Hendrix is silent as he leads me toward the bathroom. My anxiety spikes with every step we take.
After closing the door, cutting us off from Wilder, he releases my hand and leans into the shower, turning the water on.
Iâm so lost in my own head that I donât think about our current situation or that the room is only illuminated with candles like the rest of the cabin, but the second he pushes me under the powerful stream of water, it all comes crashing down quickly.
âItâs freezing,â I shriek, attempting to jump straight back out of it. But Hendrix doesnât allow it. Instead, he reaches for the shower gel and squirts a generous amount into his palm.
He starts with my breasts, and I try not to think about why.
His touch feels so good, but the heat of his palms is nowhere near enough to make me forget about the ice water thatâs sluicing over both of us.
He washes himself down just as quickly, and only a minute or so later, heâs killed the water and is wrapping me in a huge fluffy towel.
âHendrix?â I whisper, achingly aware that he hasnât said a word since we walked away from Wilder.
His eyes bounce between mine, and no sooner has he wrapped a towel around his waist than he reaches up and cups my face in his large hands.
My breath catches. Thereâs so much emotion in his eyes itâs impossible to decipher everything heâs feeling right now.
Closing the space between us, he rests his forehead against mine as he releases my face and wraps his arms around my body, tugging me against him.
My heart thunders and my head spins with a mixture of alcohol and anxiety.
Did we just fuck everything up by doing that?
Does he think Iâm a whore?
Does he think I want Wilder more than him?
âStop,â he whispers. âEverything youâre thinking, stop it right now.â
My brows pinch in confusion and my lips part to respond, but he doesnât give me a chance.
âCome on,â he says, suddenly releasing me. He takes my hand again and tugs me into the bedroom.
The living room is in silence, and concern for Wilder floods through me.
Is he regretting what just happened? Is he worried about the fallout?
I almost laugh at myself when I realize what Iâm doing. Wilder doesnât worry about things that have happened. Hell, he barely spares a thought for things that are yet to happen.
The bedroom is in darkness, and Hendrix leaves me at the end of the bed while he lights some candles.
Itâs romantic, or at least it should be.
When he turns back around after lighting the final candle, his brows furrow when he finds me chewing on my nail.
âHey,â he says softly, reaching out to pull my hand free. âAre you okay?â
âRix,â I breathe.
âShit,â he curses, ripping his eyes from mine in favor of staring down at his feet. âYouâre regretting it, arenât you?â
âWhat?â I gasp, shocked by his words. âN-No, Iâm not regretting anything. Iâm⦠Iâm worrying about you and what happened andâ ââ
He cuts me off with his lips.
âStop,â he murmurs into our kiss.
Unhooking the towel from under my arms, he lets it drop to the floor before leading me to the bed.
Weâre still wet, but Iâm also cold, so I donât argue when he holds the sheets back and encourages me to slip in.
He follows me not a second later after losing his own towel.
Sliding his body right against mine, he wraps his arm around my back and holds me as close as possible.
âYouâre incredible,â he whispers, kissing the tip of my nose.
I shake my head. âI havenât done anything.â
He laughs. âOh, youâve done plenty, Miss Bell.â
My cheeks blaze red hot.
âOh my god,â I breathe before tucking my face into Hendrixâs chest. âI canât believe we did that. I blame the vodka.â
He chuckles, sliding his hand up and down my back supportively.
âThere doesnât need to be any blame, Elle. We did it because we wanted to. Because it was hot.â
âIt was really hot,â I confess against his chest.
âExactly. Weâre all consenting adults. Thereâs nothing to be ashamed of.â
âI know. I do know that. Itâs justâ¦â I let out a sigh and pull my head out of its hiding place.
âItâs just what, baby?â Rix asks softly.
âWeâve only just started. Donât you think that going from nothing to threeways with your brother in the blink of an eye is a bit much?â
He smirks.
âMaybe. But did it feel right?â
I think for a moment. âI wouldnât have done it if it hadnât. You wouldnât have either.â
âNo,â he muses.
âWere you really okay with it? Watching him⦠touching me?â
He bites down on his lip. For a moment I almost believe heâs thinking, but I quickly learn that heâs trying to stop his grin from breaking through.
âRix,â I cry, playfully slapping him on the shoulder.
âWhat? Trust me, if it were anyone but Wilder, Iâd have real fucking issues with it. But itâs Wild. I trust him. He wonât hurt you. And letâs face it, we both know heâs had enough practice to ensure heâll make you feel good.â
Hell, didnât he ever.
âI know but⦠you donât andâ ââ
âYouâre worried that Iâll compare myself to him?â he finishes for me.
âYeah. I know that we already fucked up. I donât want to give you any reason to think that I want him more than you. I donât. Heâs fun, sure. But itâs you, Rix. Youâre the one who owns my heart.â I press my hand to my chest, right over the organ in the hope it helps prove my words.
âI know,â he whispers. âItâs me and you, Elle. It was always meant to be. Having some fun with Wilder while weâre stuck here doesnât change that.â
âThis is crazy. You have to know that.â
He laughs again. âOh, I know.â
We donât say anything else. Instead, his lips find mine and we make out for what feels like hours before I finally fall asleep in his arms.
I wake with a start.
Itâs late. Later than Iâve woken in a really long time.
The sun isnât shining, but itâs light out.
I donât move; instead, I keep my head on the pillow and watch Rix sleep.
He looks so peaceful, so content.
Unable to stop myself, I think back to last night.
