I think, maybe, if I continue to not be a fuckup during the week, Iâll be rewarded with times like this every weekend, and thatâs enough for me to hold on to until she can see how devoted I am to improving myself for her.
âHOW MANY TIMES are you going to call me?â I bark through the line. My phone has been buzzing all night and morning with my mumâs name flashing on the screen. Tessa keeps waking up and, in turn, waking me up. I swear I put the damn thing on silent the last time.
âYou should have answered! I have something important to talk to you about.â Her voice is soft, and I canât remember the last time I spoke to her.
âGet to it, then,â I groan and instinctively lean up to turn the lamp on. The light from the small lamp is much too bright for this early hour, so I tug the string and return the room to its original state of darkness.
âWell, here goes . . .â She lets out a deep breath. âMike and I are going to be married.â She squeals into the phone, and I move the device from my ear for a moment to save my hearing.
âOkay . . .â I say, expecting more.
âArenât you surprised?â she questions, obviously disappointed in my reaction.
âHe told me he was going to ask you, and I figured youâd say yes. What is there to be surprised about?â
âHe told you?â
âYeah,â I say, looking at the dark, rectangular shapes of some photos hanging on the wall.
âWell, what do you think about it?â
âDoes it matter?â I ask her.
âOf course it matters, Hardin.â My mum sighs, and I sit up fully. Tessa stirs in her sleep and reaches for me.
âI donât care either way. I was a little surprised, but what do I care if you get married?â I whisper, wrapping my legs around Tessaâs smooth legs.
âIâm not asking for your permission. I just wanted to see how you felt about the whole thing so I could tell you the reason Iâve been calling you all morning.â
âIâm fine with it, now tell me.â
âAs you know, Mike thought it would be a good idea to sell the house.â
âAnd?â
âWell, itâs sold. The new owners wonât be moving in until next month, until after the wedding.â
âNext month?â I rub my temples with my index finger. I knew I shouldnât have picked up the damn phone this early.
âWe were going to wait until next year, but neither of us is getting any younger, and with Mikeâs son going off to university, thereâs no better time than now. It should start warming up in the next few months, but we donât want to wait. It may be chilly, but it wonât be unbearable. Youâll come, wonât you? And bring Tessa?â
âSo the wedding is next month, or in two weeks?â My brain doesnât function this fucking early.
âTwo weeks!â she responds with glee.
âI donât think I can . . .â I trail off. Itâs not that I donât want to join the joyous festivities of a requited love and all that shit, but I donât want to go all the way to England, and I know Tessa isnât going to come along on such short notice, especially given the state of our relationship right now.
âWhy not? Iâll ask her myself if Iââ
âNo, you wonât.â I cut her off. Realizing that Iâm being a little harsh, I backtrack. âShe doesnât even have a passport.â Itâs an excuse, but a truthful one.
âShe can get one within two weeks if they expedite it.â
I sigh. âI donât know, Mum, give me a little time to think about it. Itâs seven in the damn morning.â I groan and end the call, then realize I didnât even say congratulations. Fuck. Well, itâs not like she expected it from me necessarily.
From down the hall, I hear someone scavenging through fucking cabinets. I pull the thick duvet over my head to drown out the noise of slamming and the obnoxious beeping of a dishwasher, but the noises donât abate. The cacophony continues until I guess I just fall asleep in spite of it.
Chapter one hundred and four
HARDIN
Itâs a little past eight, and I can see through the living room to the kitchen, where Tessa is fully dressed, eating breakfast with Kimberly.
Shit, itâs Monday already. She has to go to work, and I have to drive back to school. Iâll miss todayâs classes, but I couldnât care less. Iâll have my diploma in less than two months.
âAre you going to wake him up?â Kimberly asks Tessa just as I walk in.
âIâm up.â I groan, still groggy from sleep. I slept more peacefully last night than I have all week. My first night here we were up nearly the entire night.
âHey.â Tessaâs smile lights up the dim room, and Kimberly covertly slides off the high stool sheâs sitting on and leaves us alone. Which means sheâs set a new record for not annoying me.
âHow long have you been up?â I ask Tessa.
âTwo hours. Christian said I could have an extra hour, since you werenât awake.â
âYou should have woken me up earlier.â My eyes greedily rake down her body. Sheâs dressed in a deep red button-down shirt tucked into a solid black, knee-length pencil skirt. The material hugs her hips in a way that makes me want to bend her over the stool, push her skirt up to reveal her pantiesâlace panties, perhapsâand take her right here, right now . . .
She calls me out from my thoughts. âWhat?â
The front door closes, and Iâm relieved that weâre finally alone in the massive house.