âNo, we are not. Weâre nothing like them.â I stop him. I donât want anyone else getting into his head, not tonight.
Hardin doesnât look convinced, but I force myself not to focus on that right now.
âWhat do you want me to do about your dad? Kick him out?â he asks. He moves to sit on the bed with his back against the headboard while I grab his dirty jeans and socks from the floor. Hardinâs arms lift to rest behind his head, fully displaying his toned, inked body.
âNo, donât kick him out. Please.â I crawl into bed, and he pulls me onto his lap.
âI wonât,â he assures me. âNot tonight, at least.â I look up for a smile, but there isnât one.
âIâm so confused,â I groan into his chest.
âI can help with that.â He lifts his pelvis, and lâm forced forward, using my palms to steady myself against his exposed chest.
I roll my eyes. âOf course you can. Every problem looks like a nail when your first tool of choice is a hammer.â
He smiles wickedly. âAre you saying you need to get nailed?â
Before I can bemoan his bad joke, he takes my chin between his long, busted fingers, and I find myself shifting my hips, rubbing against him. Iâm vaguely aware of my period; I know Hardin certainly doesnât mind it.
âYou need sleep, baby; it would be wrong to fuck you right now,â he says softly.
I shamelessly pout. âNo, it wouldnât,â I say and slide my palms down his stomach.
âOh no, you donât.â He stops me.
I need a distraction, and Hardin is the perfect fix. âYou started it,â I whine. I sound desperate, because I am.
âI know, and Iâm sorry for that. Iâll take you in the car tomorrow.â His fingers slip under the sweatshirt and begin to draw unknown shapes across my bare back. âAnd if youâre a good girl, Iâll even bend you over the desk at my fatherâs house, just the way you like,â he says into my ear.
My breathing hitches, and I playfully swat at him, and he laughs. His laugh is almost as distracting as sex would be. Almost.
âBesides, we donât want to make a mess in here tonight, do we? With your father out there? Heâll probably see the blood on the sheets and assume Iâve killed you.â He bites the inside of his cheek.
âDo not start that,â I warn him. His cheesy menstrual jokes are not welcome right now.
âAhh, baby, donât be like that.â He pinches my behind, and I yelp, sliding further into his lap, âGo with the flow.â He grins.
âYouâve used that one before.â I smile back.
âWell, excuse me for not being original. I like to recycle my jokes about once a month.â
I groan and try to roll off him, but he stops me and nuzzles my neck.
âYouâre disgusting,â I say.
âYeah, Iâm just an old bloody rag, I suppose.â He laughs and presses his lips to mine.
I roll my eyes. âSpeaking of bloody rags, let me see your hand.â I reach behind my back and gently grab him by the wrist. His middle finger is the worst, a thick gash spreads from knuckle to knuckle. âYou should get this looked at, if it doesnât begin to heal tomorrow.â
âIâm fine.â
âThis one, too.â I run the pad of my index finger over the mangled skin on his ring finger.
âStop fussing, woman, go to sleep,â he grumbles.
I nod in agreement and drift off to the sound of him complaining about my father eating his Frosted Flakes again.
Chapter one hundred and twenty-five
TESSA
I lay in bed for over two hours, waiting patiently for Hardin to wake up, before I gave up. By the time Iâve showered and am fully dressed, the kitchen is cleaned, and Iâve taken two ibuprofen to get rid of my cramps and massive headache. I make my way back to the bedroom to wake him up myself.
I gently shake his arm and whisper his name. It doesnât work.
âHardin, wake up.â I roughly grip his shoulder and recoil when the vision of my mother ripping my fatherâs slumbering body off of the couch flashes into my mind. All morning Iâve been avoiding thoughts of my mother and the heartbreaking history lesson I was given last night. My father is still asleep; I imagine that her short visit has worn him out as well.
âNo,â he grumbles sleepily.
âIf you wonât get up, then Iâll be going to your fatherâs house alone,â I say, slipping my feet into my flat shoes. I have many pairs of Toms, but I always find myself wearing the tan crocheted ones the most. Hardin calls them âhideous moccasins,â but I love the comfortable shoes.
He groans and rolls over onto his stomach, pushing himself up onto his elbows. His eyes are still closed when he turns his head to me. âNo, you wonât.â
I knew he wouldnât like that idea, which is precisely why I used it to get his behind out of the bed.
âGet up, then. Iâve already showered and everything,â I whine. Iâm anxious to get to Landonâs house and see him, Ken, and Karen again. It feels like ages since I last saw that sweet woman in the strawberry-print apron that she hardly ever removes.
âDammit.â Hardin pouts, opening one eye. I stifle a giggle at the lazy expression covering his face. Iâm tired, too, mentally and physically drained, but the idea of getting out of this apartment for the day has perked me up tremendously.
âCome here first.â He opens the other eye and reaches out for me. The moment Iâm beside him on the bed, he rolls his heavy body on top of mine, encasing me in his warmth. He purposely rubs his hardness against me, grinding his hips until heâs perfectly nestled between my thighs, his morning erection pressing torturously into me.