Mason's POV.
Continuation from last chapter.
I hadn't left my room in days. I had cried so much I was starting to doubt if I really was a man. My mom kept checking up on me but I didn't really want to see her. B had turned her phone back on but she wasn't picking up any of my calls or replying any of my text messages. Lee told me she was arriving today and I just wanted some news about Becca. I was worried and restless. I grabbed my phone to call her again but as expected she didn't pick up so I texted her. I looked at the long trail of unreplied texts and I felt like a fool but I was her fool. I seemed so desperate in these texts but for Becca I would do anything. Like this one for example.
Baby girl I know you won't reply this or take my calls but I just want to know if your okay. Please I just need you to be okay. I love you so much and I can't stop thinking about you.
I decided to text another one just for the heck of it.
My love its been five days and still no word from you. I know you don't want to hear from me right now but I'm sick with worry. I understand why you did what you did but I'm falling apart B. I need you but most of all I need you to be okay. I don't know how or when but I'll fix this. Take care of yourself please. I love you.
I dropped my phone on the floor beside me where I was sitting and stared at my reflection in the full length mirror in my room. I looked like shit. I hadn't shaved for days but at least I was clean. I tried to take a shower at least once a day. My hair was a mess from running my hands through it so many times. I smiled to myself a little remembering how much obsession B had with my hair. It reminded me of moments we shared after we were officially dating.
B was sitting in the couch watching a movie as I lay across it with my head on her lap. She was running her fingers through my hair and it felt good.
"I wish I had your hair." She commented out of the blue.
I turned around to face her and looked up at her and found she was already looking at me. Her hands still in my hair.
"Why?" I asked smiling.
Gosh she was so pretty and she was all mine. What did I do to deserve a perfect girl like her?
"Because it's so soft and silky. My hair is only soft when it's wet."She groaned.
"Don't say that. I love your hair. Especially when you put in two buns like that. You look even more beautiful." I complimented her and she blushed.
"Thank you." She replied and leaned down to kiss me.
I would never tire of feeling her warm soft lips on mine. Whenever we kissed it was like a volcano erupted in my stomach leaving me feeling hot all over. Her lips tasted heavenly and her fingers felt like silk on my face. She pulled away when we both needed to breath with a tiny smile on her lips.
"I love you." She said and I smiled.
I loved hearing her say that.
"I love you more baby girl." I replied and she smiled too.
She pecked my lips before turning her attention back to the movie.
That had been one of the many happiest moments with her. I just wanted to hear her say how much she loved me and have her press her warm soft lips on mine in a kiss. I wanted to hold her, love her and spoil her till she asked me to stop. I wouldn't stop though. My heart was in pain and only she could make me feel better.
My phone vibrated besides me and I picked up quickly thinking it was B. It wasn't her, it was Lee. I still picked up quickly wanting to know what happened.
"Did you see her? Is she okay? How is she?" I rambled.
"Not that you deserve to know because this is probably your fault but she is alive. She doesn't have any new tattoos and she told me she hasn't used any drugs and I believe her." She replied and I felt relieved but not quite.
"How is she Lee? Like really how is she?" I asked my voice filled with worry and concern.
She breathed out loudly and I could tell she was frustrated and worried too. What was going on?
"Please Lee. Tell me." I pleaded.
I needed to know how she was before I went crazy.
"She's not doing well Mason. I've never see her like this. I found her nose bleeding in the floor of her room and she wasn't even aware of it. She's taking a shower right now and then I'll do what I do best and make her feel better. I don't know if it will work though because I've never seen B love anyone as much as she loves you." She replied.
She was sick and bleeding. This was all my fault. I shouldn't have let her leave. I should have held onto her and explained everything to my mom without letting her go.
"I'm on my way." I replied getting up but Lee stopped me.
"I don't think that is such a good idea. Look I don't know what happened but I'm sure it's a big deal. You guys need some time apart for a while." She said and even if I didn't want to admit it she was right. Seeing B right now without fixing the issue with my mom would only make matters worse. I didn't want to give her false hope that we would be okay yet even I wasn't sure if there was hope for us.
"Okay just please take care of her Lee." I requested.
"Yeah fine whatever. Bye asshole." She replied angrily before hanging up.
A part of me felt relieved that she was okay but the rest of me that knew she was hurting was in pain. My baby was suffering and I couldn't do anything to help her through it. I just hoped Lee would be able to at least help her get through this.
I tossed my phone on the bedside table before I sat on my bed replaying all the happy memories I had with B. They would help me get through this. At least until when I figured out how to make my mom see reason.
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I was woken up by the ringing of my phone. What time was it? Even better yet? What day was it? I grabbed my phone and squinted my eyes at its bright light to get a better look at what was written on the screen
Reminder: Becca's Practical Exams.
