To them?
I pulled back, my gaze locking with Casteelâs. He nodded, and I rose on shaky legs, looking over the now-silent garden. My gaze crept over slender, crystal wind chimes that hung from delicate branches, and yellow and white coneflowers as tall as me. My lips parted on a soft inhale. Nearly a dozen people had gathered inside the gardenânot including the wolven. All of them had lowered to one knee, their heads bowed. I turned to where Kieran had stood.
My breath caught. He too kneeled. I stared at his bent head and then lifted my gaze to see that the Healer, who hadnât believed I could help, who had been angry that I was giving the parents false hope, had bowed, as well, one hand flat to his chest and the other against the ground. Beyond him and the iron fence, those who had been in the streets no longer stood. They kneeled, too, their hands pressed to their breasts and their palms against the ground.
Curling a hand against my stomach, I turned back to Casteel. Our gazes met and held as he shifted onto one knee, placing his right hand over his heart and his left on the ground.
The gestureâ¦I recognized it. It was a variation of what the wolven had done when I arrived in Saionâs Cove. But Iâd seen it before, I realized. The Priests and Priestesses would do it when they first entered the Temples in Solis, acknowledging that they were in the presence of the gods.
You are a goddess.
My heart tripped over itself as I stared at Casteel. I wasnât aâ¦
I couldnât even force my brain to finish that thought because I had no idea what I was. No one did. And as my gaze fell to where the little girl was still held tightly by her mother and now her father, as well, Iâ¦I couldnât disregard that possibility, even as impossible as it seemed.
âMomma.â The girlâs voice drew my gaze. She had wrapped her arms around her motherâs neck as her father held them, kissing the top of his daughterâs head and then the motherâs. âI was dreaming.â
âYou were?â The motherâs eyes were squeezed shut, but tears streaked her cheeks.
âThere was a lady, Momma.â The little girl snuggled closer to her mother. âShe hadâ¦â Her words were muffled, but what she said next was clear. âShe said I-I always had the power in meâ¦â
You always had the power in youâ¦
Those words were oddly familiar. It felt like I had heard them before, but I couldnât place them or remember whoâd spoken them.
Casteel rose, and in a daze, I watched him walk toward me, his steps full of fluid grace. If someone said he was a god, I wouldnât question it for a second.
He stopped in front of me, and my chaotic senses fixed on him. The breath I took was full of spice and smoke, warming my blood. âPoppy,â he said, his tone full of heat. His thumb slid over the scar on my cheek. âYour eyes are as bright as the moon.â
I blinked. âAre they still that way?â
His grin spread, and one dimple hinted at making an appearance. âYes.â
I didnât know what was said to the others, but I did know that he spoke to them with the calm confidence of someone whoâd spent their entire life in a place of authority. All I was aware of was him steering me around people, past the man whoâd been in such a panic but now just rested on his knees, staring up at me as his lips moved, forming words over and over. Thank you.
The wolven were once again beside us as we left the garden. The people on the cobblestone sidewalk and in the street were still there. They had risen and stood as if transfixed, and they all seemed to share the same bubbling, sparking emotion. Excitement and awe as they watched Casteel and Iâwatched me.
Instead of taking me to where Setti waited, Casteel looked at Kieran. He didnât speak, and again, I was amazed at how they seemed to communicate or know each other so well that words werenât necessary.
They werenât now because a slow grin ticked across Kieranâs face as he said, âWeâll wait for you here.â
âThank you,â Casteel replied, his hand firmly wrapped around mine, and then he said nothing as he turned me around and started walking.
I followed, my shock from what had just happened giving way to curiosity as he led me a few yards down the street, Casteel seemingly unaware of the wide-eyed stares, the murmurs, and the hasty bows. I wasnât all that aware of it, either, unable to feel much past the thickening, spicy taste in my mouth, and the tension growing low in the pit of my stomach.
He led me under a sand-colored archway and into a narrow alley that smelled of apples and was lined with urns overflowing with leafy ferns. Gauzy curtains danced from the open windows above as he led me farther into the passageway. The soft melody of music drifted out from above us, the deeper in we went. He made a sharp right, and through another archway was a small courtyard. Wooden beams stretched across from building to building. Baskets of trailing flowers dangled, the array of colors creating a canopy that only allowed thin fragments of sunlight through. Vine-covered trellises created a privacy hedge around hundreds and hundreds of delicate white-petaled flowers.
