I never came upon any of my discoveries through the process of rational thinking.
âAlbert Einstein
âYou got laid,â Craig says as I walk in, holding my coffee that I barely managed to get in time this morning.
I forgot what it was like to lose myself in a girl. And I know Iâve never lost myself in someone so much as I did last night and this morning. Lana is the most unexpected surprise of my life.
I keep waiting to find a flaw, but canât seem to find one. No one can be that perfect. Not that I want to jinx it. I also donât want to find out sheâs married or something. So Iâm close to doing the unthinkable, because she has my head all kinds of fucked up.
âMaybe,â I tell him, smirking when he groans.
âThe Ice Princess took you but not me?â he asks as I drop to my desk chair and pull up the databases I need.
âIt drives you that crazy she didnât eat up your charm,â I drawl.
âThereâs a reason Iâm the face of this department, and it isnât because Iâm the best lookingâthough we both know I am. The point is, girls eat me up. Women, mothers, daughters, aunts, sisters, nieces⦠We fuck up, and I explain it away with a charming smile and an âaww shucksâ sort of attitude while throwing in a deep sense of remorse. Anything and everything will be forgiven if you have the right face. Itâs the truth. Humans are shallowâall of us. Pardon me for finding it a little suspect that she literally had zero interest in me, yet turns around and fucks you.â
âI think Logan is way hotter than you,â Hadley chimes in, coming to prop up beside me as Craig scowls at her. âAnd despite what you think, not all women are that shallow. Most of us find someone attractive if they have the right qualities.â
âBullshit,â Craig scoffs. âIâve done plenty of research on the matter. Iâm not just talking out my ass.â
I roll my eyes as they continue to bicker, and I start my search. No marriage certificate. No divorce. No childrenânot that Iâd mind, but Iâd still like to know. Noâ¦living relatives⦠Shit.
No one? She has no one at all? I already know she doesnât have any personal social media. Just her business profiles, even though thereâs no mention of her partner on any of them.
I donât dig any deeper than that. I feel like Iâve invaded her privacy enough. Everything else needs to be things she tells me when sheâs readyâlike the car accident that scarred her.
It must have been a bad wreck, considering one scar travels from her left hip to her right breast. Another one is on her right side, jagged and large. Theyâre old. I could tell from looking at them.
I should have shown her my scars, but I was too busy exploring her body the rest of the night to give her time to explore mine. Every time she tried, I lost control, feeling her hands on me seemed to turn me into a horny teenager all over again.
âYou have serious trust issues,â Hadley says, drawing me out of my own head.
I notice Craig is gone, but Hadley is reading the latest search over my shoulder. I close out of it and shrug.
âYou had me research her background for priors, and now youâre checking her facts?â
She cocks an eyebrow at me.
âEver met someone too good to be true? I was almost late for work this morning because I couldnât seem to pry myself away from her. She literally has no flaws. Sheâs beautiful, smart, sassy, whimsical, and onboard with my hectic schedule, even though most girls immediately have an issue with it. She hasnât once gotten annoyed with me having to cancel things. I showed up at her place unannounced, and she was twice as perfect as I thought possible. So yeahâ¦I canât help but be worried, because a guy can fall fast for a girl like that.â
She rolls her eyes and mocks a gag, so I flip her off and start pulling up the latest case files.
âEveryone has flaws. Youâre just in the honeymoon phase. Eventually she will get annoyed with cancellations and unavailability. Just like youâll eventually start noticing things she does that irritate you. Right now is the shiny happy part that everyone loves. Itâs why so many people get married after barely knowing each other. Itâs also why they get divorced when they do know each other.â
She laughs, and I lean back, mulling that over. I donât remember the âhoneymoonâ phase being this damn good in the past.
âIâm overanalyzing this,â I say on a sigh.
âItâs your nature. Itâs what makes you good at this job. But Iâm telling you, right now the girl could fart out toxic waste that had you pulling on a mask, and youâd think it was cute. Itâs part of the phase.â
She claps me on the shoulder as she laughs and walks away, and I look down as I get a text.
LANA: Your boxers are comfortable.
ME: Youâre wearing them? Didnât know I left them behind.
LANA: I figured you did it on purpose. So youâd have a reason to come back.
ME: Already got a reason to come back.
LANA: Now you have twoâ¦
Thereâs a picture attached to the last message of her from the waist down, definitely wearing my boxers. I run a hand through my hair, hating the fact I donât want to be at work for the first time ever. Iâve always loved the job, yet a girl I barely know has me tempted to take my first ever sick day.
ME: Keep them on. Iâll be back tonight, and I want to see them in person.
LANA: Lucky for you I have no plans. And Iâll just be wearing these when you get here.
