TL: Zimmings
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âWho is it? Huh? Who is that bast⦠man?â
âYeah. I wonder who Leblaine likes.â
âYes.â
My older brothersâ gaze was so fierce that it stings.
I rolled my eyes and grabbed the tip of the spoon tightly.
âWhat do I do?â
I was hungry, so my reasoning disappeared, so I said everything honestly.
The castle turned upside down after I said I liked someone.
My brothers, uncle, and maternal grandfather persistently asked who the person was, and the maids said, âOh my gosh, the lady is already at that ageâ¦!â They were delighted, and my dad..â¦.
I looked at my dad, who was sitting on the sofa.
Dad was staring blankly in the air like a man out of his mind.
Sometimes he muttered, âMy daughterâ¦â¦ My Blaine, who said she would marry meâ¦â¦.â like someone who was betrayed.
âNow, now.â
My mom put the spoon that was slipping from my dadâs hand back between his hands and looked at me.
My mother smiled.
âBring him to the castle, okay?â
ââ¦â¦.â
âWhat kind of food does the child like. Sweet dessert, meat?â
ââ¦â¦.â
âHowâs his personality?â
ââ¦â¦.â
âWhere have my daughter met him?â
Mom was very excited.
The faces of my brothers became harsh. Even dad glared at my mom.
âNo!â
The mother pushed my opposing father away from me.
The servants looked familiar with this scene in which my mother overpowered the Duke of Dubblede with one hand.
I looked into my fatherâs eyes and mumbled.
âI awso like dad.â
âBetter than that guy?â
ââ¦â¦.â
I couldnât say that at all, so when I looked away, dad became sad again.
Even after the meal, they werenât tired of asking who the person was, so I went into the room as if I was running away.
When I rushed into the room and closed the door tightly, Isaac outside the door knocked on the door and asked.
âIâm not trying to do anything about him! Iâll just hit him once! No, two hits! Noâ¦â¦! Itâs because Iâm angry!â
Why would you hit them!
I took a deep breath and lock the door.
âIâm still this young. I think itâs worse than the future.â
I shook my head and sat down on the bed.
And I checked the calendar on the table.
âSo the day of the beginning is⦠⦠Yes, in ten days.â
It is a day when you can hear Godâs voice, so I may be able to talk to Adrian at the temple that day.
âGood. There is a way. Then⦠huh?â
I was muttering, but my voice was weird.
Itâs cracked and itâs hoarseâ¦
âAm I tired?â
I was so nervous.
Maybe itâs because I crossed the passage of God.
âBut I know what to do at times like this!â
In the fourth life, no, the world without Neriad is the fifth time I become a four years old.
I peeked out of the door before I knew it.
Then I grabbed the servant who was passing through the hallway and said,
âBwaine wants warm water.â
âIâll bring it.â
âWith honey.â
âYes.â
The servant smiled sweetly.
The servant soon brought what I asked for, and I poured honey into the water in the room, stirred it well, and drank it.
Soon I went under the blanket and slept.
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My mind was clouded.
My throat felt parched and was stuffy, my whole body was throbbing.
âItâs painful. But the honey water couldnât have gone wrong.â
The surroundings were noisy.
âThe doctor⦠Hurry!â
âAhh, my baby is dying⦠Argh!â
âNoisy⦠who is going to die!â
âShe has a severe fever⦠the child ⦠for no reasonâ¦â
Employees, doctors, and my family did not leave my room.
I spent the whole night with fever, and it was not until dawn that I came to my senses.
The surroundings were quiet.
When I opened my eyes and stood up, a lukewarm towel fell from my forehead.
Isaac and Henry were asleep leaning against each other on the sofa.
Johannâs head was lowered with his arms folded across them, and from the sound of his breath, he seemed to have fallen asleep.
Because of me being sick, my family stayed up all night.
I felt sorry because of it.
While I was trying to get out of bed and put blankets on my brothers, the door opened.
âAre you awake?â
It was mom.
My mother looked a little tired.