âThis garden is beautiful,â I said, starting toward one of the fragile white blossoms.
âI really donât give a fuck about the garden.â Casteel stopped me, pulling me into a shadow-heavy alcove.
My eyes widened, but before I could respond, he turned, pressing me back against the stone wall. In the dim lights, his eyes were a luminous, churning honey color. âYou know, donât you?â Casteel folded his hand behind my head as he leaned into me. Against my stomach, I could feel the hard, thick length of him as he brushed his lips across my temple. âWhat you did back there?â
Soaking up his lush, piney scent and his warmth, I let my eyes drift shut as I clutched his sides, swords and all. âI healed her.â
He kissed my cheek, right along the scar, and then drew back. His eyes met mine, and I swore a fine tremor coursed through his body. âYou know thatâs not what you did,â he said. âYou brought that girl back to life.â
The breath I took seized in my throat as I opened my eyes. âThatâs not possible.â
âIt shouldnât be,â he agreed, sliding a hand over my bare arm and then across my chest. A curl low in my stomach made itself known as his palm grazed my breast. âNot for a mortal. Not for an Atlantian, or even a deity.â His hand slipped over my hip and then my thigh. I could feel the heat of his palm through the dress as he skimmed past the wolven dagger. âOnly a god can do thatâonly one god.â
âNyktos.â I bit down on my lip as his fingers gathered the material of the gown in a fist. âIâm not Nyktos.â
âNo shit,â he said against my mouth.
âYour language is inappropriate,â I told him.
He laughed darkly. âYou going to deny what you did?â
âNo,â I whispered, my heart skipping. âI donât understand how, and I donât know if her soul had truly entered the Vale, but sheâ¦â
âShe was gone.â He nipped at my lower lip, drawing a gasp from me. âAnd you brought her back because you tried. Because you refused to give up. You did that, Poppy. And because of you, those parents wonât be mourning their child tonight. Theyâll be watching her fall asleep.â
âIâ¦I just did what I could,â I told him. âThatâs allââ
The sheer intensity of the way he claimed my lips cut off my words. That low curl in my stomach intensified as he tilted his head, deepening the kiss.
Balmy air curled its way around my legs as he drew the skirt of my gown up. Shock at his intentions warred with the elicit pulse of pleasure. âWeâre in public.â
âNot really.â The tips of his fangs grazed the underside of my jaw, and every muscle in my body seemed to clench. Up and up it went until his fingers skimmed the curve of my ass. âThis is a private garden.â
âThere are people aroundââ A breathy moan escaped me as the skirt rose above the dagger. âSomewhere.â
âNo one is even remotely close enough to us,â he said, slipping his hand out from behind my head. âThe wolven made sure of that.â
âI donât see them,â I said.
âTheyâre at the mouth of the alley,â he told me, catching my ear between his teeth. I shuddered. âTheyâre giving us privacy to speak.â
A short giggle left me. âIâm sure thatâs what they think weâre doing.â
âDoes it matter?â he questioned.
I thought about that as my pulse sped up. Did it? What had happened last night flashed before me, as did the memory of seeing Casteel prone on the Chambersâ floor. Believing heâd died. In a heartbeat, I remembered what it had been like when the blood had drained from my body, realizing there would be no more new experiences, no more moments of wild abandon. That little girl had gotten a second chance, and so had I.
I wouldnât waste it.
âNo,â I said as his gaze lifted to mine. Heart pounding, I reached between us. The backs of my trembling fingers brushed against him, and he jerked as I undid the flap of buttons. âIt doesnât.â
âThank fuck,â he growled and then kissed me again, obliterating any reservations that stemmed from a lifetime of being sheltered. His tongue stroked mine as he slid an arm around my waist, lifting me. His strength never ceased to send a thrill through me. âWrap your legs around me.â
I did, moaning at the feel of his hard flesh nestled against mine.
He reached between us, and I felt the tip of him pressing into me. âJust so you knowââhe raised his head, his gaze locking with mineââIâm completely in control.â
âAre you?â
âTotally,â he swore, thrusting into me.
