I didnât get up with the intention of listening at the door like a creep. I was going to get a drink, but then I heard a moan and my feet took me in a different direction from what I was expecting.
I couldnât complain, though. It sounded hot. And it wasnât my fault that theyâd left the door ajar. Although, it might have been mine when I pressed my palm against the door and pushed it open a little wider.
Watching two people go at it isnât anything new to me. Iâve done all the wild parties and watched my teammates get up to all sorts with an audience.
But watching Hendrix with Noelle hit differently.
I was hard long before I laid eyes on them, just from the sounds they were making alone. But as I stepped into the doorway and started watching them grind against each other⦠Shit.
And they werenât even naked.
âYou need to get the fuck out,â Rix growls as he glares over his shoulder at me.
Itâs hard to take his anger seriously after watching him get off on his best friend.
âSorry,â I say, holding my hands up like I actually am.
Iâm not. I couldnât give a fuck.
âI couldnât help it. Sheâs hot when she comes, right?â
Hendrixâs expression flips in a heartbeat, and before I can blink, heâs off the bed and flying toward me.
âRix, no,â Noelle cries a beat before my twin brotherâs fist collides with my eye.
I stumble back, allowing the wall to catch me as my hands lift to cover my face.
âDude, the fuck?â
He comes at me again, this time hitting my jaw. Itâs not the first time weâve fought, and I highly doubt that itâll be the last, but unlike usual, I donât even attempt to retaliate. Why would I when I deserve the pain and everything he can throw at me?
I wonât deny that I fucked up both that first night at the party and then again this morning.
I just⦠I canât help myself.
âThatâs enough,â Noelle snaps, stepping between us and pressing her tiny palms to each of our chests.
Hendrixâs bare one heaves with a mixture of anger, frustration, and lingering desire. Iâm much more relaxed, although still very turned on.
âI should kill you for touching her,â Hendrix seethes.
I canât help myself; a smirk pulls at my lips. âAnd why would you do that? Have you already forgotten what just happened right there?â I say, pointing at the bed.
âYouâre an asshole,â Rix points out.
âThat isnât news to anyone, Bro. I do think you should probably be thanking me, though.â
Rix shakes his head while Noelle breathes, âLeave it.â
âI am disappointed, though. Youâre both wearing way too many clothes. Whatâs the problem, man? Worried sheâll discover mine is bigger?â
âYou fuckingâ ââ
âHendrix,â Noelle shouts, turning toward him and shoving him back.
âWhy are you protecting him?â Rix barks back.
âIâm not. Iâm stopping both of you. Fighting isnât going to solve anything,â she states firmly.
âWilder and I fucked up. It was reckless and selfish, and weâre sorry. Right?â she shoots over her shoulder.
âSorry for hurting you, yeah. I donât regret it, though.â
âWilder,â Noelle hisses.
âWhat? It was hot. And if it ultimately leads to this,â I say, gesturing between them, âthen it was more than worth it. I want you happy, Bro, and Iâm sorry for saying it but you needed a kick up the ass. Youâve been in love with Noelle for forever; you were just too pussy to do anything about it. So now⦠youâre welcome.â
Rix looks down at Noelle, and all his fight leaves him. Instead, his eyes go all soft and sappy. He really is hopelessly in love with her.
âYou okay?â she whispers, stepping up to him and cupping his cheek.
I watch them, feeling totally out of place as they gaze into each otherâs eyes. I should slip back out and leave them to figure this out together, but I canât. My feet are rooted to the floor.
âYes. No. I have no idea,â Hendrix confesses before lowering his forehead to rest on hers.
No more words are said, at least not out loud. I might not be a part of it, but they have quite an in-depth silent conversation.
âIâm going to go and clean up,â Hendrix finally says.
âI would,â I pipe up. âComing in your pants is all good fun until it goes cold and starts to dry.â
âFucking hell,â Hendrix mutters as he takes a step back from Noelle. His eyes lift to mine, and I read his warning long before he says the words. âCan I trust you with her?â
It hurts that he has to question it, but also, I totally understand. I havenât exactly proven myself to be trustworthy or respectful recently.
âOf course,â I agree.
âI fucking hope youâre right. If you touch her againâ ââ
âI wonât,â I agree. âNot without your permission, at least.â
Hendrixâs eyes widen, his chin dropping. âW-what?â
I canât help but laugh as my eyes meet Noelleâs.
âYou should get your girl to read you a bedtime story tonight. I think youâd enjoy it,â I say before twisting around and walking out of the room.
Forcing myself to walk away, I stop in the kitchen for the drink I wanted earlier before dropping back onto the couch as the news continues to report the incoming storm.
It was a bullshit question to blurt out when they first found me standing there, but it was for good reason. Weâre about to get hit with something we werenât expecting.
âWhat the hell?â Noelle gasps when she joins me a few minutes later, once again dressed in Hendrixâs hoodie.
Looking over, I find her staring at the TV with wide eyes.
âYou said you wanted snow,â I mutter.
âY-yeah butâshit,â she breathes as she lowers herself into the chair and watches the report. âThatâs a lot.â
âI hope you brought a couple of extra books. I donât think weâre going to be going anywhere for a while.â
It takes her a second to look over, but when I do, I find a mixture of anticipation and excitement dancing in her eyes. Not only that, I feel it too.
