23- Twenty-Three - Felix's Point Of View.
I starred at Dakota not even wanting to think about being pregnant.
Honestly, that would complicate so many things right now. Yes, another
child would be great but not well we are all at war. The last thing I need
is for my children to be taken and found dead in a river. Dakota had
this light in his eyes that overjoyed my heart but scarred me down to
my bones. Sure Dakota and I are adults but we lead busy lives, how
would we find time for another baby. I slowly walked from the kitchen
to the living room. I sat on the couch and tried to work out things in my
head.
If I'm not pregnant then nothing to worry about, If I am then I had two
choices, both with there pros and cons, have a new baby or get rid of
the baby coming into a dangerous time. Both would be hard to handle,
one harder than the other. With no more ideas, I needed to know what
I was walking into. I made my way towards the medical wing. The
doctor took me back into the room and I explained, he drew blood and
put a few drops in the vial with my blood. He set it in a spot in the
rotating vial mixer. he told me it would be only a few moments. I went
out to the waiting room area and sat down. My stomach danced
around in fear. Shortly after he came out with a folded up paper and his
face blank. he told me to look at it on my own before I showed anyone
or to make any decisions.
With the paper in hand, I left the medical wing and walked to find
Pepper. We had gotten close and if I wanted someone to understand
me it would be him. I know I should find Dakota and talk to him but I
don't want to. Not because I don't want him to know but because I
don't know the paper says and if it's positive then I need some time to
think. It was selfish but this was my body and although it is our child, he
would forgo waiting for a better time, wolves were like that. Pepper was
in the daycare with his children. He saw me and saw the paper. He
knew what it was, the paper was a light green colour and was only used
for this test. Any wolf with a child would know what I was holding.
"Have you looked at it yet?"
"No."
"Your scared?â
"Yes, this is a huge life-changer."
"I promise you it will be okay.â
"Pepper, I don't even know if I can handle another baby. I mean i..."
"Felix calm down its alright, if you're not ready for a baby then forgo
the pregnancy if you are and wait till your ready, Dakota will
understand.â
"What if he doesn't, he wants his own little pups so bad, what if he
never forgives me?"
"When you find out talk it over together, you get the final say, Felix, itis
your body."
I took a deep breath and handed the paper to Pepper, I told him not to
tell me what it said. I didn't watch his face in case his face would give it
way. he smiled softly and handed me back the paper. He didn't say
anything but I could feel his eyes on me basically telling me to open the
damn paper and get the shit over with. Opening the paper I read the
basics of the blood test and looked over the paper. one word standing
out.
POSITIVE.