He told me that he was okay with what happened, but concern still knots up my insides. Wilder and Hendrix have a close relationship, I know that better than anyone. But Iâm also aware of how frustrated Rix can get with his brother.
Rix sees Wilder as the âbetterâ twin. I hate it. Just because Wilder got better grades at school and can catch a football, it doesnât make him a better person. But Hendrix has always felt like heâs in Wilderâs shadows, fighting and failing to stand up.
I find it hard to believe a little bit of that didnât slip in last night.
Our friendshipâour relationshipâmight be solid, but insecurities arenât that simple.
It tells me a lot about the trust he has in me, in our connection.
Heâs right, and as far as Iâm concerned, there isnât anyone else in the world I wantâwould ever wantâmore than Rix, and it warms my heart to know he feels the same way.
Iâm so lost in my own thoughts that when somethingâsomeoneâmoves behind me, I almost scream bloody murder, or at least I would if a large hand doesnât cover my mouth.
âYou think really loudly,â Wilder whispers. âWoke me up.â
He shuffles forward, and I suck in a sharp breath as his hot skin lines up against mine, the hardness of his morning wood against my ass.
Heâs naked.
Weâre both naked.
âWhat are you doing?â I whisper once he deems it safe to remove his hand.
âWell, I was sleeping.â
âB-but you sleep on the couch,â I counter.
âThe fire went out. It got cold, fast. Rix said I could join.â
âHe did, did he?â I accuse.
âI swear, he did. You were already asleep when I came in.â
âHmmm,â I mumble, unsure as to whether I believe him or not.
âDidnât realize just how much I lucked out until I got in and found his hot little naked body to cuddle up to.â
âWilder,â I gasp when he drops his hand to my bare breast.
âWhat? Rix wonât have an issue. Remember, what happens in the darkâ ââ
âItâs not dark,â I point out.
âFine. What happens at the cabin, stays at the cabin.â
âYouâre insufferable.â
âMaybe, but you also know that Iâm right. You remember just as vividly as I do the way he watched us last night. He fucking loved it. You did too.â
âI donât remember you complaining either.â
âFuck no. Iâd never complain about that kind of action.â
He continues teasing me, pinching my nipple and palming my breast.
âYou were something else last night,â he muses.
âNot sure what got into me.â
âWell, it wasnât either of our dicks, unfortunately.â
His words shouldnât cause a reaction in me, but damn it, they do. Just the thought of having one of them inside me does weird things to my insides.
âO-oh, I like where your mind is going right now, little rebel.â
âIâve no idea what youâre talking about,â I argue.
âLike I said, you think loudly. Plus, I know you better than you think I do. Iâm not as oblivious as my brother. I know that youâve been looking at him with sex eyes for years.â
âI have not,â I argue, although weakly, because heâs right. As soon as I was aware of Rix in that kind of way, I wanted him.
âYou have. Youâve been imagining what his dick might feel like inside you for years.â
I squeeze my eyes closed as my cheeks heat. I canât count how many times I laid in bed over the years, many times with him right beside me, imagining what it would be like if he reached over and pulled me to him.
âWant me to prove it to you?â
âWilder, what are youâOh Jesus,â I gasp as his hand sinks between my thighs.
Every muscle in my body screams for me to stop him, to keep him out, but one brush of his fingers against my clit and my body betrays me. My legs part and I allow him to drag his fingers up my aching core.
âSee?â he whispers, his breath rushing over my neck and down my back, making me shiver. âYouâre soaking just thinking about Rixâs dick.â
âY-you need to stop,â I argue weakly.
âNo, I donât,â he states, continuing to circle my clit.
âReach for his dick,â Wilder whispers. âMake his Christmas by waking him up with your hand wrapped around him and your needy moans in his ear.â
I hesitate, but only for a few seconds. My hand slides across the small space between us and find him hard and ready for me.
I study him, looking for any sign that he might be awake and aware of what weâre doing. But thereâs nothing.
âHe hard?â Wilder asks.
âY-yeah.â
âBet heâs dreaming about you.â
Heat surges through me at the thought of me featuring in as many of Hendrixâs dreams as he has in mine.
âOr maybe heâs dreaming about watching you with me. Kinky fucker seems to really like it.â
âWilder,â I moan when he pushes two thick fingers inside me.
As if he can hear, Rixâs dick jerks in my hold.
âThatâs it. Ride my hand while you jerk him off.â
âOh god.â
As he works me, Wilder grinds his cock against my ass, searching for some pleasure of his own.
âWhat do you think heâd do if he woke up right now? Suck on these addictive tits, or slide his dick straight into this tight, wet pussy?â
âEither. Both,â I pant, imagining every possibility.
âAnd what about me? Would I get your hand? Your mouth? Or your ass?â
âShit. Oh god, Wilder,â I cry, his filthy words and the image they conjure up enough to push me over the edge.
But Iâm not alone, because as I come down from my high, I register the movement of Rixâs cock in my hand, and more so the sticky residue thatâs sliding down my skin, and when I open my eyes, Iâm met with his heated blue ones.
âOh my god. Iâm sorry, Iâ ââ
Lifting his hand, he presses two fingers to my lips, cutting me off.
No one says anything for long seconds as my heart rate returns to normal, and just when I think heâs going to up the ante again, Wilder presses his lips to my shoulder, giving me a chaste kiss.
âMerry Christmas, little rebel,â he says before rolling away and climbing from the bed.
I want to stop him, but then Hendrix reaches for me and pulls me into his body, his lips stealing mine and completely consuming my thoughts.