That made me sit right up and get off the bed quickly. It was eight am and the practical exams in their department usually began at nine and I needed to be there. This was my chance to see her after almost a whole week. Or was it more. I had no idea at this point.
I grabbed my towel walked into the bathroom. After taking a quick shower, brushing my teeth and shaving I went back to my room to get dressed. I picked out a pairing black jeans and pulled them on over my boxers. I put on a black T-shirt and the biggest black hoodie I owned. It would help me go unnoticed. Pulling on a pair of black old schools I grabbed my keys and phone and left my bedroom.
I ran into my mother in the kitchen. She was making breakfast. Shit I had forgotten all about her. What was she still doing here? Keeping an eye on me I suppose. I needed a good excuse to leave the house to avoid raising suspicion.
"Good morning sweetheart. Where are you going this early in the morning?" She asked with a smile.
"Umh. One of my lecturers called. There is a problem with one of my projects and I need to go fix it." I replied quickly.
Schoolwork. Good excuse Mason.
"Well okay. But you should have some breakfast first before you go. You haven't been eating well the past couple of days." She insisted.
I was about to decline but I decided otherwise. I needed to get back into good graces with my mom to be able to smoothen things with her about Becca. So I say down and she fixed me a plate with eggs, sausages, some toast and a glass of juice.
It was awkward between us as we are breakfast in silence. I didn't have anything to say to her at the moment that wasn't rude or insensitive so I kept my mouth shut. My thoughts were also filled with Becca so I just ate quietly thinking about how I would see her after so long. This was the longest we had gone without seeing each other besides when she went in that school trip and I was dying to see her. Even if it was from a distance I would be okay.
I finished my breakfast and put my plate in the sink.
"Bye mom. See you later." I said kissing her cheek and quickly leaving the house before she could call me back.
When I arrived in Becca's department I parked my car at the very end and waited. I knew there was a possibility of her or Lee seeing me but I didn't really care. All I wanted was to see her. I didn't have to wait long though because I saw her getting out of a meeting with her classmates. I saw her talking to one of her classmates before she nodded and began looking around. She did a double take when she noticed me and I held my breath to see if she had recognized my car.
She looked so beautiful, it was like I was meeting her all over again for the first time. She had clearly lost weight, it wasn't that noticeable to others but it was to me. She also looked exhausted and tired. Seeing her like this broke my heart. I knew I didn't look any better but I at least wanted her to be better. For me at least.
She didn't have her glasses on and I remembered her telling me that she didn't see as clearly with her contact lenses as she did with her glasses. Before she could figure out of it was me or not Lee came back, they exchanged a few words and walked into the faculty building.
They came out a few minutes later before they exploded in shouts and cheers. They must have both received some good news. I wonder what it was? After calming down and talking some more they went to the washrooms.
I took that as my cue and got out of the car with my hood on. I went into the hall where they would be performing and say all the way at the back. After watching a few boring performances Becca's class finally came in stage to perform. I was only here for one person and watching her dance had me mesmerized. She looked so perfect and flawless on the dance floor. She moved with grace and elegance and it reminded me of another memory.
"How were dance rehearsals earlier today?" I asked her pulling her into my arms.
We had just had supper and were catching up on how each of our days went.
"It was awesome. We did a new routine today and it was kind of hard at first but I caught in pretty quick." She replied excitedly.
She always got this excited while talking about dance and it was adorable.
"Want to show me some of those moves?" I asked teasingly.
I was actually joking not expecting her to actually go through with it but she surprised me when she got off my lap.
"I'll do you one better." She replied biting her lower lip.
She grabbed her phone and connected it to the music system. After fumbling around Dance Like We're Making Love by Ciara started playing. She took of her hoodie leaving her in tight booty shorts that barely covered anything and a gym bra. This sexy mama was all mine. I thought to myself licking my lips.
She started dancing seductively and my boxers became tighter with every sway of her hips and shake of her ass. When she finally reached me she sat on my lap and started grinding against me I almost came in my pants. I didn't stop her though and let her torture me with her seductive moves. Finally the song ended and I could finally breath and relax.
"That was hot." I replied.
"I know. Mason junior is evidence enough." My temptress replied.
"I need a cold shower." I said chuckling.
"Or we could just do it." She replied whispering in my ear.
"No babe. We both know you're not ready to take that next step." I said and she nodded.
As much as I wanted to I knew B wasn't ready for it. She thought I didn't know but she was afraid is having sex. I wasn't exactly sure why but I was willing to wait for her. What we had was more than a physical relationship.
"Have I told you just how perfect you are?" She asked looking into my eyes.
"Yes very many times." I replied.
"I'll say it again then. You Mason Baraka are perfect." She said before slamming her lips on mine and we had a full make out session.
