my bed. “I’m going to get Stewart to clean this then get another tv moved in here okay?”

I nodded and watched her leave. I hadn’t spoken to Arma or Stewart in the past two weeks because I was afraid they hated me after what I did. Stewart came in and started cleaning, he didn’t ask what happened. Usually, he was quick to want to know anything dramatic, but he was being considerate. “I had a meltdown.” I pulled my knees to my chest and tears ran down my cheek. I felt comfortable telling Stewart since he had mental disabilities too.

“Yeah I’ve been there.” Stewart said. When he was done he hugged me. “You don’t have to suffer alone Aqua.”