Groaning in frustration, I put my phone away, and I hurry through some of the slim new leads. The hotline tips get more ridiculous every day. The Boogeyman case is getting about as cold as my murder/mutilation case.
Several other cases are on the backburner, since no new murders have popped out. The ones that kill once or twice a year are twice as hard to find. Our only hot case is a murder/robbery serial.
I work, looking through some of the leads, examining the same photos as always. After two hours, Iâm at the murder board, still trying to piece together what makes these women the targets.
None of them are overtly rich. They all have different family backgrounds. Different ethnicities. Different hair colors.
Though they were all attractive, there was no rape as incentive. Impotence is a possible in our profile, butâ¦thereâs something else that is driving him. Thereâs a reason why he selects and stalks these particular women.
My eyes look to their eyes, then their noses, then their mouths⦠Something clicks, and my heartbeat picks up.
Just as Hadley walks by, I grab her wrist, stopping her as my eyes narrow on one piece of evidence we havenât been able to figure out.
âThe lab analyzed that clay you found in the apartment, right?â I ask, lost in thought.
She nods. âYeah. Nothing special about it. You could buy it at any arts and crafts store. And no one knows why it was there. It wasnât found on the victim or anywhere else in the apartment. They think the unsub brought it in on his shoes or clothes.â
âAnd the faces had all been thoroughly cleaned then bleached. The hair had also been shaven off and the head was cleaned then bleached,â I state, still doing the math.
âYes⦠Why?â
I look past her to where Donny is.
âDonny, look up art galleries in the area of the robberies/murders.â
He looks perplexed, but starts typing.
âHadley, I need you to get on all the art sites you can find and see if anyone is selling bronze sculptures of faces. Narrow them down to the ones who started in the past four months, when the killings started,â I go on, walking toward Donnyâs desk.
I turn to see her still standing there, confused.
âNow!â I urge her, and she scrambles to her desk.
Donny is typing furiously when I come up behind him. âFour in the area. None are selling bronze sculptures of faces,â he says, frowning. âOr was I supposed to be looking for something different than Hadley?â
âCall each one and ask if anyone tried to sell them the bronze sculptures. Itâll be faces only.â
He picks up his phone to do as I ask, and I go back to my computer, pulling up the program I need. I place all the victimsâ pictures in the spots, and after a few keystrokes, my suspicions are confirmed.
âSymmetry,â I say on a long breath.
âWhat?â Craig asks, coming to look over my shoulder.
âHeâs choosing them because of the symmetry of their faces. Perfect symmetry, which is supposed to be very rare, if not impossible. Heâs choosing them because they have it, and heâs using their faces to mold art. Heâs probably trying to sell it, and heâs fixated on anyone who has a symmetrical face. Women in particular. He may have a da Vinci fixation as well.â
My eyes scan the room, and I spot Lisa clipping her fingernails.
âLisa, look at anyone in the comfort zone who might have ordered a lot of Leonardo da Vinci prints, or books on da Vinci. Focus primarily on anything revolving around the Vitruvian Man. The unsub would most likely be obsessed with that work.â
âAnd you think this because?â Craig asks, confused.
âCall it a gut feeling. Weâve solved a lot of cases with my gut.â
âYeah, thatâs why you keep getting promoted. But how the hell do you fit da Vinci in with clay, robberies, and shaved heads with bleach poured on them?â
âThe bleach is a forensic countermeasure, just as shaving and removing all the hair then bleaching the head. Heâs removing all traces of the clay from the body. The hair is probably being saved for the sculpture too. Not all artists can paint or draw.â
âIâm lost,â Craig goes on.
âDa Vinci wasnât just famous for his intellect or paintings. There were large sculptures he created that have historians buzzing too. He drew it first, then he molded it from clay or beeswaxâdepends on which version of the story you hear. From there, he cast it in bronze to create another masterpiece. A man who is fixated on him and symmetry, but canât draw or create art from nothing? Thatâs who weâre looking for.â
âNothing,â Hadley says, looking frustrated. âSeveral molds are made from numerous things, but no bronze. Does it have to be bronze?â she asks.
âYes,â I say, convinced this is the right lead to chase. âIt explains the robberies. Heâd sell the valuables he stole to buy the amount of bronze he needs. Itâs not cheap.â
âWeâve scoured pawn shops and internet sites looking for anyone selling that stuff though,â Donny interjects.
âThe right shady pawn dealer wouldnât give a damn if we were asking about it, and would lie to keep from turning it over and losing that profit. If this guy is using forensic counter measures, then heâs done his homework on where to sell.â
Donny resumes his phone calls, and I do something that probably wonât help. I pull up the buy, sell, and trade site that Lana runs. She mentioned last night that she leaves things up for a month after they sell with a SOLD sign on it to keep people from asking what happened to it.
