When Lola was fourteen , sheâd stolen makeup from a nearby drugstore. Some crimes were small. Some were big. Some were never found outâlike the makeupâand then, were they really crimes at all? Lola paced in front of the window, pausing every few minutes to see the sun a little lower. She didnât even need what sheâd taken. For years, sheâd walked an extra four blocks to a different drugstore.
Lola stopped her march to watch the building across the street eat the last sliver of sun. Almost right away, a black limo appeared through the complex gate.
By the way her palms sweat and her heart pounded like they had fifteen years ago, Lola knew instinctivelyâshe shouldnât get in that limo. There was more at stake than Johnny realized. Maybe enough to change them permanently. What kind of crime was it to do it anyway? If nobody knew but her, did it matter?
Beau had sent over a large box earlier that day with a red bow around it. The gift was lavishâa gold, beaded dress that crisscrossed in the back and had one slit all the way to her upper right thigh. Johnny had played it offâBeau had to pay for Lolaâs attention, and Johnny got that for free. But Lola had ignored him, running her fingers over the intricate beadwork. She didnât need to be pampered or spoiled, but that didnât mean it wasnât nice once in a while.
Lola had waited to change until Johnnyâd left for work. Sheâd done her makeup, attempting to recreate her look from her first evening with Beau so heâd look at her again the way he had in the reflection of the salonâs mirror. This time, though, she left her hair down.
Lola opened the door before Warner had a chance to knock. âGood evening, Miss Winters. Mr. Olivier is ready for you.â
She locked the apartment behind her. âHow long have you worked for Beau?â she asked as they curved around the pool and crossed the courtyard.
Warner kept his eyes forward. âAlmost ten years.â
âYou mustâve been young when you started.â
âOnly a few years older than Mr. Olivier.â
âHave you always wanted toâdrive? Do you do other things?â
âI also drive Miss Leroux.â
âWho?â
He leaned forward and opened the limo door. Beau had a pile of papers on his lap and a phone to his ear. He nodded at her and covered the mouthpiece. âWait there a moment.â He returned to his conversation as Lola stood on the sidewalk. Warner had disappeared.
Beau hung up without even a goodbye. He made a note on the paperwork in his lap, then tossed it on the car floor. He smiled up at herâlike he was a king whoâd just returned from a long day ruling his kingdom and had found her waiting for him. He got out of the car.
âWhat are you doing?â she asked.
He stood up to his full height and looked down on her. He lifted her chin with his knuckle, and just that one point of contact covered her in goose bumps. Sheâd selected her highest heels for the evening, but her head still tilted back for Beau.
âThank you for dressing the part tonight,â he said. âThough you were stunning in old jeans, something this beautiful finally does you justice.â
He was sincere. The compliments he paid her never seemed to serve as a means to get something, even a reaction. It made her uncharacteristically weak in the knees.
âAny credit goes to the dress,â she said. âThank you for sending it.â
Neither of them looked away. There were memories in the way they took from each otherâs eyes. For Lola, it was the way she fit into his arms as they fell asleep. It was the way he fucked her like he owned her.
âLetâs go inside.â
She took an automatic step back, blinking everything between them away. âInside?â she asked, touching her chin where heâd just touched her. âWhat?â
âIâd like to see your place.â
âNo.â
âNo?â His tone was reminder enough that no matter what moments theyâd had, he was in charge.
She panicked and blurted the first thing that came to her. âWe canât. Johnnyâs home.â
âI donât believe you. Last time he watched from the window.â
She hadnât known that. She glanced over her shoulder. âWell, okay, youâre rightâheâsâ¦heâs at work, butââ
âHe didnât stay to see you off?â Beau asked, tilting his head.
âWe decided it was better this way. The whole emotional goodbye thing was hard last time.â
âSo then it shouldnât be a problem. If you donât want him to know, donât tell him.â He took a step, but she moved into his path.
âWhy?â she asked.
