The ticket I sent to Kitten was for the seat next to my mama. The same seat Kitten sat in the first time she came to see me play. A seat that I can find in a heartbeat. A seat that remained empty the entire game.
My mama was in her usual spot. I told her Iâd be giving that other ticket to Kitten, so she knew who would be joining her. But Kitten didnât come. And every time I looked over, my mama just cheered harder. Like her cheering might distract me from the fact that my girl didnât show up to my game.
When I first saw that open seat, I was worried. Then as the game went on, I became annoyed. Now that the game is done, and she never showed, Iâm worried again. I donât want to be one of those people who automatically think of the worst-case scenario. Iâm trying to stay positive, telling myself that sheâs alright. That sheâs not lying in a ditch somewhere. She just didnât come.
She also didnât answer my call this morning, or the text I sent this afternoon. If I were a betting man, Iâd say sheâs still upset over those photos with Lacy. And â honestly â I donât blame her. If I saw pictures of her and some guy, and that guy was touching her, and they had a history of getting naked together, Iâd get arrested. Iâd get arrested because I would lose my ever-loving shit, find the guy, and beat him to near death just for having the audacity to touch whatâs mine. And she is. Kitten is mine. But I need her to talk to me, so that I can prove it.
And yes, Iâm well aware that I could have avoided this whole mess if Iâd told Kitten about Lacy from the get-go. Had I known they met each other in the mall, I wouldâve told her everything. I donât blame Kitten for not telling me about their meeting. Itâd be an awkward thing to bring up. And itâd seem like she was digging for details, no matter how casually it was mentioned. Not that Iâd care about any of that, but I can see why she didnât say anything.
Iâm sure she was waiting for me to tell her about Lacy, but I didnât. And then she sees pictures of us together. And then Iâve been so busy that I havenât even seen her since the night we shared together. I need to talk to her, in person. And unless I can find her tomorrow afternoon, itâll have to wait, because we fly out again tomorrow night. Goddamnit.
âMr. Wilder!â
Iâm walking through my lobby, so distracted that I almost passed Henry without saying hello.
âHi, Henry.â I keep walking, but I hear the slap of shoes quickening behind me. Halting, I turn to see Henry jogging my way.
âMr. Wilder, Iâm glad I caught you.â
âIs something wrong?â
âNo. Well, yes. Iâm afraid so.â
Henry looks so nervous, Iâm worried he might vomit. I place a hand on his shoulder. âWhat is it?â
âItâs just⦠I didnât put it together⦠then Miss Lacy was brought down last night.â
âLook, itâs not your fault. Sheâd kept a key all these years. I didnât know she had it.â
âNo, thatâs not what I mean. Iâm talking about Miss Katelyn.â
A cold sensation works itâs way up my fingertips, towards my heart. âWhat about Katelyn?â
âI didnât know Miss Lacy was upstairs. I never would have sent her up if Iâd known. I just feel so awful. She looked absolutely devastated.â
My knees want to buckle, and my lungs are working hard not to seize. âKatelyn was here last night?â
âYes. Iâm so sorry.â Heâs shaking his head and looks on the verge of tears. âShe came in right around seven. I greeted her and sent her up. My shift had just started. I didnât know you werenât home. And I certainly didnât know that Miss Lacy was upstairs.â
âLacy was already in my condo?â
âWell, I canât say for sure. But Miss Katelyn came back down a few minutes later. I tried to call after her, but sheâ¦â He glances away like he doesnât want to say the next part. âShe was sobbing, sir.â
No. No. No. No.
âIâm sorry, sir. I tried to stop her. I tried to stop her, but she was running.â
No.
My Kitten. My poor, sweet Kitten.