My head pushed back against the wall as the feel of him, hot and thick, consumed me. His mouth closed over mine, and I loved the way he kissed me, like my very taste was enough for him to live on.
He moved against me and in me, the twin warmth of his body and the stone blocks at my back a delicious assault on my senses. The thrusts of our tongues matched the slow plunge of his hips. Thingsâ¦things didnât stay that way. Wedging his arm between my back and the wall, he rocked against me until my body became a fire he fanned with each stroke and each intoxicating kiss. He pressed in, grinding against the small bundle of nerves, only to pull back and then return with another deep thrust. When he started to retreat, I tightened my legs around his waist, locking me to him.
He chuckled against my lips. âGreedy.â
âTease,â I said, mimicking his earlier act by catching his lip with my teeth.
âFuck,â he groaned, shifting his hips as he ground into me, over and over, the movements increasing in intensity until they became feverish, until it felt like I would break apart. My head spun as the bliss built. He felt like he was everywhere, and when he dropped his mouth to my throat, and I felt the scrape of his fangs, it was all too much. Spasms rocked my body in tight, slick waves, throwing me so high, I didnât think Iâd ever come down as he followed me into that bliss, shuddering as my throat muffled his deep moan of release.
We stayed like that for a little bit, joined together, and both struggling to gain control of our breathing. Shaken, it took quite a few minutes for me to come to my senses while he eased himself from me and carefully lowered me to my feet.
With his arm holding me tightly against him, Casteel looked over his shoulder. âYou know what? It is a beautiful garden.â
Casteel and I walked hand and hand through the city on the coast of the Seas of Saion, the sun and salty breeze warm against our skin as we stepped out of the seamstress shop, where a Miss Seleana quickly took my measurements. We werenât alone. Kieran walked on the other side of me, and Delano, along with four other wolven, followed as Casteel took me through the winding, colorful streets full of storefronts painted in yellows and greens, and homes that boasted vivid blue front doors. An orange poppy blossom was tucked in my hair, one Casteel had paid nearly triple for, even though the street vendor tried to give us a dozen for free. Our hands were sticky from the cinnamon pastries we had been given a few blocks from the florist, in front of a shop that smelled like all things sugar and was painted to match the dewy grass. And there was a smile plastered to my face that not even the brief bursts of distrust radiating on and off throughout the afternoon could erase. I only seemed to sense the cautious emotion from the mortal inhabitants and a few of the Atlantians with graying hair. Those were few and far between. Otherwise, all I felt was curiosity and surprise. No one, not even those who bowed with a sense of wariness, was rude or threatening. That couldâve been because of Casteel, Kieran, and the wolven. It couldâve also been the Guards of the Crown, dressed in white that we spotted shortly before picking up the flower, their presence evidence that Casteelâs parents knew we moved about the city.
Or it couldâve been what they had heard about meâabout what I was capable of.
Either way, I honestly couldnât give a fig. I was enjoying myself despite the unanswered questions, the shadow of the Unseen lingering over us, what Iâd done for the girl in the garden, and everything that needed to be decided and done.
When Casteel had asked if I wanted to take a walk through the city, Iâd hesitated. We needed to speak with his parents. Not only did we owe them that, but there was also the possibility that they held some of the answers to the questions we had. But Casteel had kissed me and said, âWe have tomorrow, Poppy, and we have right now. You get to decide how you want to spend it.â
I wanted those answers. I wanted to somehow ensure that his parents didnâtâ¦well, think I was a threat. But with my muscles still lax and my blood still warm from those wicked moments in the alcove, Iâd decided I wanted to spend right now exploring. Enjoying myself. Living.
And so, that was what we did.
We were steadily walking toward the lower part of the city and the glistening beaches, past buildings with outdoor dining tables packed with people chatting and sharing food. Kieran had called them cafés, and I knew places like that existed in Solis, but Iâd only ever seen them in Masadonia, and from a distance. Iâd never been inside one.
Having just experienced an icy treat made of crushed ice and fruit, we didnât venture into any of the cafés.