Things might be a bit weird right now, but the three of us trapped in a small cabin opens up a whole world of possibilities.
Maybe this trip isnât going to be so dull after all.
It takes another thirty minutes for Hendrix to appear, and when he does, he looks a little more put together and like himself again.
Predictably, his eyes find Noelle first, and Iâm pretty sure his chest compresses the second he sees that weâre sitting apart.
I might be reckless, but Iâm not fucking stupid.
âHey,â Noelle says softly.
âHey.â
Christ, he looks like a love-sick puppy. I thought it was bad before, but one round of dry humping and heâs completely fucking gone for her.
Suddenly, he rips his eyes away from her and turns to me.
âGet up,â he demands.
My brows lift. âIâm sorry?â
âYou heard me. Get up.â
âBut Iâm watchingâ ââ
âI donât care. Get the fuck up.â
Rolling my eyes, I do as Iâm told and get to my feet.
âPerfect, now go and get us all a drink and some snacks. Weâre watching a movie. Noelleâs choice.â
âObviously,â I mutter under my breath.
âIf you donât like it, you can go out.â
âFuck off, have you seen how hard itâs snowing?â
âNo, Iâve been kinda busy,â he points out, glancing at Noelle, his cheeks heating in a way Iâm sure sheâd describe as adorable.
âFine,â I hiss as I continue toward the kitchen to do my big brotherâs bidding so he can snuggle with his girl.
âWeâre getting hit with a storm. Theyâre predicting itâs going to be really bad,â Noelle explains. âWeâre probably going to be stuck here.â
âSounds awful,â Hendrix quips. âWhatever will we do?â
Noelleâs happy squeal rips through the cabin. Something weird twists up my stomach as I listen to them laugh.
Iâm not ashamed to admit that Iâm usually the focus of attention, so it feels weird to be the one on the sidelines.
I donât like it.
Jealousyâ¦
âGet a fucking grip,â I mutter to myself as I rip open a bag of chips and pour them into two bowls. Something tells me that Iâm going to be kicked off the couch now.
Their laughter continues as I grab beers and head back out with the bowls precariously balanced on my hand and arm.
Unsurprisingly, theyâre cuddled up on the couch. Itâs not an unusual position for them to be in, but if itâs possible, they look even closer than ever now.
Hendrix spots me the second I walk into the room, and his eyes follow me as I place everything on the coffee table in front of him.
âGood enough for you, Sir?â I mock.
âItâs great,â Noelle says, leaning forward to grab two of the beers.
She passes one to Hendrix, but heâs too busy glaring at me to notice.
âI get that youâre pissed with me, Rix. Iâm sorry. I fucked up. But can you blame me? Youâve seen her; sheâs hot.â
âShe is sitting right here.â Noelle scoffs.
âYeah, and youâre hot. But seriously, weâre going to be stuck here for a few days at least by the looks of it, you canât stay pissed all that time.â
âYou wanna bet?â
âBut itâs Christmas,â I state. âAnd weâre family.â
âYou were meant to be in a different country right now,â Hendrix mutters.
âYeah, well, arenât you lucky that Iâm not? You might not have come in your pants just now if I were elsewhere.â
âWill you just shut the hell up?â
I shrug before dropping into the chair with my bottle of beer and bowl of chips.
âWhat are we watching?â I ask, although I already have a very good idea.
âChristmas movie,â Noelle says.
âWonderful. I hope thereâs a good car chase and gunfight.â
I feel the heat of her stare when she turns it on me, but I donât look back. I donât need to give Hendrix another reason to hate me right now.
âYouâd be so lucky. Pretty sure itâs Hallmark,â my brother mutters.
âEven better. I fucking love Christmas,â I say before throwing a handful of chips into my mouth.
We fall into a comfortable silence as the movie begins. As predicted, itâs cheesy as fuck and possibly the most cringeworthy thing Iâve ever seen. But Noelle seems to enjoy it, and I guess thatâs the main thing here.
Itâs only about twenty minutes in when my cell buzzes in my pocket and I find a message from Benny, one of my teammates, in our group chat.
I lose myself messaging the guys, trying to ignore the presence of the couple in front of me.
They look cute. Too fucking cute, and I canât help but find myself wondering what it would be like to find a girl I actually wanted to spend time with outside of the bedroom, or the back of my car, or the locker roomâ¦
Itâs a bizarre concept, but it soon hits me that Noelle is the only girl Iâve ever really spent any time with. All the others⦠theyâve never interested me enough to give me a reason to keep them around.
I tell myself that itâs because sheâs Hendrixâs best friend, that I havenât had a choice in having her in my life. But I canât help wondering if itâs more than that.
Thereâs a break in the group chat, and I risk looking up. I want to say Iâm surprised that neither of them is watching the movie and theyâre instead having a hot and heavy make-out session, but Iâm not. Theyâve both been waiting for this for years; I guess itâs only right they try and make up for lost time.
I just wish I had somewhere to go, but other than chilling out on their bed, or lazing in the bathtub, Iâm pretty fucking stuck.
Closing our group chat, I scroll through the messages from girls Iâve got in my inbox. I could message one of them and Iâve no doubt theyâd happily reply, maybe even video call, but unlike usual, the idea isnât all that tempting. Instead, I find my eyes lifting once again.