The second I crawled out of bed, I fucking regretted it. With the power still out, it was fucking freezing.
Nearly two hours later, despite having started a fire and embarking on a grueling training session, I had failed hopelessly at distracting myself from both the cold and the situation Iâd walked away from the bedroom.
I knew what happened after I left. The sounds of Noelleâs moans were a harsh reminder of what I could have been getting involved in.
But Iâd already pushed my luck. Getting her off like I did this morning was a risk.
Hell, getting involved last night was a fucking risk. But at least we were all drunk. In the hard light of day, Hendrixâs opinion of me touching his girl might have been vastly different.
Call me a pussy, but I didnât really want to hang around long enough for him to kick me out of bed so he could have his girl to himself.
No one kicks me out of bed. Iâm either the one calling time on our rendezvous and leaving, or Iâm the one kicking her out of bed.
Theyâre usually too busy begging me for another roundâ¦
I let out a pained sigh as I continue with my workout. After all, thereâs fuck all else to do. Itâs not like Iâm about to go and cook Christmas Day breakfast.
Iâm pretty sure Iâve already ruined their vacation enough at this point.
Or have I?
Giggles erupt from the bedroom again, causing yet another sigh to pass my lips.
Iâm happy for them. I am. Itâs taken long enough. But also⦠watching them makes me feel more lonely than I ever have in my life.
Iâve always surrounded myself with people for a reason. But Iâm nothing but the third wheel at this party, and I hate it.
I push harder, forcing myself to work through the pain. I need it. Itâs the perfect distraction from everything I refuse to dwell on.
If I were in Austin with the guys right now, I wouldnât be having any of these issues.
Iâd be blissfully ignorant and probably in bed nursing a hangover from the epic night before.
What exactly I did to deserve the airline fucking me up the ass quite this badly, Iâve no idea.
They fucked me over good, thatâs all I fucking know.
The giggles and happiness get louder, and Iâve no choice but to look up when the happy couple emerge.
âYou have to be shitting me,â I mutter.
âWhat?â Elle mocks. âI think theyâre cute.â
âMatching Christmas sweaters are never cute,â I deadpan. âAnd plus, you werenât even a couple when you bought those,â I point out.
âAw, youâre just jealous that she didnât buy you one too,â Rix mocks, unaware of just how close to the mark that comment hits.
âFuck off,â I scoff. âYou wonât catch me dead in a matching sweater to a girl, no matter how hot she is.â
They both laugh at me, looking entirely too happy about this whole situation.
Itâs as infuriating as it is amazing.
I had my head between Noelleâs thighs last night. She came over my fingers this morning, and Hendrix isnât beating the shit out of me.
Fucking Twilight Zone here in Canada or some shit.
âOne day, youâll eat your words,â Hendrix tells me smugly.
Shaking my head, I continue with what Iâm doing. I might have been lonely with them locked in the bedroom, but now that theyâre here, Iâm not sure if seeing them all loved up in person is worse.
âBreakfast?â Noelle asks, gazing up at Hendrix like heâs just hung the moon.
âYeah, Iâm starving.â
âI wonder why,â I mutter.
âJealousy really isnât a good look on you, Bro.â
âNot jealous. Iâve got plenty of pussy just waiting for my attention. All I gotta do is video call one and boom,â I say making a little explosion gesture with my hand.
Noelleâs eyes darken with something before she mutters, âLovely,â under her breath and disappears into the kitchen.
Hendrix and I stand there in silence for a few seconds as she crashes around.
âYou good?â he finally asks me.
âYeah, of course,â I lie. âYou?â
âFuck, yeah. Itâs Christmas, and it started with being inside Noelle.â
âHendrix,â she moans, clearly listening to us.
âWhat? Iâm excited about it.â
Noelle chuckles and leaves it there.
âYou both deserve it.â
Rixâs mouth opens and closes as if he wants to say more, but no words pass his lips.
âJust spit it out,â I demand.
He moves a little closer and lowers his voice. âWe both enjoyed last night. Is that weird?â
âOnly if you want it to be. Sex is sex. Pleasure is pleasure,â I say with a shrug. âThereâs no shame in enjoying it in whatever form it comes in. Embrace it while it lasts, I say.â
âAnd youâre okay with it?â
âBro,â I laugh, although there isnât much genuine happiness in it and more self-loathing than Iâm used to. âOf course Iâm fucking okay with it. It was hella hot. As long as youâre good, Iâm good. And anyway, something needs to liven this vacation up.â
âYou didnât need to come,â he says for the millionth time.
âAnd where would you be right now if I hadnât?â I raise a brow to emphasize my point. When he purses his lips, I follow up with, âExactly, youâd still have blue balls and would be pining after Mrs. Claus in there.
âBeing the nice one only gets you so far in life, Rix. Every now and then, you just have to be a little bit naughty.â I wink before continuing with my sit-ups, letting him go and help his girl out.
Iâve no idea what sheâs cooking in there; we still have no electricity. I guess itâs going to be cereal all around⦠assuming they bought some.