Casteel stopped when we came upon a squat, windowless building, though, tugging me to the side. Stone benches sat between the pillars of a wide colonnade. âDidnât you say you were interested in museums?â
Surprise flickered through me. On our journey to Skotos when we left Spessaâs End, Iâd mentioned to Delano and Naill when they talked about the different conservatories in Atlantia, that Iâd never been allowed to enter one in Solis. I hadnât realized that Casteel had been paying attention, nor did I expect him to remember something Iâd forgotten.
I nodded as I resisted the urge to wrap my arms around him like one of the furry little creatures that hung from the trees by their tails in the forests near the Elysium Peaks. I didnât think Casteel would mind, but Kieran would probably sigh.
âWould you like to go inside?â Casteel asked.
âI would.â Eager to see some of Atlantiaâs history, I managed to proceed up the steps beside Casteel and Kieran, moving at a sedate pace.
The inside was dimly lit and a bit stagnant, smelling faintly of camphor. As we passed a limestone sculpture of one of the goddesses, Kieran explained that there were no windows, so the light didnât fade the paintings or stones.
And there were a lot of paintings of the godsâboth of them together and individually. It was easy to pick out the ones depicting Nyktos since his face was always obscured by either glowing light, or his features were simply not rendered in detail.
âRemember what I told you about how he was depicted with a wolf?â Kieran said, drawing my gaze to a painting of the King of Gods standing beside a tall, grayish-black wolf.
âThis represents his relationship with the wolven?â
Kieran nodded. There were many like that, even small sculptures of Nyktos with a wolven by his side. And farther down the long wall was a sketch with a white wolf drawn behind him, symbolizing his ability to take the shape of a wolf.
âI wonder what is in the museums in Solis,â I said as we stopped before a painting of the Goddess Ione, cradling a swaddled infant. âDo they have paintings like this? Did they copy them?â
âIs it true that only the upper class could enter the museums?â Kieran asked.
I nodded, stomach souring. âYes. Only the wealthy and the Ascended. And so very few mortals are wealthy.â
âThat is an archaic and brutal caste system.â Casteelâs eyes narrowed upon a landscape of what appeared to be Saionâs Cove. âOne purely designed to create and strengthen oppression.â
âBy creating a gap between those who have access to all the resources, and those who have access to none,â I said, my chest becoming heavy. âAnd Atlantia is really not like that? Not even a little?â The last bit I asked of Kieran, as I thought of those who needed to be reminded of who the wolven were.
âWe are not like that,â he said. âAtlantia has never been that way.â
âThat doesnât mean that weâve been perfect.â Casteelâs hand threaded through my hair. âThere has been strife, but the Council of Elders was formed to prevent anyone from making a choice or decision that could jeopardize the people of Atlantia. That doesnât mean the Crown doesnât have ultimate authority,â he explained. âBut the Council has a say, and it would be very unwise for their opinions to go unheard. It has only happened twice before, and the end results were not favorable.â
âWhen Malec Ascended Isbeth, and the others started following suit?â I surmised.
Casteel nodded. âThe Council was against allowing it to occur, having the opinion that Malec should apologize, make what he did right, and forbid future Ascensions.â
âAnd what do you mean by make things right?â I had a sinking feeling I already knew.
âHe was advised to rid himself of Isbeth, one way or another,â he said. âHe did none of those things.â
âAnd so, here we are,â Kieran murmured.
I swallowed. âAnd what of the other time?â
A thoughtful expression pinched Casteelâs features. âIt was back before Malec ruled, when there were other deities. The Council was started then, when the bloodlines began to outnumber the deities. The Council suggested that it was time for the crown to sit upon the head of one of the bloodlines. That was also ignored.â
Alastir hadnât mentioned that in his cruddy history lesson. If they had listened to the Council, would the deities have survived?
A couple with two young children hastily bowed as we rounded a corner. Their shock at seeing us was evident in their widened eyes. As Casteel and Kieran greeted them with a smile and words of hello, I saw that they were most likely mortal. I followed suit with the greeting, hoping I didnât come across as stiff.
Moving onto a case containing what appeared to be some sort of clay vase, I said, âCan I ask you two a question and have you give me an honest response?â
âCanât wait to hear what this will be,â Kieran murmured while Casteel nodded.