I scroll through the jewelry section, since thatâs what was mostly stolen. But nothing is on there. Maybe I was just looking for an excuse to speak to her. Because Iâve got it bad and itâs pathetic.
âGot something!â Donny says, drawing all of our attention as he returns to the conversation heâs having on the phone. âYes. Did he leave a number or an address to reach him?â
He scribbles something down as we all stand. I put my jacket on and holster my gun. Looks like Iâm going to need my go-bag again. Fortunately it has several pairs of clothes.
He hangs up and holds up the paper.
âTheyâve got a guy who has come into two of the four places trying to sell them a âgrowingâ set of bronze heads.â
âLooks like weâre flying to New York,â Craig says, eyeing me like Iâm a weird fucking unicorn. âAnd I guess weâre getting the damn chopper since the department jet is already out on call. Why canât we get our own private jet like they have in the movies and stuff?â
Hadely snorts, and they all talk amongst themselves as I pull out my phone and make a call that actually sucks.
âYes, Iâm still wearing the boxers. And eating ice cream,â Lana says, sounding bright and fucking giddy.
I hate my timing now. Usually Iâm a hell of a lot more excited about a break in a case than this.
âI wish I could be there to see it,â I say on a long breath as I grab my vest and other necessities, shoving them into my bag.
âYou have to cancel,â she says simply, her voice devoid of any emotion for me to read.
âIâm sorry.â I have a feeling Iâll get used to saying those two words if she sticks around long enough to hear them time after time. âWe got a break in the case today. At least I hope so. Iâm on my way out of town right now.â
âDonât be sorry, Logan. You have a jobâan important one. I admire you and what you do. You put monsters away, and I believe youâre actually looking for the right man instead of just another merit on your resume.â
Thatâs a weird thing to say.
âI definitely look for the right man. What do you mean by that?â
âItâs just thatâ¦I studied a lot of old cases when I went to college. I took criminology classes. It seemed like a lot of arrests were rushed just to close a case and add another gold star to a stellar reputation. If the killings would stop, people would assume the killers were locked up. If the killings reoccurred, theyâd call it a copycat instead of owning the possibility they closed the case with the wrong suspect behind bars.â
Iâm not sure what cases she studied. They donât tarnish the reputation of the FBI in those classes. If anything, they sing praises to our guys.
âSo you took criminology? But you didnât join law enforcement?â
âDecided I didnât have the stomach for it,â she says dryly. âBlood and guts churn it.â
I definitely donât picture her as someone who could handle the shit Iâve seen if she has a weak stomach.
âWill you be able to text or call when youâre gone?â she asks hopefully.
âDefinitely. Iâll probably text you from the chopper to apologize again.â
âSeriously, donât apologize. Ever. You make a difference. Iâd have to be a selfish bitch to expect you to be at my side when someone needs saving. Go be awesome and text when you can.â
I stop and lean against the wall of the stairwell, smiling at nothing.
âHave I told you lately that youâre perfect?â
She laughs then coughs to smother the laugh. âTrust me when I say Iâm on the opposite end of the spectrum from perfection.â
âOh? Will I see these flaws of yours one day?â
She grows quiet for so long that I check to make sure the line hasnât gone dead. Finally, she answers.
âI pray that day never comes,â she says quietly. âNow go catch a bad guy. Is it safe to tell me the town so I can watch the news for you? I know you said you were sometimes on the news. If itâs against the rules, then donât tell me, because Iâd never ask youââ
âIâll be in New York. Iâm sure itâll be on all the major channels if this pans out. Itâs rare to get a break this big, but it could all be wrong. Iâm going on a profile that I built myself just a few moments ago. For the record, Iâm not supposed to tell anyone.â
âThen why did you tell me?â she scolds.
âBecause I want you to be someone one day.â
I donât tell her that Iâve thoroughly checked her out to make sure she wasnât any type of lawbreaking heathen or anything. Best if this trust thing starts now.
âWell, someday, I hope I am someone. Until then, donât tell me things youâre not supposed to.â
âWhy?â I ask, amused that sheâs so angry about this.
âBecause I respect you. And I never want you to think I expect more than I should. This is about us. Not your job. Please. Promise me you wonât ever tell me things youâre not supposed to.â
Yeah⦠Told you sheâs fucking perfect.
âDeal, pretty girl. Keep my boxers warm. Iâll text you or call you later.â
âLogan?â
âYeah?â
âCome back in one piece no matter what you have to do in order to make that happen. Thatâs the only thing Iâll ever expect. Survive.â
A slow smile tugs at the corners of my mouth. âThat I can promise.â