[The doctors? Why hav
[Isnât that a divine illness? If itâs because of divine power, it canât be cured with medicine! Call a priest! Right now!]
[Ah, Leblaine⦠⦠.]
My motherâs voice was more nervous than anyone else around her.
I could feel she waa crying without leaving my side for a moment.
My mom approached me while holding a blanket and bent her knees. She carefully put her hand on my forehead.
âThe fever has gone down a lot.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âHow are you? Are you okay?â
ââ¦â¦.â
âChild.â
Mom looked at me who was hesitating to answer.
I mumbled, fidgeting with the blanket.
âBwaine is sick, itâs my faultâ¦â
Momâs eyes widened. Her face, which had hardened, became sad.
âWhy did you say that?â
âMy dad, bwother, mom is worfief. Itâs my fault. Iâm not sick anymoreâ¦â
Because I am not feeling well, I do not have my adult reasoning.
Fear took over my head.
What if they think Iâm a bothersome person?
I like my mom, but what if she doesnât like me?
My mother, who was staring at me with her head down, opened her arms.
When I noticed, she nodded as if it was okay.
As I approached cautiously, she hugged me.
âItâs not wrong to be sick.â
âBut my mom is upset.â
âItâs because I love Leblaine.â
ââ¦â¦.â
Mom got up holding me and went to the window.
It was dawn.
A blue light shone through the window.
âIâm thankful everyday to have met you. To be your mother.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âThank you so much for teaching me such precious emotions, Leblaine.â
My mother patted me and whispered in a gentle voice.
âDo you know how much I love you?â
ââ¦â¦Yes.â
She loves me like I love my mom.
My mom has the biggest heart and will never abandon me.
âThen can you tell me now?â
When I heard those words, my mother smiled.
âWhy are you here?â
ââ¦â¦!â
How did you know that?
Is he asking how he arrived here in the world without Neriad?
How much did she know?
Are you angry?
Would you slap me because of what I did to her daughter?
When I was frightened and stiff, mom quickly put me down and grabbed my shoulder.
âI donât mean to offend you. I donât hate you, Leblaine.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âItâs just nice to see you all grown up.â
ââ¦How did you know?â
âThereâs no way a parent canât recognize their child. And I have special powers.â
âThe power to see the future.â
âYed. The power that God gave me to recognize my children.â
âSince when did you know?â
âSince you asked the servant for honey water.â
âHuh?â
Mom smiled and patted my cheeks.
âI am proud of you who grew up alone. The children here still donât know how to grow up alone.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âSo I thought about it. When I see you, youâre my daughter, but youâve changed. Then, I wonder if itâs my Leblaine who came across time with the help of the God of Time.â
âThe God of Timeâ¦â
âOn the day of the beginning, when I talked to God, he said âThank you.â Heâs grateful that a strong person like me is the mother of the child.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âI didnât know what it meant then, but I knew it a few years ago. My daughter is a lovely child enough for God to thank me.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âI know that my grown-up child will one day appear before me.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âIâve waited for a long time to see you.â
âIâve waited for a long time to see you.â
I remembered what my mother told me in the world of Neliard.
My sweet mother.
My mother who is tough and loves me endlessly, who never changes in every world.
I hugged her neck tightly.
âI came to save Adrian.â
âAdrian?â
âHeâs the god of twis world. He threw everything away for me and embwaced everything for meâ¦â¦ Heâs the person that I like.â
It was then.
âIs that him?â
âAdrian.â
âAdrianâ¦â
I heard the voices of my brothers.
Astonished, I turned around and saw the three children standing up.
âYou listened to evewything?!â
âYes.â
âBut why arenât you surprisedâ¦?â
The brothers looked at me as they exchanged glances.
âMy younger sister grew up and came to play for a while. Should I be surprised?â
âNice to meet you.â
âYes.â
Then emotions came over me.
Iâm happy to be in Leblaine.
Iâm really happy to have a family like this.
âAdrianâ¦â
Dad, who appeared from behind the door, murmured with resentful eyes.
âOther than that Iâm happy.â