I was startled from my reverie when I had clapping. The dance was over and they had left the stage. Knowing there were more performances I made myself comfortable and waited.
Soon enough the day was over and I got out of the hall. I considered going home but I wanted to talk to B. Even if she didn't want to talk to me I would be happy to just see her up close. So I sat in the hood of my car and waited for her. After a a few minutes I saw her walking my way talking with a few of her friends. She looked happier than earlier and that made me glad. To avoid drawing attention to myself I just looked down digging a hole with the front of my shoe. I hated that habit but I was so nervous and I needed a distraction.
I looked up when I saw her walking closer and I thought she was going to walk past me but she surprised me when she started walking towards me. Lee passed me with the rest of the class glaring at me and I just gave her an apologetic smile.
One of her friends shouted at her and she blushed hard . Becca surprised me even more when she put her arms around me for a hug as soon as she got close enough. I hesitated due to shock before I hugged her tightly squeezing her against me. I knew it was only for the benefit of her friends but I was happy I got to hold her even if just for a bit. She felt so against me. The moment ended too quick though because she let me go as soon as her friends we out of sight.
She put her hands in the pockets of her good defensively and my hands dropped to my side.
"I'm guessing that sudden display of affection was for the benefit of your classmates." I commented my own voice sounding strange even to me.
"What do you want Mason?" She asked in reply.
I knew she didn't want this but I wanted to see her and spend a few more minutes with her.
"You were great today. I'm proud of you." I said deflecting her question but avoiding her gaze.
I didn't want to see that hurt look in her eyes. It was killing me. My strong girl looked like she was nearly hanging on and would break any minute now.
"Mason get to the point. Tell me why you are here. It's been a long day. My body hurts and my feet feel twice their normal size." She whined.
"If we were still together. I'd give you one of my famous massages that you like so much." I replied kicking a pebble away before finally looking up at her meeting those beautiful brown orbs hidden behind contact lenses.
"But we are not together anymore Mason." She breathed out looking frustrated. "You know what, I'm leaving. I can't take this." She turned to leave but I held her hand preventing her from leaving.
She couldn't leave just yet.
"What do you want me to say B? That I miss you so much and I'm literally going crazy without you. My house is filled with memories of you so I can't do anything without thinking about you. I can't sleep, I can't study. You won't reply my texts or calls and the gatekeeper at your hostels seems to hate me all of a sudden for some crazy reason so I can't come see you. To make everything worse I can't hate you because I know why you made the decision you made." I ranted out feeling very emotional.
B wasn't the only one breaking up inside. I was hurting too.
"I told Mwamba not to let you in because you sold drugs." She explained and I chuckled.
"That explains all the frisking I get before he kicks me out. He won't even accept a bribe. What watchman does that?" I asked surprised.
"That's Mwamba for you. Why did you come today Mason?" She asked me.
"I had to see you B. I really do miss you." I replied honestly.
"Well unless you magically made your mom like me then I'm sorry but I don't think we get back together." She reasoned.
"You think I don't know that. I still love you B so much and it hurts knowing you're anot mine anymore." I said running my hands through my hair feeling frustrated.
She gave me that look that told me she wanted to touch my hair. She would never have hesitated before but she held herself back and I hated that.
"I love you too Mason but the problem won't go away just because we love each other." She explained. "Now I have to go home. I need a hot shower and food."
I didn't want to stop seeing her just yet.
"At least let me drive you back home. I don't want you to leave just yet." I pleaded hoping she wouldn't say no.
"I don't think that's a good idea Mason." she replied.
"Please B." I begged and she finally gave in.
I did a small happy dance in my head but it didn't last long because of what B said next.
"Okay but this is the last time we are seeing each other." She said as she sat in the passenger seat breaking my heart just little bit more. "You know am right Mason. Seeing each other is just too painful." She explained but I didn't answer, instead I just nodded.
I reversed out of the parking lot slowly and drove away. The ride was silent both of us lost in thought and not really knowing what to say to each other. I had so many things to say but it wasn't the right time to say anything. I could feel B looking at me but I didn't dare look at her. If I did I would break and beg her to take me back. I wanted to give B the relationship she deserved and that included my my mother's blessings. Patience my love. Please wait for me.
In no time we arrived at her place and parked outside. We sat in silence for a few minutes none of us saying anything. B was the first to break the silence.
"I'm leaving for an exchange program to the UK for the next semester. Maybe being in different continents will do us some good. I know you will graduate with honors Mason. I love you so much. Take care of yourself and please try and be happy."
She didn't even give me a chance to reply because she kissed my cheek and quickly left the car. She got inside the compound and was gone.
" I love you too." I said to no one in particular before reversing the car and driving home.
She was leaving. I have to fix this and fast. The UK is too far to be away from her.
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