âI said I donât want to talk about it anymore. Iâve already had a shitty day, and this is too much. I get it; you regret leaving us and all that shit. Iâm over it,â I lie, and he nods. Itâs not a full-on lie, really. Iâm much closer to being over it than Iâve ever been before.
When I reach the door, a thought pops into my mind, and I turn around to face him. âMy mumâs getting married. Did you know that?â I ask out of curiosity.
From his blank stare and the way his brows lower, itâs clear that he had no fucking clue.
âTo Mike . . . you know, the neighbor guy?â
âOh.â He frowns.
âIn two weeks.â
âThat soon?â
âYeah.â I nod. âIs that a problem or something?â
âNo, not at all. Iâm just a little surprised, thatâs all.â
âYeah; me, too.â I lean my shoulder against the doorframe and watch as my fatherâs expression transforms from sullen to relieved.
âWill you be attending?â
âNo.â
Ken Scott rises to his feet and walks around his massive desk to stand in front of me. I have to admit, Iâm slightly intimidated. Not by him, of course, but by the raw emotion in his eyes when he says, âYou have to go, Hardin. It will break her heart if you donât. Especially because she knows that you attended my wedding to Karen.â
âYeah, well, we both know why I attended yours. I didnât have a choice, and your wedding wasnât halfway across the damn planet.â
âIt might as well have been, given how we never really talked. You have to go. Tessa knows about it?â
Fuck. I hadnât considered this.
âNo, and you donât need to tell her either. Or Landon; he wonât keep his mouth shut if he knows.â
âIs there a reason that youâre hiding it from her?â he asks, judgment filling his voice.
âItâs not that Iâm hiding it. I just donât want her to worry about going. She doesnât even have a passport. Sheâs never even left the state of Washington.â
âYou know sheâll want to go. Tessa loves England.â
âSheâs never even been there!â I raise my voice and take a deep breath in an attempt to calm myself down. It drives me insane the way he acts as if sheâs his own daughter, as if he knows her better than I do.
âI wonât say anything,â he says, raising his hands slightly as if to placate me.
Iâm glad he doesnât press the topic. Iâve done enough talking already, and Iâm fucking exhausted. I got absolutely no sleep last night after I got off of the phone with Tessa. My nightmares came back full fucking force, and I made myself stay awake after I woke up dry-heaving for the third time.
âYou should go by and see Karen soon. She was asking about you last night,â he says just before I walk out of his office.
âUm, yeah,â I mumble and close the door behind me.
Chapter one hundred and nine
TESSA
In class, the guy Iâve determined is a future politician leans over and whispers to me, âWho did you vote for in the election?â
I feel slightly uncomfortable around my new classmate. Heâs charming, too charming, and his dressy clothes and brown skin make for a very distracting sight. Heâs not attractive in the same way that Hardin is, but heâs certainly attractive, and he knows it.
âI didnât,â I reply. âI wasnât old enough to vote.â
He laughs. âRight.â
I didnât really want to talk with him, but in the last few minutes of class our professor instructed us to talk among ourselves while he took a phone call. Iâm relieved when the clock strikes ten and itâs time to go.
The future politicianâs attempt to continue making small talk with me as we exit the classroom fails miserably, and after a few seconds he dismisses himself and walks the other way.
Iâve been distracted all morning. I havenât been able to stop thinking about what Steph must have said to Hardin to get him so worked up. I know he believed me about the rumors about Zed, but whatever else it was that she said to him bothered him enough that he didnât want to repeat it.
I hate Steph. I hate her for what she did to me and for getting into Hardinâs head and hurting himâby using me, in a way. By the time I make it to my art history class, Iâve planned ten different scenarios of how to murder that horrible girl in my mind.
I sit next to Michael, the blue-haired boy from the first class with the good sense of humor, and spend the entire hour of art history laughing at his jokes, which is a good distraction from my homicidal thoughts.
At last the dayâs over, and Iâm heading to my car. Right as I reach it and start to climb in, my phone starts vibrating. I expect it to be Hardin, but looking down, I see itâs not. I have three text messages, two of which just showed up.
I decide to read my motherâs first: Call me. We need to talk.
Next is Zedâs. I take a deep breath before pressing the small envelope-shaped button. Iâll be in Seattle Thurs-Sat. Let me know when youâre free :)
I rub my temples, grateful that I saved Kimberlyâs message for last. Nothing she has to say could possibly be as stressful as telling Zed that I take back my offer of seeing him or having a conversation with my mother. Did you know Loverboy is going to London next weekend?
I spoke too soon.
England? Why would Hardin be going to England? Is he moving there after he graduates? I reread her text message . . .
Next weekend!