âThatâs the last log,â I say as I drop it into the fire, watching the embers fly out and land on the hearth.
âShit,â Rix hisses.
âThereâs more though, right?â Noelle asks, sounding a little terrified that on top of surviving with no electricity, weâre now going to freeze to death.
Okay, probably a little bit dramatic, but itâs really fucking cold even with the fire. I canât imagine what this little wooden shack would be like without it.
At least we can snuggle⦠snuggling is funâ¦
âYeah, theyâre out in the woodshed.â
âOutside?â
âYeah. Thatâs generally where people keep their wood pile.â
âAll right, smart ass,â Noelle hisses.
But despite knowing what we have to do, all three of us just sit there.
âI made breakfast, so I think this job is for you two.â
âIâve been keeping the fire going. Rix, what have you done today?â
âMade Elle come.â
âSo did I,â I counter. âTry harder.â
Rix glares at me from his seat next to Elle on the couch.
âFine,â he huffs before pushing to his feet. âIt canât be that bad.â
âPut a coat on,â Noelle calls after him.
âWhat happened to my little rebel?â I ask teasingly.
She sucks in a breath, but her only response is to narrow her eyes.
Following Rix to the door, they exchange a few words I canât hear before he slips his feet into his sneakers and pulls his coat on like the good little boy that he is.
I shake my head. âSo fucking whipped already.â
âThere are worse positions to be in,â he shoots over his shoulder before reaching for the front door.
Itâs still snowing out, but itâs nowhere near as heavy as it was yesterday, and the wind has eased off, too. But that doesnât mean even an inch of the snow surrounding us has melted.
Curiosity has me climbing to my feet and following them.
I can only imagine what heâs about toâ â
âOh fuck,â Hendrix shouts as an avalanche of snow spills into the entryway.
âSee, snowslide,â I announce smugly.
âW-what?â Rix barks as he stares at the mess before him.
âNow what do we do?â Noelle asks in a panic as the wind proves my previous point wrong and whips around all three of us, making us shiver and wrap our arms around ourselves.
âWe need to move it,â Rix says helpfully.
âWhere to? Thatâs taller than me out there.â
Sheâs not lying. Where the wind has blown the snow against the side of our cabin, itâs almost unscalable.
Exactly why I didnât want to be the one to open the door.
Honestly, weâd probably have been better climbing out of a window. If I were less of an asshole, I might have pointed it out, but this is too funny.
âThe bathtub?â Rix suggests.
âYou want us to shovel all this with⦠something and dump it in the bathtub?â Noelle echoes in disbelief.
âWell, does anyone have a better idea that doesnât involve flooding the cabin?â
When we both stay silent, he continues. âRight, should we go and find something to shift this with?â He marches into the kitchen, leaving Noelle and me in the entryway.
âHe really shouldnât have opened this door,â I point out.
âYou didnât do much to stop him.â
âNeither did you,â I shoot back.
âHey, at least it gives us something to do.â
Noelle lets out a pained sigh. âI could think of other things we could be doingâ¦â
I step closer and wrap a loose lock of hair around my finger.
âOh yeah? Care to share?â
Her cheeks flush, letting me know that weâre most definitely on the same page here.
âElle, Wilder, get your asses in here,â Rix demands.
âBoring,â I mutter, spinning around to find him standing in the middle of the kitchen with bowls in hand. âYouâre serious about this, arenât you?â
âDeadly. Now start shoveling. The faster we can fix this, the faster we have logs and warmth.â
âFucking hell, this was not the kind of Christmas Day I signed up for.â
âYouâre telling me,â Noelle agrees as she takes her bowl and moves back toward the snowslide.
âThis is going to take forever,â Rix mutters as he shovels his first bowlful.
âShould have thought of that before opening theâ ââ
âUnless you have something helpful to say, will you please shut the hell up?â
Noelle catches my eye, and we both erupt in laughter like naughty school kids.
It takes all of about five trips to the bathroom to deposit snow before I make a decision. âWe need alcohol for this.â With that announcement made, I take off for the kitchen and retrieve the bottle of vodka from last night.
Thereâs less in there than I remember, but itâll get us started. And hopefully, help keep us warm in the process.
âAre you serious? Thatâs not going to help,â Rix complains.
âWill you stop being such a stick in the mud? Elle is up for it. Arenât you, little rebel?â
I hold the bottle out for her after Iâve taken a shot and wait.
Her eyes dart between mine and the bottle.
The old Noelle, the one Iâve known all my life, would most likely say no and continue on sober. But this new wild version of her⦠yeah, sheâs more likely to let go.
âLetâs be honest, itâs not going to make this situation worse, is it?â
âGood girl,â I praise when she swipes the bottle from my hand and swallows down two shots.
âRix?â she offers.
He lets out a heavy sigh but thankfully shakes off the seriousness and takes the bottle.
âTo Christmases weâll never forget,â he says as a way of a toast before chugging down a couple of mouthfuls and getting back to work.
He isnât wrong. This is most definitely a Christmas weâre all going to remember.