Chapter 464 Alyssaâs eyes twitched a bit.
But she didnât turn her head.
âDad, I had a dream. I dreamt of Julia. She said she hates me and will never forgive me. Now I know what it feels like to be the talk of the town. I never understood why she chose to overdose. Now I get it.â
Alyssaâs voice was faint, like a whisper.
Her father began to speak, âDonât let your mind wander, those are all things from twenty years ago. And, it wasnât all your fault back then. Now youâve experienced death once, you can say youâve paid your dues to her.â
âBut itâs not over, Dad. Agnes is actually Juliaâs daughter.â
This was news to her father.
âIâm willing to deal with my past mistakes, but I canât let Jared carry my cross. How am I supposed to face him? I let him down.
He will be ridiculed and isolated by others. I ruined his marriage, Dad, itâs all my fault.â
âAlyssa, do you only see Jared as your son?â Timâs voice suddenly became stern.
Alyssa slowly turned her head, her face soaked with tears.
Tim continued, âYouâve always favored Jared since he was little, but you also have Ryder. Ryder is your son too. Why donât you consider his feelings? Even when heâs not around, you still have me, your father. Iâm old, your mother is long gone, I only have you, my daughter. Can you really bear to make me, an old man, arrange your funeral?â
His voice choked.
Alyssa was sobbing, âDad, Iâm sorry.â
Tim walked over to the bed, sat down, and grasped Alyssaâs hand. âMy child, I donât care about anything else. I can give up everything, but I canât lose you. Youâre my most precious person, forever. Whatever happens, even if the whole world abandons you, Iâll still stand in front of you, leaning on my cane, fighting the world for you.â
His words were deep and firm.
Alyssa looked at his white hair, tears streaming down her face. âDad, Iâm sorry Iâve always made you worry. Iâve done so many wrong things in my life. Everyone in the world despises me, no one loves me, only youâre still here.â
Alyssa sat up, put her arms around her fatherâs shoulders, and cried out loud.
Just like when she was sixteen, she got pregnant and threatened to kill herself, but Michael Albert still left.
At that time, she was so hopeless, thinking about death every day. Her father dropped everything to stay by her side every day.
Those days he hardly rested, although heâs a tough man, he lost a lot of weight in a few days.
Now, it seemed like they were back to the past.
But, her father looked so old now.
Alyssa, tearfully said, âDad, if I could live again, I would never fall in love with him, I wouldnât be so wilful, I would definitely listen to you. Then todayâs tragedies wouldnât have happened, there wouldnât be so many people suffering because of me, itâs all my fault, all my fault...â
Tim patted Alyssaâs back, comforting her, âMy dear, itâs not your fault. No one can control their emotions, who they fall in love with, who they donât. Life always has some unavoidable predicaments, that man was your predicament, but you canât let it break you. You still have me, and Jared and Ryder. You donât have to care about what others think. Havenât you always wished that Jared would call you morn? This matter becoming public isnât entirely a bad thing, you lost a brother, but gained a son.â