He shrugged. âI want a glimpse into your life. It will help complete the picture in my head.â
Her apartment was the last piece of her and Johnny Beau hadnât infiltrated. It was Johnnyâs kingdom, but she worried Beau would make it his the moment he walked in. âIâm not comfortable with that.â
Beau made a point of turning and squinting at the sky behind him. It was still light out, but the sun was gone. He looked back at Lola. âShould we review the terms of our agreement?â
Sweat coated her upper lip. She licked it away. âNo. That wonât be necessary.â
He inclined forward as if to kiss her and stopped. Heâd taken his time the first night to make sure she was comfortable, but they were past that now. Did he need an invitation? She resisted the urge to lick her lips a second time.
He turned away to take something from the car and close the door. âGo ahead, ma chatte. Lead the way.â
She went back the way sheâd just come, Beau close behind her. Despite her wariness of his request, her body thrummed being with him again. She jiggled the key a few times until the lock gave and cleared her throat. âItâs stubborn.â
Beau walked into the apartment with one hand in his pocket. Under his arm was a medium-sized package wrapped in brown craft paper. Another present? It was uncomfortable, him spending money on her when heâd paid so much for one evening. Heâd already given her the dress, and whatever plans they had tonight that warranted such a gown wouldnât come cheap.
He glanced up at the ceiling, then at a pillow on the couch. Johnnyâd slept there the night before since heâd been unusually restless and hadnât wanted to keep Lola awake. Beau wandered across the room and looked down the hallway toward their bedroom.
âI wasnât expecting company,â Lola said, picking up Johnnyâs dishes from the coffee table. She carried them to the sink.
Beau found her in the kitchen. âI like seeing people in their natural states. Donât clean on my account.â He walked to the fridge and pulled a photo from under a magnet. âCamping?â
âIn Yosemite.â
He studied Johnny and Lolaâs smiling faces. âYou have freckles.â
âTheyâre more noticeable when I get sun.â
âYou look young,â he said. âAnd happy.â
âWe were.â
He looked up at her with one eyebrow arched.
âYoung, I mean,â she said. âWe were young. Weâre still happy.â
His thumb pressed into the corner, sending a wrinkle through the center. He dumped the package heavily on the kitchen counter. âThatâs the first half of the money. I brought it in cash this time to avoid unwanted attention.â
âOh.â She stared at the parcel, feeling foolish. Itâd been presumptuous to assume it was a gift. âMaybe I should put it in a closet or something.â
âThat would be wise.â
Before she could move, he dropped the photo on top of the money and walked over to her. She held up her hands to stop him, but he took her face and kissed her, backing her against the counter.
She shoved him off. âStop,â she said, panting. âThis is his home.â
He looked into her eyes. âThatâs the last time tonight Iâll allow you to push me away. Iâve been as patient as I can.â He was also breathing hard. âSince we said goodbye, youâre all Iâve thought of.â
âYou wanted to see my place, fine. As long as weâre here, though, Iâm off limits. Completely. I donât give a damn about our agreement.â
He continued to stare at her. She braced herself, knowing how touchy he could be when it came to Johnny. Instead, he took a step back. âThen weâd better go. Iâm having a hard time getting ahold of myself.â
They made their way outside, and she locked up. Had he said heâd been thinking of her since theyâd said goodbye?
On the way to the car, he took her hand and brought it to his lips. âIâm glad you called. What we discussed on the phoneâit still stands, doesnât it?â
âI havenât been with Johnny.â
âI canât say Iâm surprised.â
He was baiting her, but she didnât even want to know what heâd meant by that. She looked at the ground. Did Beau think Johnny would be repulsed by her? Or that Lola was the one who didnât want it? She took the bait. âWhy arenât you surprised?â
âI challenge any man to be okay with knowing the woman he loves was just with someone else. Not just the act of it, but the intimacy. The closeness. The touching, whispering.â He glanced over at her, narrowing his eyes a fraction. âIâm not okay with it. Far from it.â
His voice was almost accusatory, as if he were in Johnnyâs shoes. âAre you talking about him or yourself? Does it bother you, Johnny and me?â
He returned his eyes forward as they approached the car, and it was a moment before he answered. He leaned over to open the door for her. âYes.â
She didnât move. âBut Iâm not the woman you love.â
He remained passive except that the angles of his jaw sharpened. âJust imagine if you were.â