I shot the wolven a dark look. âDo I seem awkward when I meet people?â I could feel warmth suffusing my cheeks. âLike back there, when I said hello? Did it sound right?â
âYou sounded like anyone saying hello.â Casteel lifted a hand, tucking a strand of hair back from my face. âIf anything, you seem a little shy, not awkward.â
âReally?â I asked hopefully. âBecause Iâ¦well, Iâm not used to actually interacting with people. In Solis, people didnât really acknowledge me unless it was in a situation where it was allowed. So I feel weird, like Iâm doing it wrong.â
âYouâre not doing it wrong, Poppy.â The lines of Kieranâs face softened. âYou sound fine.â
Casteel dropped a quick kiss to the bridge of my nose. âWe swear.â
Kieran nodded.
Feeling a little better after hearing that, we continued on. If I were to become Queen, I supposed Iâd have to get over these annoying insecurities.
Unsure of how that would happen, we slowly made our way past paintings and statues, many depicting the gods or fantastical cities that stretched into the clouds. Casteel claimed those were the cities in Iliseeum. They were all beautiful, but I stopped in front of a charcoal drawing. Some of it had faded, but it was clearly a sketch of a man seated upon a large throne. The lack of features told me it was Nyktos who sat there, but it was what sat at his feet that snagged my attentionâand held it. Two extraordinarily large felines rested before him, their heads tilted in his direction. My eyes narrowed as I cocked my head to the side.
âThis is a really old drawing,â Casteel said as he idly ran his hand up and down my back. âSupposedly drawn by one of the deities.â
It took me a moment to realize what those sketched cats reminded me of. âAre they cave cats?â
âI donât think so,â Kieran answered as he stared up at the drawing.
âThey look like them,â I said. âI saw one of them onceâ¦â I frowned as the dream Iâd had while in the crypts resurfaced. âOr maybe more than once.â
Casteel glanced down at me. âWhere did you see one? In a painting or drawing like this?â
âNo.â I shook my head. âThere was one caged in the castle at Carsodonia.â
Kieranâs brows lifted. âI donât think thatâs what you saw.â
âI saw a cat as large as you are in your wolven form,â I told him. âIan saw it, too.â
He shook his head. âThatâs impossible, Poppy. Cave cats have been extinct for at least a couple of hundred years.â
âWhat? No.â I looked between them. Casteel nodded. âThey roam the Wastelands.â
âWho told you that?â Casteel asked.
âNo one told me that. Itâs justâ¦â I trailed off, my gaze returning to the drawing. It was something that was just known. But in reality, it was the Ascended who had said as much. The Queen had told me that when I asked about the creature Iâd seen in the castle. âWhy would they lie about something like that?â
Kieran snorted. âWho knows? Why have they erased entire gods and created ones that donât exist like Perus? I think they just like to make things up,â he counteredâand he had a good point.
I stared at the two cats. âThen what was in that cage?â
âPossibly another large wild cat,â Casteel answered with a shrug. âBut I think these two felines are supposed to symbolize the children of Nyktos and his Consort.â
âWhen you say children, are you talking about Theon or all the gods?â I asked.
âHis actual children,â Casteel confirmed. âAnd Theon was never his actual son. Thatâs another thing the Ascended either lied about or they simply misunderstood due to his many titles.â
It was very possible it was a mistranslation. I stared at them, thinking how one of them was responsible for Malec. âCould they shift into cats?â
âNot sure,â Kieran said. âNothing that I remember reading ever said as much, and I donât believe Nyktosâs ability to shift was something passed on to his children.â
Of course, not. âWhat are their names?â
âLike with his Consort,â Casteel said, âthey are not known. Not even their genders.â
I raised a brow. âLet me guess, Nyktos was just super-protective of their identities?â
Casteel smirked. âThatâs what they say.â
âSounds like he was super controlling,â I muttered.
âOr maybe just really private,â Kieran suggested as he reached over and tugged gently on the strand of hair Casteel had tucked back earlier. âBeing the King of Gods, Iâm sure he sought privacy wherever he could.â
Maybe.
As we continued on through the museum, it was hard not to think back on that painting or the creature Iâd seen in that cage when I was a child. I remembered the way the animal had prowled in its confines, desperate, and with a keen intelligence in its eyes.